Ch4 Of Inspiral Is Up!!

if jasmine tea were a person we'd make out

Fun Fact when Regulus died Sirius barely moved, barely ate, barely looked at anyone or anything for days besides the only picture he had of Regulus as a child, smiling and clutched it to his chest while whispering "my baby, my baby, my baby" on repeat to himself as tears streamed down his face.

(And Remus could do nothing but hold Sirius as his heart broke for him and James)

i had to cut a knot out of my cat’s fur. for the first time in his life, in the ten years i have known him, he put his teeth on my hand, gently, a warning, telling me i was hurting him but unwilling to let that message sink in. 

i wonder how many people i have hurt worse than my cat hurt me. how many hands were trying to help me that i turned and devoured. i was so angry, so often, bristling with so many tangles that no knife could slit open. people who loved me tried everything and i snarled at them. how hurt i was when they were angry i was acting out of order. i would find out later their anger at my behavior was just because they were scared to death i was going to explode and they’d lose me and it came out looking angry.

i wish i could be like my cat. to warn that i was in pain, gently. to only lash out with the littlest of teeth. to know that sometimes what looks like an attack is actually a sign of love. but i only know claws, and using the fullest force of my venom to hurt others when they never meant to hurt me. i know logically sometimes there’s pain to pull the glass out. but i can’t stop myself from reacting.

not a fan of the twinkification of his character BUT i absolutely think draco would listen to hyperpop (if somehow given the opportunity) specifically in 6th year specifically at the lowest points of his life, like:

[having a crying, screaming mental breakdown in the Room of Hidden Things with Faster n Harder playing in the bg]

draco, reassuring himself through tears: yeah i'm still a bad bitch [continues hysterically sobbing]

(This is, obviously, very condensed. Also, feudalism looked different in different European nations. Here, I’m focusing more on Britain. It wasn’t the first place to introduce modern capitalism but is a big part of the story.)

me anytime i get too passionate abt something, 98% of the time something vapid/nonsensical + inconsequential: [vibrating with pent-up fixation] i need to be put down, i need to be put down like a sick dog

i think the absolute best way to write ron is to make him so calm and easy-going and mellow (in his pov), especially in how he thinks abt himself, the epitome of "i'm just a chill guy :]"

and then you read the subtext/context/what's actually going on Outside his Head and suddenly he's being physically restrained from punching a bitch and getting into all-out public brawls that get them kicked out of stores

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How DIDN'T he already know. (He already knew)

ideal ship dynamic: autism x the most severe psychological issues you've ever seen on a person