TW Ed

Time to listen to angsty music and lament my existence

What am i if not an unholy piñata of mental illness?

If you ever want to know how much your dad cares about you get him to shave part of your head

No better way to express yourself than to vent in your note app

Me, standing in my siblings doorway at 12:30 am with a trinket:

"I've brought you a gift"

I feel like dog shit (mentally and physically), the only way im going to school today is if i have an IV full of caffeine

I don't know if it's been asked or answered by the creators of tma but I'm curious if anyone knows if the statements that feed the eye can just be anything fear related or has to be like, touched directly by the fears

for an aro person, I fantasize a lot about intimacy. but not in a romantic context like smoochy ooky pooky boo-boo...hell no.

intimacy as in being completely emotionally open to/with someone, being so comfortable with them that you just feel safe and warm. I want to have that type of closeness with someone without having to feel guilty that I won't be able to give them romantic love.

it can be something so very deep within my core, but it's just...not romantic. is that so bad?

It bothers me that I will only ever be myself and no one else and I will never be able to touch another person's mind with my own and how I perceive the world will be based solely off of myself and I can never truly be with or apart of something because there is such a huge disconnect between what I think and feel and why and how and what other people see think and feel and there can never be true togetherness because we are our own and isolation is the price of intellectual freedom from a unified consciousness

Who the fuck said it was a good idea to force kids to only have natural hair colors I swear to god I feel like I'm killing myself for someone who doesn't give a shit about me just so they can feel comfortable in their own little world it makes me want to kill myself because of them I hate school