"desperation Is Not A Cute Look" I Say As If I've Not Been Crawling And Scraping And Begging For So Long

I don’t even go to this fandom anymore, I don’t ship dron, and I will likely never read your fics, but the snippets I see of your writing on tumblr are utterly delightful, and it’s a joy whenever I scroll across a post of yours

Keep going dude, this is fantastic

you don't know how much this means to me

you weren’t “born socialist”, you chose to watch robin hood (1973) age 9 and built your whole belief system around it

that childhood abuse survivor feel when you see a healthy family and part of you is happy that not everyone had to suffer like you did but the rest of you is just in this deep agony looking at what you never got to have

Keanu Reeves and River Phoenix (1991)

this is amazing

i’ve decided the new gender neutral form of Ms/Mr is just THE

Federico García Lorca, Blood Wedding and Yerma

I burned so long so quiet you must have wondered

if I loved you back. I did, I did, I do.

Annelyse Gelman

Richard Jackson, from “Basic Algebra,”

My heart's in my mouth

Have you figured it out?

I still love you, even more now

Butterflies by Scouting for Girls

“This Is What Baggage Looks Like” Trista Mateer

As long as something is never even started, you never have to worry about it ending.

Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever

James Patterson, The Angel Experiment

And this urge to run away from what I love is a sort of sadism I no longer pretend to understand.

Martha Gellhorn, Selected Letters

I think I’d rather keep the bullet this time. It’s mine, you can’t have it, see,

I’m not giving it up. This way you still owe me, and that’s

as good as anything.

You can’t get out of this one, Henry, you can’t get it out of me, and with this bullet

lodged in my chest, covered with your name, I will turn myself into a gun, because

it’s all I have,

because I’m hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own.

Richard Siken, Crush (Wishbone)

finally posted it you guys!!!

powering thru a filler chapter rn, so here are some small funny bits released from fic-jail bc they made me laugh as i wrote

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Jungkook' hair highlights 🤝 Jimin' hair color

There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.

Edit- I added the visualizer for this piece on my YT, check it out here

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

powering thru a filler chapter rn (for inspiral), so here are some small funny bits released from fic-jail bc they made me laugh as i wrote

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