TW: Implications Of Self Deletion And Dubcon/$@ Near The End

april 20, 2024 — secret garden language

im in the hospital in a waiting room

my thighs are sweating, the air hot and stuffy

its too early in the morning to feel like noon

thoughts of you are the only thing keeping me steady

my music flows smokey, the album's nice

messy poetry, paradox hearts & minds

weeds on my back, sick of putting you first

its ok to love him more, my heart's seen worse

i hope the 6 year old garden was fun

the fruits of your seed and spring has begun

so for the first time in forever

abatinas and cyclamens bloom in my weather

and when winter comes, what will you do?

will another bloodthirsty creature welcome you too?

will you drain them of life and trick them like a fool?

goodluck on the run, my laugh's one haunting ghoul

— reddestofscarves, 11:00 pm.

" lied to a girl who hardly knew but thought the world of you, tryna trust in something new, still waitin' on you . . . . "

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Edit Note: I'm really amazed by how much love this post got. Guess it just shows we're all in the same boat. I do have other humorous writing memes on this tumblr under the same tag, if you're interested. Never give up writing! ❤️

Edit Note 2: I can't believe this has reached 10000 notes. Been on tumblr for almost ten years (different account) and nothing like this has ever happened before. Thank you! 😊

november 7, 2024 — love of mine

you know i'd love to stay the same

you know there's nothing left to say

neither of us stand at fault

yet this is the price we pay

maybe in another life

we wouldn't have this strife

free from the guilt

and yearnings fullfilled

you deserve someone who'll stay

through the good and the bad

and i'm sorry it couldn't be me

despite what we had

but i deserve someone too

to make the long run with me

not run me through

happy to love all i'm yet to be

no, you don't need me

if you did, i would not have scars

no, you aren't sorry

if you were, i wouldn't have to count

i think it's time to face our truth

heal and forgive what remains of our youth

yes, i loved you

but no love of mine will heal you

— reddestofscarves, 7:31pm

december 7, 2024 — childhood dwellings

the leaves have turned brown

the world has quieted down

icy winds seep through our fingers

biting cold that sleeps and lingers

that weightless checkered blanket

wilted flowers basking in the sunset

that empty swing swaying

childish laughter keeps ringing

we cried and laughed

through times dark or daft

all good things come and go

naive promises of "i love you so"

as we carved our names in the rough bark

and vowed to protect eachother's heart

your arms became a home

and i became your own

even as time is not as forgiving

as when we were kids and simply living

the sea will guide us to our fated shores

tides sweeping sands of long-past wars

as the stars witness our beginning and end

the best in the world, my only friend

those handheld cracks in the tree

will always know it was you and me

- reddestofscarves, 1:28pm

just wait guys my tumblr will be active again soon this next school years gonna be so shitty for me

april 6, 2024 — situationship

are we still friends?

were we more?

when all that's begun has come an end

will everything be back to the way it was before?

and my soul hates everything about you

doesn't mean my heart can't miss you

so when you're gone and i'm through

i'll pretend to move on too

oh, brought to a stop and then what?

i'm faced with a paradoxical thought

childhood memories are soulful wealth

how do i tune silence out with itself?

but i knew it then, it was our last day

see it in your eyes, "sorry it had to end today"

i shake my head, smile wide and say

"it's okay, no hard feelings anyway"

despite everything back then

when i pick up my paper and pen

my mind drifts to you, sweetest bullet bitten

and i'll write the messages i can't send

— reddestofscarves, 1:20pm

i wish to kiss you

in places the sunlight from the window doesn't reach

at the wrong moment to breach

on the dented mattress and pillow

in the heart you will never let me know.

- reddestofscarves, 10:23pm on febuary 8, 2024

april 1, 2024 — luna

oh, luna, tell me so

do you love me enough to let me go?

if you're the moon and i'm the sun

don't you think i'm better off alone?

oh, luna, i'm not the only star you'll find

rigil's brighter and toliman's one of a kind

being good is different from perfect

don't settle, consider every aspect

when i said you were the best thing to happen to me

i actually meant that only you ever stole my need to be free

oh, luna, i hope you'll understand

that going with you is to forget me

but being me won't stop my heart

from knowing we were written in the stars

and how i loved you from the start

always and forever, from here and afar

— reddestofscarves, 4:05 pm

febuary 3, 2024 — night time is a past-time

darling, the moon and stars know your name

every night i sing about it with shame

and every sonnet i write is the same

will you ever forgive me again?

in the dark of night, these terrors lie

creepies that crawl and bats that fly

something i can't face, in the clouds i'm still high

'cause my greatest fear is saying goodbye

but i used to bike in this neighbourhood of mine

lately all that's passed the streets is time

so it goes and the churchbells chime

i'll have to accept i'm out your light of lime

moon's not out tonight, maybe i'll be fine

maybe this time i won't dream you're mine

moon's not out tonight, maybe i'll be fine

maybe this time i won't dream you're mine

- reddestofscarves, 10:07pm