I Doubt Anything Will Happen But Let's Try

ever notice that the mean voice in ur head that insults u is awful confident for something thats literally never done anything in its life except be mean to you… like… one of us is pathetic and its not me buddy… get a hobby… yikes

Gender bent drawing of the sandersides

Do you think this is a pretty sight? This is the reality of having anorexia for 12+ years. The reality of what eating disorders can do to your body.

When I was in high school and then in college getting my bachelors degree, I spent more time in hospitals and treatment centers than I did out of them.

And then I found out

My organs failed. Permanently.

Last year, I needed major surgery that took about 4 HOURS, and after that I was admitted to the hospital for a week on heavy pain medications, being wheeled around because I couldn’t walk.

I had tubes everywhere.

I had to medically withdraw from graduate school because I had to spend that time in doctors offices, infusion centers for IVs, in the ER, or admitted into the hospital.

Now I have a 6 inch scar across my abdomen and will be on medications for the rest of my life to help my heart and stomach function enough to keep me alive.

I’ve nearly died multiple times from the ED, but I had never believed that my organs could shut down and leave me to deal with that reality for the rest of my life.

That is not a way anyone should have to live life.

This is what an eating disorder looks like. Not the “thinspo” everyone sees on the Internet. This is what you don’t see behind those pictures and it’s not pretty.

Day 16! Angel!

Day 14 jojo pose....i don't watch that anime...so I had to google some poses...

@spacebunprince

This is the best thing ever

Chat, patroling with his blue scarf cause its cold: hi m’lady

Ladybug: wtf are you doing with Adrien’s scarf that i made?

Chat: wait what?

Ladybug: a-adrien?

Chat:

Chat: .. dad?

Confetti giggles hehe

I got MYSTIC DUMPLING☺️🙈🍼💕

Day 7 Maple leaves!...ive given up on the other list..might do one ocasionlly...but i got in over my head..oops... But OCtober is going strong!

@spacebunprince

Shhhhh its june but I don't frickin care im up for ghosts and spooks any time!

Boys and girls of every age

Wouldn’t you like to see something strange?

Come with us and you will see

This, our town of Halloween

This is Halloween

This is Halloween

Pumpkins scream in the dead of night 🎃

This is Halloween

Everybody make a scene

Trick or treat till the neighbors gonna die of fright

It’s our town

Everybody scream

In this town of Halloween

I am the one hiding under your bed 🛌

Teeth ground sharp and eyes glowing red

I am the one hiding under your stairs

Fingers like snakes 🐍 and spiders 🕷 in my hair

This is Halloween

This is Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

In this town

We call home

Everyone hail to the pumpkin song

In this town

Don’t we love it now?

Everybody’s waiting for the next surprise

’Round that corner, man hiding in the trash can 🗑

Something’s waiting, no, to pounce,

And

How

You’ll

Scream!

This is Halloween

Red ‘n’ black, and slimy green

Aren’t you scared?

Well, that’s just fine

Say it once, say it twice

Take a chance and roll the dice 🎲🎲

Ride with the moon in the dead of night 🌕

Everybody scream

Everybody scream

In our town of Halloween!

I am the clown with the tear-away face 🤡

Here in a flash and gone without a trace

I am the “who” when you call, “Who’s there?”

I am the wind blowing through your hair 🌬

I am the shadow on the moon at night 🌑

Filling your dreams to the brim with fright

This is Halloween

This is Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Tender lumplings everywhere

Life’s no fun without a good scare

That’s our job, but we’re not mean

In our town of Halloween

In this town

Don’t we love it now?

Everybody’s waiting for the next surprise

Skeleton Jack might catch you in the back 💀

And scream like a banshee

Make you

Jump

Out

Of

Your

Skin! ☠️

This is Halloween

Everybody scream

Won’t ya please make way for a very special guy?

Our man Jack is King of the Pumpkin patch

Everyone hail to the Pumpkin King, now!

This is Halloween

This is Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

Halloween

In this town we call home

Everyone hail to the pumpkin song

Here's the sketch I said I'd digitalize