"AHAHAHAHAHA" and other muted clanking sounds came from within the cage in the corner of the classroom.
"uh, professor, the hamster is manically laughing again." the student sitting closest to the cage was ignored again by the rest of the class; becoming increasingly more uneasy as the cage started whirring and vibrating a few minutes later.
In this 45 student college class there are two serial killers. They don’t know each other, but they both think they are the most dangerous student in this class. They are wrong, very, very wrong.
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Dabi: Make a man a fire, he’s warm for a day.
Dabi: Set a man on fire, and he’s warm for the rest of his life.
as i read somewhere, there is no reason too little if it helps you stay alive. anyone who sees this, maybe go out and watch the sun set today? the sky's softness helps me out a lot, maybe it'll help you too
Nobody would miss me if i were gone and i guess that I just wanted to know your best reasons for living because I’m coming up short.. :(
i really don’t know, i was just thinking this the other day :/ i try to focus on what’s going to get me through today rather than what’s going to get me through my life. i can’t think about my life. mostly i come up with small, basically meaningless reasons like eating my fave food or the sky or the possibility of the world finally cutting me some slack and loosening its grip on me a bit. i try to think about it a lot, how i haven’t met everyone i’m supposed to meet or seen everything i’m supposed to see. a lot of the time it’s not even any of that that keeps me here though, it’s just that dying is too hard. too scary. too inconvenient. too permanent. so look for the minor moments of peace or even just numbness, the lack of pain, that you find on a daily or weekly basis. anything that brings you a semblance of joy, no matter how little. art, music, walking, special interests, books, animals. whatever it may be. the trick of mental illness is that it often makes these things feel dull and insignificant and pointless. yet engaging in them despite that, even for five minutes a day, can be super self soothing even so. when it comes to the bigger reasons, the more existential reasons, i suppose my mind drifts to my family and the people around me. ig on some level we have to recognize that trauma and mental illness often skews our perception so much that we don’t even have an accurate idea of our own existence or what it means to people. you’re probably utterly convinced that nobody would miss you but you’ve been on a diet of self hatred for god knows how long, and so you can’t possibly fathom the way you’ve made a difference in people’s lives - directly and indirectly. after my sister died, i got a lot of anons telling me they had put off their own suicide after seeing how devastated i was, after realizing the absolute irreversible gravity of death and losing someone and how it can wreck the people who know you. and that has a ripple effect, on people who didn’t even know you that well, too. it’s just a spiderweb of hurt that never ends. i’m not saying you have to stay alive purely for others, but i am saying it’s something to consider when looking for reasons to stick around. another thought i often have is that i am going to be dead for all of eternity. it’s coming sooner than i think, and there’s nothing i can do about it. so i might as well ride it out until i get there and observe the brief flash of human consciousness i got. because it took coincidence after coincidence for millenia to get me here in the first place. but honestly, none of this is going to ring true for you if you don’t try to confront the underlying causes for these thoughts and feelings. i know it’s easier said than done, and idk the details of your situation or anything. but if it’s possible, or when it’s possible, i would really recommend reaching out to a professional - a hot line, your doctor, a support group, a therapist - if you can, or even just your friends and family to begin with. mental health issues are just as serious as physical health issues and often need the same level of medical care in order to overcome them. and that’s alright. you don’t have to go into great detail about what’s going on right away, and there’s no rush here. but learning to cope healthily and compartmentalize by talking through your pain and being truly heard, is not as impossible as it seems at the moment. it is not some far away goal, it can begin by picking up the phone. obviously this is a super daunting prospect, and i understand that, but it’s just something to think about for now. you deserve support, and a future. this current mental anguish is not all there is. anyway sorry my answer is all over the place, none of this is coming out right and it probably wasn’t the best one i could give to be honest, but it’s where i’m at right now too and i just can not focus. sending you a lot of love. you do matter. please take care x
sorry to disappoint but there's no murder, unfortunately, though dron murder husbands (while extremely ooc, least likely characters to actually get off their asses and kill someone) would be awesome
i'm referencing these tags specifically:
i too, hate when problems aren't simple enough to be solved by murder, we have to resort to hitting the books unfortunately 😔
random meme of a future scene in inspiral:
ron: i'm glad this experience could bring us closer
draco, feeling lightheaded: blood . . there's blood everywhere . . . [shakily covering his mouth with a hand] how are we going to clean this all up . .
dobby, popping in suddenly: i thought i be tellings wheezy and not-master draco to not be doing anything Fucking Stupid
anyways dobby nation rise up‼️
"why the fuck am i into this freak"
"i need to know what's wrong with him. not in a weird way. in . . a scientific way; a purely academic need"
enemies-to-psychosexually obsessed with each other. more of that
still can’t get over how in birdbox the main characters casually speculate how north korea or iran is behind all the scary bullshit like wow america’s imperialist propaganda never stops
why don’t you read a poem about the sunrise written 5 centuries ago and contemplate the fact that we have been writing about the same sun for centuries upon centuries and then maybe you’ll calm down
they arent a rarepair in my heart bc i think about them constantly and it needs to stop and also ive gotta finish my physics hw
you weren’t “born socialist”, you chose to watch robin hood (1973) age 9 and built your whole belief system around it
Ron would be an auror yes, not bc he's particularly ambitious or glory/thrill/danger-seeking or combat-talented or morally driven, but bc it's the closest thing to a Detective the wizarding world has and i think he'd be rlly good at that
verisimilous on ao3 ➳ they call me the CDC the way i run the Collaborative Delulu Center
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