Cw: Medical Shit , Flashback Mentions

real question . is it wrong to be overly dependent on headmates ? i mean i know that’s. kind of the whole thing about did that it’s formed to survive when there’s nothing else that can help you and stuff but . ?? i feel like a lot more . dependent ?? ig ? we’ve never really had close relationships in Sys and so idk it kind of feels odd

you know the switching is crazy when you go from paranoid about dying and being extremely depressed and unable to get out of your bed to being extremely restless and motivated and just. hungry.

getting really into journaling is so fucked because you will fr end up with pages like "dear diary, it's fucken wimdy today!!!!! also I might be a talentless hack with no real creative drive or discipline to speak of. xoxo ✨"

seeing people actually being cared for and having their injuries treated is so bewildering and also very joyous for me. because holy shit, if i wasn’t screaming, crying, and unconscious or wasn’t in enough pain to the point my parents thought was enough no matter how much I begged them, i wouldn’t be allowed to rest.

you aren't a bad person if your source is terrible.

you aren't a bad person if your source is an abuser.

you aren't a bad person if your source is a rapist.

you aren't a bad person if your source has a problematic creator.

you aren't a bad person if your source is anything, anything.

However, if you blame an introject for their source, tell them to kill themselves for it, treat them like their source when they tell you not too, push boundaries or persistently ask them questions, try and make it like they should be extremely ashamed and horrified 24/7 atwhere they introjected from. You are an asshole.

Me just trying to have a normal day when the gay men in my head are getting down bad for each other.

Can yall stop for two seconds

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Help my family in Gaza and give them hope to live in peace … AHMED Zidan needs your support for Help my family in Gaza and give them hop

Hi, I am Ahmed from Palestine, from the northern part of Gaza City. I am 33 years old, married, and a father of two children. I live in the Jabalia refugee camp with my family, which consists of 19 members, in a four-story house.

Since the beginning of the war on Gaza on October 7th, life in northern Gaza has been extremely difficult, lacking basic necessities due to the siege imposed by the Israeli army on the northern part of the Gaza Strip. The occupation has blocked food, medicine, water, electricity, and even communication networks. Thousands of airstrikes have been carried out, and hundreds of massacres have been committed, mostly affecting innocent civilians, the majority of whom are children and women. The infrastructure, thousands of homes, and civilian facilities have been destroyed.

On May 12th, 2024, the Israeli army besieged the Jabalia camp for the second time and ordered us to evacuate, informing us that it was a military operation zone and a dangerous combat area. We were forced to leave our homes in the camp and flee under heavy bombardment and intense gunfire, navigating through the rubble and bodies lying in the streets and on the roads. We became homeless, with no food or water. During this difficult siege, I lost two of my brothers, Abdullah, 30 years old, and Atallah, 26 years old, due to random shelling and airstrikes on the camp.

Why am I collecting donations?

After more than 15 months of war, on January 19th, 2025, the ceasefire came into effect, and we returned to the camp to check on our home. However, we were shocked by the extent of the destruction and devastation in the camp. The homes had turned into piles of rubble, and we could no longer recognize the places or roads due to the scale of the damage. Our house was completely destroyed, leaving us homeless. Now, my family and I live in a small tent that is insufficient for the number of family members. It offers no privacy, no bathroom, no kitchen, and it does not protect us from the summer heat or the winter cold. We are living in an overcrowded environment with displaced people, chaos, piles of garbage, and the spread of diseases, especially among the displaced children.

This war has forced us to live in extremely harsh conditions and an environment that is unfit for human life. We continue to suffer every day from the ongoing war, repeated displacement, lack of resources and essentials, fear, pain, and oppression. Not to mention the hardship of fetching water, standing in long queues for basic needs, and struggling to find food—another challenge added to our suffering in this devastating war that is destroying people, buildings, trees, and animals. All of this has exhausted our bodies and deeply affected our mental well-being.

Therefore, I am reaching out to you through this humanitarian platform to help me support my family, rebuild our destroyed home, and contribute to providing the basic necessities of life so that I can live with my family with dignity and freedom.

• How will these donations be used?

1) An apartment will be rented to temporarily house my family until the reconstruction of the destroyed house is completed, as an alternative to a tent, at a cost of $600 per month for at least two years. (An estimated total cost of $14,000 over the two years.)

2) Purchase the basic tools and equipment necessary to furnish the rented apartment at an estimated cost of $5,000.

3) Purchase clothing and basic necessities for all family members at an estimated cost of $6,000.

4) Remove the rubble of the destroyed house and rebuild it at an estimated cost of $140,000.

5) Purchase the tools and equipment necessary to furnish all apartments in the new house at an estimated cost of $35,000.

• How does your donation and support make a difference?

Your support and donation is a noble humanitarian cause that supports and strengthens our resilience during the war. This contribution, even if it is small, will make a huge difference in my life and the life of my family.

Please help us to live in safety and peace, to start over to achieve our ambitions and dreams, and to create a safe environment for our children that will provide them with a bright future.

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i remember all the times we were forced to go on long walks or standing for long prolonged periods and whenever we told and literally BEGGED someone that we felt faint and our chest and neck was hurting and we needed to sit down because we thought we were going to collapse, that we were told that it was just because ‘we were weak’ or ‘we needed more exercise’, and so, us, 8 year old child, just learned to deal with it. turns out we had POTS.

What are some of your funniest memories from interacting with your headmates? - Entity

One of the funniest memories from interacting with my headmates would probably be that one time during therapy where some of us just started singing caramelldansen near front. We had to stop and compose ourselves for a moment as the current fronter was laughing their ass off, LOL. Thank you for the question!

What it feels like waking up dissociated:

–John