I Wanted To At Least.be 46.5 Kg By The End Of This Month. I Only Gained Weight! I’m A Disappointment

If you can pinch it, you can lose it.

I don’t need a normal appearance.

I don’t need a standard weight.

I don’t need an ideal physique.

I need to look sick and dead.

I need to be underweight.

I need to be skin and bones.

Guys tw me at my lw…sorry if this is triggering for anyone 😥😥🥺🥺🥺

Take me back 💔

𝜗𝜚 — i promise i'm cool, you guys.

4n4 April challenge!

Let’s do this challenge so we look UNRECOGNIZABLE by the end!

April 1 - 1000 cals

April 2 - water fast

April 3 - 500 calorie

April 4 - fruit mino

April 5 - 600 cals

April 6 - Omad

April 7th - metabolism day (for those who need it, I usually don’t do it) if you’re not doing it like me then limit is 800 cals

April 8th - water fast

April 9 - 2 meals (should be under 700 cals)

April 10 - 300 calories

April 11 - 200 calories

April 12 - 100 calorie

April 13 - 700 cals

April 14 - 300 cals

April 15 - Diet Coke mono

April 16 - tea/coffee mino

April 17 - water fast

April 18 - omad (solid food finally lol)

April 19 - 1000 cals

April 20 - 100 cals

April 21 - omad

April 22 - 500 cals

April 23 - fruit mono

April 24 - 700 cals

April 25 - 1200 cals

April 26 - 800 cals

April 27 - 400 cals

April 28 - 300 cals

April 29 - 100 cals

April 30 - liquid fast

The word 4nor3xic seems so unfamiliar to me sometimes. So distant. So not me, but at the same time it is me. It is what makes and breaks my day. I relate and understand it so well, but at the same time I feel distant from it. Like I am just watching from outside of my body.

not all angels are in heaven. for example i’m mostly at home

I need to treat food as a fuel not as a comfort.

Food is there to keep me alive not to taste good.