My Musclesss :(((

I know I posted a video on tiktok about this but more people need to hear this

Don't date someone unless you can't handle all their disorders, let me repeat Do not date someone unless you can handle ALL their disorders

Don't date someone with a personality disorder unless you can handle the episodes

Do not date someone with a trauma disorder can you can handle the flashblacks

Do not date someone with mood disorder unless you can handle the mood swings

Do not date someone with a disorder you cannot handle

Do not date someone if you're going to villainize them or their disorders

Do not date someone if you're going to romanticize their disorders

It shows you have little to no understanding of their disorders or who they are as a person, it shows you can't truly love them because you refuse to learn the basics of the disorder, and it shows just how much of a shitty person you are

chronic hyper vigilance is ah yes, i have my survival mode. and then i have my SURVIVAL MODE.

seeing people actually being cared for and having their injuries treated is so bewildering and also very joyous for me. because holy shit, if i wasn’t screaming, crying, and unconscious or wasn’t in enough pain to the point my parents thought was enough no matter how much I begged them, i wouldn’t be allowed to rest.

one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

a: YOU ARENT EVEN REAL!!!! b: YES I AM!!! FUCK YOU c: yeah thats so real a + b: WHAT (c just randomly formed out of nowhere)

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that feel when you lock in to eat some food you enjoy and some BITCH comes in and makes it taste like dog shit……

Spins in circles /silly

Hi just here to say one thing:

Cool people alert 🫵 /genuine

HIIII!! THANK YOU!! you guys seem cool as well! !! /gen/verypos also spinnnnn :3 -blurry

thats it. THATS IT. WHY DO WE HAVE AN ELSA FICTI-

Just to throw this out there

it was not and is not your fault they groomed you (yes even if you were seeking it out.)

it was not and is not your fault they abused you (yes even if you weren’t the best person at the time.)

you are a survivor not an abuser sweetheart

if you ever need anything my DMs are open

and yes this is a post made half for ourselves be self indulgent <33

you know that feeling when you leave your Spotify playlist alone for a few weeks and suddenly you hate every song on there