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I'm so stupid bc I'm 1 month near to have 18 years old and I'm still thinking that my mom loves me. She doesn't, she loves the idea of me that she made in her head and every time that I do something that it's not like how she thinks about me (basically exists) she gets angry and yells at me telling me how bad daughter I am, how useless I am, how dumb, stupid and unresponsable I am, how I'm going to die in a stupid situation that I made bc I made a mistake, how heartless and selfish I am bc I never put her first and how manipulative I am bc I got this vascular problem (diagnosed by 3 tests that she made me do it bc she was thinking that I was faking it at first) that make conducive to fainting bc of the warm and stand up in my feet for long periods of time and that makes me feel unsafe going to do tasks when it's super hot outside or when my period cramps makes me unable to get up out of the bed and how I use these problems to not do anything when I do a lot of tasks everyday.

Why did she have me if isn't going to love me anyway as she promised? She was a fucking 38 years adult AND I'M THE SECOND DAUGHTER SHE HAVE IT'S NOT LIKE THIS WAS NEW FOR HER. She knew in what things she was going into, and it's not like my big sister have a better relationship with her than me, no, I'm the one with the better relationship. But it still makes me feel so bad everytime that I'm around her. Every thing feels bad, and the air is heavy and it's so sad that I'm not surprised if my mom insults me everytime that she sees me.

Why she doesn't love me? What did I do? It sounds hopeless but I'd really want to know bc I wanna fix it so my mom would love me.

I love Harry Potter bc all the characters have flaws and I have to rely on the canon to completely like them, it's like a whole new reality that is just like a normal reality + the books to zone out of that reality.

It's like a I zone out of the first reality, I fall into the canon world of Harry Potter and then I zone out of that other reality reading the books (fanfics) of that reality.

Not me, going back to Tumblr after 5 years because my emo phase aged like fine wine and I ended up in a Dark academia phase that lasts forever.

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First of all Welcome!

Started: January first of 2021.

Estate: Active.

Last time actualized: 8 of September, 2021.

My GUIDELINES!

PLEASE READ THAT POST BEFORE MAKING ANY REQUEST. There you can find what characters, fandoms, kinks, etc I`m writting for.

My MASTERLISTS!

Harry Potter.

Sherlock. (Coming soon)

Narnia. (Coming soon)

Buen día

Realmente amo la pareja de Fleur y Bill, son muy lindos juntos y se nota que se aman. Tengo la imagen mental de Fleur diciéndole a Bill en la mañana “Buenos días” en Francés (Bonjuor) y a Bill tratando de repetirlo, fallando estrepitosamente. Los imagino en la cama, Bill abrazandola, mientras ella tiene su cabeza recostada en su hombro. Supongo que están en esa poscición durante unos diez minutos, tratando de que al pelirrojo le salga esa palabra. En cada intento de Bill, Fleur soltaría una risa cantarina y Bill se la quedaría mirando, asombrado por lo linda que se veía. Finalmente se levantarían de la cama con una sonrisa adornando su rostro.

Estas pequeñas imágenes mentales son hermosas.

I think we got something here. Remember how they talked about the madness of the Black family, surely more than simple insanity as Muggles have it, as it is magic and in fact there are several disorders that are easily heritable.

What if there is a magic gene that makes you more prone to insanity? What if the only way to defend yourself against that was with occlusion? And thanks to that, your immune system develops a great occlumency activity since you are little.

Think about it, we know that Narcissa lied to Voldemort. And we also know that Draco could block Severus Snape and, possibly, Albus Dumbledore and Voldemort. We can also assume that Regulus Black was able to do it too, but I'm not quite sure about him.

We don't talk enough about Bellatrix being the one who taught Draco oclumency.

I feel so much unlike me when I speak in my second language

Draco Malfoy

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Headcanons*

Once I solved everything about this show, the two things that bothered me the most were Ruby and Otis whole thing about not saying ILY back at moment... Like I know they needed a reason to break them up so Maeve and Otis could happen, but honestly is so shitty to really break up about that, it was rushed and I didn't feel it natural. And then Otis and Maeve are still "in love" with eachother after not talking for months, they didn't have a lot of scenes in this season and in most of them Otis shows the emotional intelligence of a child. Maeve was right, Otis don't understand her, he understands a lot of things but he doesn't understand her completely. Otis is super awkward everytime he's around Maeve, while with Ruby he talks a little more. She urges him to be more open, she might even have helped him with the whole "therapy" thing but Otis never discussed it with Ruby. They could have been everything but they need more development, they needed to grow up together.

The second thing is Hope, I liked her at first, but I think calling herself a feminist and then saying that her "body doesn't do the only thing they have to do" irks me a little too much. Because I know that could be within the whole infertility plot they gave her, all the frustration and pain. The subject makes me a bit emotional, but I like that they included it ... However, Hope had a strange fixation on Cal, probably because it's for the sake of the plot, but she locks them in an empty classroom because they was wearing their uniform wrong. It's a lot for something minor like that, she could have created penalties for students who misuse uniforms, or something like that.

I think her actions are over the top for Cal's situation, compared to Adam and Lily, wearing the uniform a couple of sizes larger is not such a terrible thing or that it is of great concern. Also, I don't think Cal is the only person we see wearing the wrong uniform, Ruby always rolled up her skirt and Adam was always polished, but no one ever said anything to them. And even if Cal was the only one wearing the larger size uniform, she would have 99% of her students in perfect shape, she could leave it as a minor inconvenience, give them penalties. It was too much for so little.

Also it bother me so much how pleased she was after Layla, the younger NB character, said that they(?) was going to the girls room for the sex ed class.

So all these actions sound a bit strange to me, because it is a repetitive behavior that can be connected to what she believes. And I don't like it, that could mean she's transphobic. And I think the writers didn't write her to be transphobic, they just put her together and didn't notice her repetitive behavior with respect to the body that has a uterus and then the different gender entities.

These tow things have that in common, that the writers didn't plan it, but we noticed.

The rest was good, clearly Adam was the one who had the best development. Some people say it was Ruby, but I don't think so, I think we saw things about her that we didn't know before but we don't really know if she matured. Eric and Otis friendship is beautiful as always, same with Maeve and Aimee. But we also see some Ola and Adam, Lily and Otis, Ruby and her friends, Viv and Jackson ... They did great with friendships.

Yes there were bad things, like Otis and Maeve kissing when Maeve was with Isaac, Eric cheating on Adam, Jean not knowing who the father of her daughter is ... A lot of infidelity plot for 8 chapters.