me when… me when… billford fankids…
Sigh, any readers who came from my fic, I’m sorry because I lowkey lied in a tag… i’m gonna have to change it
Anyways please enjoy and support my acc 🥹
As I get closer and closer to completing the duology posters, I have to travel through each chapter to find a specific quote for the two posters (this Bill quote is from the newest chaoter teehee 🥹) A Human Condition is so beautifully written I have to control myself when skimming bc then I’m gonna start reading instead of drawing LOL
I’ll go into depth of why this Bill quote and the other quote I’m hoping to find are chosen instead of every other in the next post, but it very much has to do with the dichotomy of Bill vs Billy that I briefly touched upon in the last post
BUT ANYWAYS HERES A SUPER BLURRY SNEAK PEAK OF THE SECOMD POSTER!!! I’m sure if you seen the face model sheet, you can tell which one we’re seeing if you squint
I think it’ll be finished tonight and uploaded tomorrow in the morning !!! But for now, eat these crumbs that is leading to a box 😼
@sapphosscribe GET A SNEAK PEAK
Someone had message me “Hi lover” and it was really weird, I thought it could be one of my few followers but they didn’t follow me at all (although they had my newest post as their pfp) I replied ‘Hello 😭’ back, and they replied “what’s wrong dear?” I got MAD uncomfortable and got a bad vibe. Has this happened to anyone else before? I feel like i was speaking to a bot…
According to my calculation, we are on the second to last chaoter of the story for everlasting night until we get the endings. I’m actually so cooked
I’m gonna have to rewrite an ending, I really didn’t like how it was coming out and it felt more fitting for the other ending !!!
Billford and their kids drives me nuts in a good way LOL 💀 I’m very open to answering questions or taking drawing request regarding the twins and what Billford are up to rn as we wait for at least one ending to come out 😼
Personally, I’m not oppose to killing one of mine or both my twins 😕 /j…
@orpheuswasmine just said he would kill one of the twins for me...
I wanted to draw Ford for a while but I lowkey don’t like how he came out in my style 😭
Human Bil 😼
I took his fifth finger privileges away 💀🙏 i got a storyline in mine why but yeah 🧍
I changed my Bill design sm, but he looks more like his first design i made mixed with a little bit of the second (I PROMISE TO DRAW BILLFORD WITH THIS DESIGN LATER TRUST MEEE)
My little Barbie doll, I dress him how I like 🙏
I WAS GOING THROUGH SM BUT HERE THEY ARE !!! Took so long hope you all like them though !!!
This took me a while !!! And I can talk about the Bill vs Billy whole thing now 💀
Basically, how I read a Human Condition, it’s practically this whole dichotomy of Bill vs Billy and no one is aware of it. Believing Bill can change is an act of believing Billy is there, believing Bill can’t change means Billy is dead.
Billy is the root of Bill’s empathy and change, or what Bill would call, the root of his weakness. Bill considers Billy weak and deadweight, something worth forgetting. In the first lines, we ever read from Billy in A Human Condition is, “Just fit in”.
In the beginning of the Billy storyline, he himself in a major contradiction to Bill’s own beliefs and self-worth. Billy is what everyone hopes to achieve in the end, but Billy died the day Bill destroyed their dimension… right? Yes and no 🐺
The remnants live on and begin to crack through ways that Bill has taken notice of, especially when he’s with Mabel. It’s moments where he spends time with Mabel, I picture the hostile face shifting to a more softer and rounder face. Mabel brings out the best in him. Unknowingly the reason Billy returns. It isn’t just Mabel that brings the Billy side out. It could be objects of interest or of fear and even guilt. Objects of interest could be the silly straw or the spaghetti scene from the recent chapter. The fear and guilt of Billy is brought out by Ford when he chokes him out or when Bill wanders into the mind space Ford had locked up.
I have more to say about Billy, but man I gotta talk about Bill because I got so much to say about him.
Bill is a cheat, liar, and other say, a monster through and through. But Bill is simply a manifestation of survival and going against all of that he knew. The line in chapter 27, “Yes. I’m completely cured. My irregularity will not affect my ability to fit in, your excellence.” This is a lie that Bill said, this was an act of wanting to survive and protecting himself. This is also the point in the Billy storyline that Billy starts to identify himself with Bill and this is the same chapter where his mother and father starts to call him, Bill, as well.
This is the plantings seeds of Bill, that continue to thrive even after failing the very thing he was manifested for. He allowed not just himself but Billy to die. It’s only now they have another chance, but Bill believes he’s the sole reason why they had survived for so long before. Billy is weak and can only bring in danger. This pathetic, weak, piece of him is holding him back, and yet it is something worth protecting just to survive.
We see Bill truest form through lines like, “But Bill wasn’t weak. He was strong and he was smarter than all of them. They didn’t see it yet, but he could prove it! He only needed time. He wouldn’t be a burden, he would be a credit to all triangles, like his parents had said. He was different than other irregulars. He was better.”
But the next line is, “Because Bill was weak in the eyes of Euclydia. He was a freak, an irregular. He was made wrong. And yet. Bill wanted to live.”
Bill is a manifestation of wanting to survive and not letting anyone in. Even in this weak human form, that motivation drives home. He is protecting not himself but Billy as well.
I imagine if you were to enter Bill’s mind, it would be this split down the middle where Bill and Billy are seprated, but both of them have a piece of each other. Bill with a younger and triangle Billy, while good old human Billy is trapped with a more familiar triangle Bill.
Here’s pictures without the word 😼
That’s how read Bill and Billy’s storyline and interpreted it. The drawings showcase them and in their own spaces. I like to think Bill is in the darkest part and only he and Billy illuminate the space. I gave him crazy long hair that would be everywhere since he is everywhere and because having long hair is great, but such a pain to try and maintain and take care of.
Billy looks the most like Bill’s human form, since he practically accepted this and the only artical of clothing he’s wearing is the sweater Mabel has gifted them. He’s in the brighter and hopeful side since he holds all the good parts. He’s just trapped with a piece of Bill, still trying to guard him.
Can’t wait to see what A Human Condition has in store and I’ll probably continus on with this theory/headcanon 😭 I actually have some headcanons about Bill and Billy, but idk if anyone wants to hear allat 💀
@sapphosscribe AGAIN, you’re such a talented writer! Got me thinking and all 😭 can’t wait to see what you have been cooking up 😼
All my readers have been scarred 😭 MB CHATTTT I DIDNT THINK THE CLIFFHANGER WOULDVE DESTROY YOUR MINDS 😭
Look what i cooked up for the upcoming chapter chat 🗿
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