I've Uuh Ig I Had It Done To Me Uwu) And It Gave Me Gender Euphoria For Being A Sex Doll O=o 🥺

Skillfully avoiding a bingo it seems

edit: OH SHIT i realized since last night someone fake-claimed me :D :D but still doesn't get me a bingo :(

To anybody who likes bingos :)) - Unknown

If I make this blog a manual for how to stalk, manipulate and kidnap me maybe I'll finally meet the love of my life

∆ ««« System Overview

We're the L-System ("Leo" or "Lilly"), pychotic incel faggot-tranny loser (he/him, any).

We have relationships between system members (4-8, on&off for at least 4 years). feel free to ask us about it

We tried dating externally many times but it never worked. We're too much of a freak for normies and we never felt properly bonding with anyone else. i really just want to obsessively fall in love with a cutely controlling/manipulative boyfriend-girlfriend, is that too much to ask?!

»»» ∆ TransIDs and MUDs

Our body is an adult and our system and subsystems consists of 12 main alters, . : we're transitioning to psychotic and delusional with weed and adderall. : it feels nice when ppl online encourage us 🥺

cisids: autism, adhd, cptsd, ptsd, bpd, npd

Our transid list is always changing so some of these might change, altho others definitely won't.

radqueer, gay, genderfuck, aro/ace, transage, permahigh, permastoned, permadrugged, permateen, sex doll, prey, victim,

transharmed, transpsychotic, transdelusional, transamputee (?), transdentures, transabusevictim, transforcedsh, transsuibait, transed, transanorexia, transana, (corpse) )

We also experience "some" MUDs:

• Mirror Infatuation Identity Disorder

« ∆ » Other labels

Some of us identify with the labels retard, faggot, cripple and probably some other ableist slurs that I forgot rn.

DMs and asks open if u really wanna know. pls be nice 🥺

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(fuck nazis transphobes sexists racists etc etc)

"identifying that way is invalid" makes zero people not identify that way by the way

hiii,, well I got bpd and am a little hihi

npd big sibling x bpd little sibling

need someone in my life to make me throw up on schedule. make it normal. make me get used to the routine. make me crave it. i wanna throw up (almost) every meal i eat. make me so desperate to purge that i starve myself for you. make me develop an ed for you

thinking about bending my lover over and forcing my fingers past their lips, deep down their throat—until they gag, until they sob, until there’s nothing left in them but me. i want them to vomit all over the floor, purged of everything that isn’t mine.

they need to be cleansed.

pats the daemon

i am a demon. i live to hurt. all i ever want to do is damage innocents. i am unsavable. you cannot help me. i am a demon.

haha that could have been me

woaaah we hadn't heard of these terms yet. that's really useful.

thinking, we do feel kinda cephaconscious actually, it's sometimes hard to tell who's fronting and it took us forever to develop the inner tools to figure out who's who and who said what

Here's to cephaconscious systems!

Usually, systems fall under monoconscious (having one collective consciousness), or polyconscious (each headmate having their own consciousness). However, this isn't always the case!

Cephaconscious is defined as a system that has "fluid, monoconscious-like switching, but members of the system who are not in front have their own, separate consciousness in headspace/are polyconscious in headspace" [via Pluralpedia].

Shoutout to cephaconscious systems who:

Have a hard time telling who's fronting due to the way they switch

Blur more frequently than other systems

Have difficulties accessing headspace, or needing lots of effort to go to the innerworld

Feel like they "become" the person they're switching with

And any other cephaconscious experience I may have missed!

Having an uncommon consciousness type is super cool! You're so, so loved and unique! The plural community supports you, always!

Don't forget to be yourself today!

🖤💜💙💚💛

bf and I are doing movie night and we're both so giddy about it uwu

we put up a mirror next to our seat so we can turn to each other to make jokes and it feels validating as fuck,,