“Please. All I ask is that you live and give me a chance to show you this world isn’t as ugly as you believe.” Well. I’ve been told that before. Over and over again. I want to believe that they’re right, but every time I’m told this there is always someone there to just leave again.
‘Maybe they just don’t have the piece I’ve been looking for...’ I always persuade myself as I look into that box. That small, worn down box always makes me feel like it’s a constant reminder of what I’m missing out on and all of the bad things that have happened to me.
It’s been sitting in the same place by the window ever since I was born. They say that when you’re born you have ten little shapes and that whoever has the same one as you is either your soulmate or is someone that you care about. As for me, I only came with five. Four blue circles and a scarlet broken heart.
The four blue circles have been taken by family members and a friend that I care about but as for the scarlet broken heart, there has never been anyone that has that same piece. I’ve always been told never to show my pieces until I know they are the one... So far the people I thought were the ones never even came close to sharing that final piece.
I wish I never had that stupid piece. It just sits there. Toying with me; rubbing it in my face that I will never be fully happy. ‘Today, today is the day I am getting rid of it.’ As I grab the box I start to think back at the times I had been right about who’s pieces were the same as mine. How much joy it brought me.... and how if I threw away this one I will never be able to feel that way again...
I start to walk out of my apartment with the bow secured tightly in my hold. I fall down as I bump into someone.
“I’m so sorry-” I begin to say as I notice that the piece is on the floor along with the now opened box. The guy I now recognized to be my neighbor right across from me helps me pick it up.
“Hey,” he says to me as he holds onto my piece, “I have the same exact one.” I look at him in shock as I watch him take off the necklace he was wearing.
Our pieces put together made a fixed scarlet heart.
“Please. All I ask is that you live and give me a chance to show you this world isn’t as ugly as you believe.”
Please,
treat me like one of you.
You always say you do,
but was that ever really true?
Please,
don’t ever change.
Just because to it was a game.
That I never mattered,
and just leave me here in tatters.
Please,
just stay.
I become down when you go away.
Please,
I’m even using a begging tone....
Because I want to forget what it’s like to be alone.
Dear Me,
How did you do it?
How did you become free?
I really hope you aren’t a spirit.
How did we get out of this pickle?
Where we’re the ones stuck in the middle.\Did we fight the fight?
Or just hold our fist in our mouth and bite?
What does it feel like to be free?
To be out of this “humble abode.”
Who did it appease?
Us or that monster we’ve named as our dark mode?
As I’m writing this letter,
I hope you will show me the way to go.
That someday all of this will get better
and that one day I can stop this freak show.
Dear me,
Please help me become free.
Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to you advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
When you say “I feel so alone,”
do you really mean it?
Do you feel cold all the way down to your bones?
Do you want to go through that door you see with the sign saying exit?
When you say “I am alone,”
do you mean you have no one?
Or do you mean that deep down inside, you don’t feel whole?
Just take a minute to think of all the battles you’ve won.
Up until now,
you’ve always felt weak.
Always being the one that has to bow.
Just because you’ve never been able to freely speak.
Well, you aren’t alone...
by which I mean you aren’t alone physically.
It’s okay to let it be known...
‘Cause you aren’t the only one that wants to be free.
I wish- I wish I could just stop feeling. Cause I care for you but I guess you just never felt the same way.... Here I am still hung up on every single word you tell me. Each look that comes my way. The sight of you makes me feel everything all over again.... No matter how much I want it to stop.
Thoughts from a Gemini girl that writes
The meaning of life is finding your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.
Annonymous
Just some poems, quotes, writings, and stuff. Feel free to shoot me a message whenever you need someone to talk to.
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