Six Of Crows By Leigh Bardugo

I’m so tired I need to sleep but they

THEY WONT LET ME SLEEP

Minor six of crows spoiler

“Go little rockstar” but it’s aditi watching Jesper overcome his addiction and find peace within himself

WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT FALA

canon things that Kaz has said/thought about Inej that I always forget about until I reread:

she is his greatest weakness

“I’m going to get my money, Kaz said. And I’m going to get my girl.”

his breath catches EVERY TIME that he looks at her

“I couldn’t bear to watch you fall”

he imagined watching her braid come uncoiled and wrapping it in his hand and rubbing his thumb over the pattern of the plait

he has had thoughts of Inej that involve moonlight and silk and hair

he trusts her and knows she is the one person who would never betray his weaknesses

he would die to see her smile /that way/ again

he bought her a warship (I haven’t forgotten this part but I couldn’t leave it off the list because the Bastard of the Barrel literally made her dream possible even though it means she will be away from him)

“say you’ll return” (!!!!!!!!!!) (I always, ALWAYS forget this line and it kicks me right in the gut when I reread it. He. Said. THAT.)

“IS MY TIE STRAIGHT”

I think one of my favorite aspects of the Six of Crows duology is the fact that Kaz and Inej do not end up together.

And that’s not because I don’t ship them.

It’s because Inej, unlike so many YA heroines, isn’t what “heals” Kaz. Her love doesn’t magically fix him or make him a better person. He wants to change for her– he wants to get over his phobia of human touch. He wants her to love him. But it isn’t some overnight happening. He doesn’t suddenly overcome his affliction because of his love for her.

In the end, Kaz is still morally ambiguous, sometimes outright corrupt, and still has severe PTSD trauma.

And while Inej might love Kaz despite those things, she is not willing to lower her worth to accept them in a relationship. “I will have you without your armor, Kaz Brekker. Or I will not have you at all.”

That was one of the most powerful YA heroine lines to her love interest that I’ve ever read. So many fictional girls (and real girls, for that matter) stay in the hopes of fixing a man, of healing his brokenness. Inej wants to heal him, but she understands that she cannot. Only Kaz can heal himself. Only he can want it enough to change. And it won’t be some overnight affair. Wanting to change and actually changing are two entirely different things. Kaz will have to go through agonizing changes if he ever wants to grow.

So far, he has accepted that he is the “demon of the barrel”. He still wants to burn the world down. He is still angry and hurting. He talks about wondering why over the years, with every violent turn his life takes, why his phobia has only gotten worse. It’s because he’s let himself rot in it. He’s stripped any and all goodness in the world down to the barest threads.

That’s why he is not ready for Inej. Inej, who might have her own issues and flaws, but who still has hope for a better world. Who is still willing to fight for it.

It’s not Kaz’s inability to touch her that she wants him to work on. It’s his mindset. His finality in the evil in his heart and his acceptance of it. He will never get over his phobia until he can understand goodness, the goodness of touch, the goodness of man.

And Inej will not accept him while he still holds on to that armor of hatred. And I think that is beautiful. It is healthy. It shows a level of self-respect that is often sadly absent from our fiction today.

This scene, honestly. I just love it. especially the part where Kaz says "that's the laugh".🧡😭🧡.

Also... That little "is my tie straight" vulnerability from Kaz is one of the most precious things I have read.

And also that "He had his arm around her".

The fact that they both had such deep wounds and their PTSD. And also maybe because they never really had any kissing scenes, my brain has just made all of of their encounters super intimate. And. I.cant.stop.crying.

I just love this scene so much.

SIX OF CROWS AND CROOKED KINGDOM SPOILERS

I love this scene

Wanna hear a sad thought

So this has been scratching at the back of my brain for a few days now from a combination of a few things. Mainly a post about SOC feeling lie an origin story for an even greater myth (its somewhere on my blog if you can be bothered to find it) and an ask I got about if Inej died what would happen to Kaz which got me thinking about character death and what happens post CK to our lovely crow children. I’ve been noticing all the headcanons lately are super fluffy and like people naming Kaz and Inej’s children, which yes I know all fandoms do this and yes they are still good and make me happy. I just can’t feel like they’re real even if they capture personalities well and them still being a decent amount angsty because I don’t think anything like that gets to happen. The end of CK opens a lot of potential problems, hiding Kuwei was just a bandaid fix to a whole plethora of issues that are going to wreak havoc on the grishaverse. It definitely feels like the preceding story to something huge. Lot’s of characters with powerful connections and political tension, and manipulation. Basically like world war in the grishaverse, I think everyone from our little crew gets involved one way or another, they wouldn’t be the main characters of this story, but the ripple effect would get to all of them Nina especially because she’s a member of the second army.

The secret to Jurda Parem would get out and its as Van eck said throwing global markets into chaos, the Shu are making more Khergud soilders and using them to hunt grisha. The second army is still not at its strength, and its trying to recruit more soilders, Nina is there as well as Kuwei who works away on the antidote for Parem. He is never successful though. Nina manages to recruit Jesper into the second army when he sees whats happening to grisha convincing him its the safest place, and a strong cause. Wylan’s father’s empire or his now isn’t doing well because the markets are in total chaos, and he goes to Ravka with Jesper.

Inej is true to her word hunting slavers, but with the secret to Parem revealed most slave ships are capturing grisha, and they are being sold, having their worth increased. Most of the grisha she frees are taken to Ravka, but a decent amount have joined her crew, or crews because Inej now has several vessels under her command. She still goes back to Ketterdam and she and Kaz have a blossoming romance, but it doesn’t last long.

Kaz dies. Its a few years after SOC, but I don’t think he lives past 23. Despite all his threats, spider webs of lies, and Important connections. He’s pissed off the wrong people. The wrong grisha, essentially Kaz gets in deep shit with the council of tides, and despite what he says at the end of crooked kingdom he doesn’t really have much leverage. Once the secret to parem gets out the fake plague has resided, of course Ketterdam is still in chaos because of the war. Kaz is the only one of our crew still in Ketterdam, so when it somehow leaks about their heist, stealing Kuwei, the auction, and Kuwei dying and getting smuggled off to Ravka. The evidence is uncovered, with Ketterdam hanging on by the skin of its teeth, people are mad, and looking for someone to blame. So they blame Kaz. Of course it isn’t technically right to peg one man for all this trouble, but plenty of people already want the new king of the barrel dead. The council of tides is pissed, and already hates Kaz, since he doesn’t have the plague to threaten them with he cant do anything. The dreg’s won’t risk retribution from the council of tides, and they can’t get dirt on every government official and member of the Merchant council. Kaz faces public execution. Half of the barrel is there, a good portion of them celebrating and sneering, saying how Dirtyhands finally got what was coming to him. No matter how awful he was though, many show their respect, because he was still one of the most legendary criminals Ketterdam had ever seen. The last thing Kaz says is, “I did it Jordie.” 

“I’m not freaking out I’m freaking in”- Po

Same Po same

(Kung Fu Panda 2)

ALSO, there’s a difference between stanning Joost - who was an innocent boy who literally didn’t mean to harm anyone and was just caught in the crossfire of an experiment gone wrong - and stanning an entitled white woman who wanted to harm a girl of colour because she thought she would find glory in her death. 

Basically: Dunyasha stans don’t try to excuse away your bad behaviour and learn reading comprehension 🙄