you ever think about how neil came to the foxhole court every inch a lie but his friends made him into someone real? how he began trusting them with little parts of himself gradually, how he accepted that staying with them would mean death, and stayed anyway. about how he was their family, they were his. they were worth every every cut and bruise and scream. i will never move on from how neil found himself in the middle of these misfits, found trust and friendship and love and protection, found the wish to live instead of just survive, found the wish to stay and fight and protect instead of run away, because he finally found something worth fighting and staying and risking his life for.
Thinking about how badly Andrew must’ve wanted to be known. For someone to actually notice things about him and be curious and piece all these observations together. Like. The truth game was just as much about wanting to know things about Neil as him wanting Neil to know him. And even without the truth game being evoked, when he knows what answers Neil must be digging for, he gives in more often than not. I think about how when Neil started noticing Andrew’s odd memory, especially when Neil believed him not to be paying attention and when Neil started finally asking questions, and how quickly Andrew answered them, how he must’ve been thinking, finally.
How much he wanted to be known and by someone he knew by now he could trust. Someone he knew could understand him and the implications of things he’s told. Someone he could tell his own secrets and things he’s been keeping to himself. Everything he let other people assume or misunderstand about him. This little nobody runaway is paying attention, piecing it together, understanding in a way that no one has ever been willing to do, not even his own twin. And when Aaron and Nicky asks him when this happened or other variations of the questions Neil’s already solved himself, and Andrew tells them they should’ve figured them out himself.
The way Neil was the first person to take him at his word, especially about something that wasn’t violence. To look further into him and the things he says and does and actually try to understand him. Not just write him off as a violent psychopath who does things for his own pleasure. The way Andrew wanted him to see more of him and understand him. And I just. My mind is tangles. But I want to go on about this forever.
headcanon that kevin starts to pick up on a bit of german since he's around the monsters so much and he absolutely hates that he's starting to understand andreil's insane brand of flirting when they think nobody who could understand it is around
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i'm not sure what the technicalities were before kayleigh day's death, but the idea that she might have trusted tetsuji, the man she cofounded exy with, her legacy, with her son, and he betrayed that trust in the most horrendous of ways, the idea that they might've been been friends at some point. it's just so devastating
they should invent an anime/manga that doesn't make you want to blow yourself up
"kevin day doesnt see more than the exy court" is such a blatant lie. kevin day i saw ur emo ass crying in the middle of the court telling neil to run away so he wouldnt be hurt. i saw u telling jeremy knox to be careful with jean moreau. i saw ur ass keeping the letter that said wymack was ur father. faker! u care! and u see so much and everyone writes u off as some psycho athlete but ur a lover boy! i see u, kevin day!
i got this little headcanon that andrew likes to sit with kevin when he watches his history documentaries. it starts when kevin's miraculously got access to the tv one evening so he slaps on a documentary after night practice to unwind and andrew is fiddling about in the kitchen looking for a sweet snack and he overhears something about a roman legion (or what have you) and it piques his interest so he stands there watching for a second and kevin doesn't realise bc andrew is soo quiet. after a couple minutes he's invested so he walks over and plops down on a beanbag and kevin almost jumps because he wasn't expecting it and he keeps darting his eyes towards andrew thinking he'll tell him to turn it off or change it but he sits quietly and watches. and then he does it again. and again. sometimes he sits at the window and smokes. sometimes he slumps in the beanbag. but he's suddenly always there and then kevin starts offering up little facts and anecdotes he knows and andrew doesn't ever respond but then one day he offers up a quiet question and kevin answers all excited and andrew can hear the passion in his voice when he talks and andrew will insist it's lame and he doesn't care but it's a change from exy exy exy 24/7 so he'll take it. especially if it makes kevin sound like that. plus it's an added bonus bc it helps andrew unwind too and gives him something else to focus his thoughts around but nobody has to know that.
i need to log out cause what could i possibly have to say about aftg that requires posting this much
can't escape him
andrew and aaron minyard are so "i wish you liked me" "of course i love you" "but do you like me?" coded