Are You Ever Too Busy Monologuing A Story In Your Head That You Realize You Didn’t Actually Pay Attention

Going onto [insert random streaming service] to finish watching a show I started… only to find its no longer there. Removed with no warning, and I now I’m left to grasp at straws. TvT

Alas, why. Oh well, time to search for it on other streaming services I hopefully have

Random question. People who have gone to concerts, what are they like?

My grades are glitched and I’ve been having to go back and forth on messaging people to try to get it fixed. It’s hard though cause thinking about grades can send me spiraling. It just feels so suffocating and then I start panicking and so I literally cannot let myself think about it or just ruminate on it. I feel like a bother having to message my professor this much. It should be fine though, yeah? I mean this is their job so hopefully yeah? I managed to send out another email to my professor today after sending one to my advisor so fingers crossed that everything will be fixed after this one. I hope, it’s like painful for me to think about this stuff so it just gets increasingly distressing to me. One day I’ll figure out what all mental things I have but until then, this public diary will do. Cause for some reason this helps me more than an actual diary. Don’t know why screaming into the void is more comforting than into a notepad for me. Well if it works to make me feel better than it’s worth it. I am still hungry so might do that. Would help if I could overthinking but eh rambling my thoughts at least gets them out of my head so there’s that. Okay I’m feeling a bit better now, still hungry, but better. Signing off for now. - PendingHopes

I’m no longer sick! Wooo! Still got a bit of a cough but rarely. Been busy but I’m back to ramble once more. Now I’m enjoying Caged Again far more than I expected. Think it may turn into a comfort show for me. Sun is super relatable, social interactions are hard. I just love the characters. They’re so fun and charismatic.

Wrote this November 29 and forgot to post. Don’t know where exactly I was going with it but oh well. Posting it anyway.

Okay it’s been a few hours. Heading back to bed. (Like 4-5 ish hours. I did get some work done. I just need to not get so caught up in my head and just go for it when painting, or well making anything. So I will. Once I wake up)

So I started watching manner of death. I’m on episode 3 (about halfway through) and like, damn. Spoilers included so the topics in the show will be discussed.

Just, what the fuck. Like they be all like it’s solved, all the evidence points to her committing suicide. To the doctor who was, you know, threatened attacked intimidated. And they what? Just expect him to stop and accept that? Excuse me? After he was literally threatened? Like, they must realize how bizarre that sounds. You know if they only trashed the evidence and didn’t interact with the doctor at all, while he wouldn’t give up, he also wouldn’t have even more reason to investigate and know for sure that there’s more to the case. Cause come on. It’s one thing to have physical evidence and context clues it’s another to be literally told “hey, stop looking into this or we’ll kill you”. And then assaulted. Realistically while that would be terrifying one would not feel safe after that and would be clued in on that whatever happened to her will probably happen to him too. Just, aaaaauuuuuuugggghhhh. Okay okay. Continuing the episode now.

T^T

I looked up for a moment and it’s all blurryyyyy. I know my eyes consistently get worse but come on. Please can you wait a little longer? Needing a new prescription yearly (though to be fair even though I should renew them yearly I will hold out as long as I have to). Oh never mind I’m fine. Figured. Just needed to give my eyes a moment to adjust. I mean, i still do need a new prescription. But eh. It's all good. Though I do need to figure out how to clean them better. The metal is all oxidized by now. Or, you know, many parts of it. Does anyone know how to clean the nose part? When it's the metal with the doohickeys/whatever it's called kind?

Hi. I hope you’re doing well. I hope things get better for you. If you need a hug or encouragement know that I’m cheering for you. And sending as many hugs as I can! You’ve done really well. I’m glad you’ve made it this far and I hope you go even farther. Safe travels my friend. And may your journey go ever so smoothly. And if you ever need a break, don’t be afraid to take one. You can always hop on by. There’s always a comfy spot waiting just for you. So take a seat and relax. You’re amazing. So just rest for a while or go do what you need to do, we’ll be there cheering you on. Have a wonderful day, night, week, year. Best wishes, from all

Grades still glitched and my professor isn’t responding to me T^T

Gonna give them a few more days to reply before I send a follow up email. After that though I found their work number so if worst comes to worst I’ll have to call them. Already emailed my advisor and they said I gotta talk to my professor again. So now I wait.

Well guess I’ll put on a comfort show while I work, or maybe I’ll just rewatch pending train again. Still love them.

My thoughts on the Me and Who Series Trailer.

Isekai? -slams open door- say no more! I am here. And I am intrigued.

Honestly I think it looks so fun. Fun, silly goofy, and just like a good time. I liked the actors in Monster Next Door ( no I haven’t finished that show yet, shhh, quiet) so I think they’ll be just as good in the new one. But I don’t really follow actors so I’m just there for the story and man does it look fun. Got some isekai, bit of mind reading (makes me wonder if anyone else has powers), magic (I’m assuming the stones are magic, not like an in depth thought of anything. I’m literally just spouted out whatever I feel), ah I can’t wait. Welp that’s all I want to say. Have a marvelous day/night!