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Twiyor Parallelism #3.1 ~· Father figures

This contains spoilers for the manga. In my previous post do a couple of analysis of Twilight and Yor individually, detailing individual aspects of their personality and the conflict that raises each character in their background. Now, I want to develop an analysis that will be divided into several parts, about these characters at the point where they are similar and opposite to each other, and how their dynamics develop. I clarify, that this is based on the manga and my own point of view, being my own theories of what it means - but this can change, depending on the course that follows the manga that is in issue. That being said, let's get started!

Continuing another aspect of Twiyor's childhood.

The relationship we have with our parents is a fundamental aspect of our development. Even if this happens unconsciously, and we do not realize how our parents affect us

Twilight:

At the beginning of the manga, Twilight's family is a topic which is not touched on directly. They only give us to understand that Twilight lost everything at a young age. Twilight clearly suffers from irritation when he sees a crying child (Anya), as it is an irritable and pointless act. We know that part of Twilight's sternness about Anya's studies occurs because of the Strix mission. He needs her to be a good student to be able to enter and that this allows him to access the meetings of parents, of imperial academics.

Then, it is revealed to us that the real reason for the infant crying is an annoyance. It's because Twilight is projected onto Anya. It reminds him that he was once a child, and that he too was vulnerable and no one was there for him.

But, when we know Twilight's childhood. We can learn more about this complex:

Twilight's father

When Twilight mentions his father to his friends. His first adjective about him is that he is very "strict", with a face that reflects nerves. This is most noticeable when the first action of (Deleted) is to hide the toy gun so that his father does not see it. Interestingly, his father is perceptive and immediately deduces that he was "playing soldier"

Here, it is revealed to us that this man not only rejects the idea that "his son" admires and has fantasies about war and soldiers. But also, it requires he to focus more on studies and think about the future.

Here, something very curious happens. Twilight's father refers to him as a "coward". Which immediately produces a reaction in (Deleted). The little boy not only reaffirms wanting to be a soldier, he wants to show that he can fight, therefore, he wants to prove to his father that he is not the coward he claims.

[Precisely, in the same arc. Twilight's friends refer to him as "crybaby]

It is here, when we see that the father, wanting to reaffirm his rejection and displeasure, ends up slapping his son. He reaffirms that "he is just ignorant", that he knows nothing about Ostania. Since he has never seen the supposed monsters.

Now: I think we can say that Twilight's relationship with her father is difficult and contentious.

For starters... Why does Twilight like the idea of ​​being a soldier?

Beyond being a child. The atmosphere surrounding Twilight was one filled with "war paranoia." Although we are children, from an early age we are able to absorb what is happening around us, even if we do not understand the implications. Fashions, trends, and everything that is in the lives of young people and adults, affects children. The media and the topics of conversation of adults are generating patterns in children. Due to the paranoia of war, Twilight and his friends most likely heard about war and soldiers many times. Whether they were defined as heroes or not.

This is very similar to how Anya likes spies. At a time when spies are wanted in Ostania. Appearing both on children's television shows (Bondman), or on the news by the SSS who capture anyone suspected of being spies.

Twilight and his friends like the idea of ​​being soldiers and going to war because they absorb the events around them but from the perspective of an innocent child. I think it's obvious to say that none of them wanted war or tragedies. Because they didn't "understand" what it meant

The real problem lay in the poor communication he had with his father and the violent and unnecessary methods that Twilight's father had with him.

It's sad how Twilight, when going to lock himself in his room. Sad, angry and frustrated. Twilight mentions how "hypocritical" his father becomes, since he speaks of peace but argues with his mother— Longing for peace in the world but not peace at home

But... really Twilight's father was bad?

Really, I don't think he was someone really evil. But his parenting methods were perhaps... the worst. When Twilight lies about going to buy a book. His father seems genuinely happy. Triggering a huge guilt. At that point, he showed genuine signs of joy and wanting to spend more time with him.

I get the impression that this man's lessons are good, and his intentions are genuine. But he did not know how to understand, or understand his son, much less make his lessons understand.

It is wrong to yearn for war. Especially if this is a whim, ideology, or ambition. This is a lesson that Twilight, being a soldier and a spy, understands. But, the father could not understand that Twilight only did this because it was the game of the time. In addition, he was only infatuated with being a soldier to see the way his father made him feel inferior

Twilight suffered from an emotional ambivalence. Obviously, Twilight doesn't know how to explain himself, because he was just a kid and didn't know how to express his needs. His goal was not to be a soldier, but to have his father's love and support. To feel that he could be the same with him, and be accepted.

His friends were an escape. A place where he can be himself and unfold his own repressed potential— Notice how good he is at acting with his games?

I think Twilight's father thought that if he made his child feel inferior, calling him a coward. He would give up being a soldier. -For some parents, this is a supposed strategy so that their children do not do something that could be dangerous. But they don't realize the psychological and emotional damage it causes to their children's self-esteem

The cause is good, but the method is very bad.

Here, there are two things that seem ironic and curious to me:

Twilight ended up becoming a soldier. Obviously, this was because of events that we already know. But it's ironic, how we end up, sometimes, in what they ask us never to be. Twilight ended up experiencing the tragedy caused by the Ostanians if he ended up becoming that hate-filled, pain-blind soldier who vows to destroy all of Ostania. Obviously, this happened because of the attack on the place where he lived. But it wasn't until many years later, when Twilight had to understand how terrible war was and that peace should be longed for. He ended up learning the same lesson as his father, but in the worst way

The second. It strikes me how emphatic his father was in the Twilight studios. The current Twilight, the spy, is a complete genius. Not only is he a born actor, but he also has an impressive deductive capacity, and an eidetic memory. It makes me believe that the difficult relationship between Twilight and his father was something that clouded the intelligence of this child. That man had no idea of ​​the genius he had, and the potential. But being so harsh with him only held Twilight back. And it was WISE that ended up taking advantage of this value.

Now in the present

You know what is ironic? As Twilight he is inadvertently learning from his father's mistakes. And try not to repeat it. He corrects many of these errors, on his own initiative, and another part is the influence that Yor has on him.

Twilight is much more severe compared to Yor. But himself, he begins to discern the limits of how much he can or cannot demand of Anya. Yes, yes, it's for the mission. But if you think about it... Twilight could be a much more cruel and strict father with Anya. After all, he needs it for the mission, for world peace. And the fact that Anya has won more tonitrus that stellas

Twilight, from the beginning, could only abandon Anya seeing that she really is not that applied to studies. Or he could resort to crueler methods - They remember Fiona and her fantasies of turning Anya into a star-making machine?

It's true, he doesn't want Anya to give up her studies because of the mission, but he also cares about her happiness. Many biological parents show no interest in their children's achievements, even if they are really merits of their own. They can only say "That is your duty", or "it is the least you could do" - Damian and Desmond relationship... remember?

Knowing that we can see Twilight's thoughts. We see that he is genuinely proud of Anya, when she passed the entrance exam, or when she won her first stella. When she affirms how wonderful he is as a father, and that he wants to be by his side forever... When was he about to explode when they made her cry?

The way Twilight talks with Desmond... That, although sometimes it's not easy... parents should find a way to understand each other with their children no matter how different they are. Anya wants to be a spy. Perhaps this is more fantasy than reality, considering how dangerous it is. But Twilight usually lets her be, and doesn't try to harass her for her fantasies.

Very surely, this is something unconscious in him. But his desire to be a good father is something that is born from him and it is not only because of the mission.

[This post has already become very long, so I will talk about the mother figure in another post. And about Yoru in others]

Mr. Gardener, I hope you'll be the endgame for Juana 🤞

Y’ALL. . . Totosai asks Sesshomaru to think about what changed in his beggared soul and he immediately thinks of Kagura. I’m w e e p i n g.

And if that's not enough of an emotional sock to the gut. . .

. . .

The wind flows up around him like Kagura's spirit is trying to comfort him or something, don't touch me—

I just found out what happens in the West Forest gaiden and needless to say I'm in denial 🙂🙃

Anyways, here's Arian and Griffith hugging (they kiss afterwards)....

Alucard in the sunlight ☀️

MY FIRST GRIFFIAN FIC IS UP ON AO3! It's sad af and there are spoilers. You have been warned.

#Bronze no Tenshi #Natalia Pushkina #Alexander Pushkin #Georges D'Anthès # Natalia my sweet bby girl #Chiho Saito

Natalia did nothing wrong.

I recently reread Bronze no Tenshi and oh my God I love Georges D’Anthès with all my heart - as if I already didn’t love him enough when I first read this manga. He’s so respectful, he’s ready to sacrifice everything for Natalia and he understands a woman’s struggles. 

I don’t despise Pushkin in Bronze no Tenshi as it often happens to me with the other “love rival” of Saito’s stories, sometimes I pity him, but I also think a lot of people overlook his flaws and mistakes in his relationship and attitude towards Natalia out of their admiration for the figure of the real Pushkin, the poet. On the other hand, I see a lot of blame put on Natalia, when, if you really think about it, Natalia did nothing wrong. Natalia cannot be the usual strong, single-minded, fierce woman that Saito portrays in her stories: it wouldn’t be realistic and true to the time when the events take place. In my opinion, Natalia was a good person that always sacrificed herself for the people around her, who had for once the chance to do something exclusively for herself when she met the love of her life, D’Anthès. 

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The thing is that Loid thinks of himself as a completely average normal person, which means whenever Yor has anything in common with him hes like "excellent, we are so good at being normal. I picked the perfect wife, she even knows about poisons"

Masanori Sasaji’s “Rune”, from クリスタル☆ドラゴンII (Crystal Dragon II).

I will now post some incorrect quotes that I believe are basically Griffith and Arian's dynamic 😌❤

Arian: What if the 'g' in 'gif' is silent?

Griffith: Go the fuck to sleep

Arian: What gif I don't want to?

Griffith: Fuck You

Arian: I can explain.

Griffith: Can you?

Arian: If you give me thirty seconds to think of a lie.

Arian: Fuck.

Griffith: We've got to work on your cursing.

Arian: Why? I'm pretty good at cursing already.

Arian: I've already sent good vibes your way… they’re coming. There’s nothing you can do to stop them.

Griffith: This is the most threatening way I’ve ever been cheered up.

Arian: Don’t worry, I have a few knives up my sleeve.

Griffith: I think you mean cards.

Arian, pulling knives out of their sleeves: No, I do not.

Arian: *Kicks the door down looking panicked*

Griffith: What did you do?

Arian: Nobody died.

Griffith: WHAT KIND OF ANSWER IS THAT?!

Arian: Bad things keep happening to me, like I have bad luck or something.

Griffith: Arian, you don't have bad luck. The reason bad things happen to you is because you're a dumbass.

This last one especially eschews their dynamic, I think:

Arian: You saved me. I owe you my life.

Griffith: No thanks. I’ve seen it and I’m not very impressed.