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It's me again! This is my first time posting a request, sorry! đ Fixing it, 5 + bakugou đ„
a/n: youâre okay !! donât apologize, lovely <333 tysm for sending one in đđđ SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG OMG
cw: virgin!bkg, dry humping
prompt 5: âIs it good when I touch you here?â
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Through the haze of his mind, Bakugou tries to recall how he landed himself here. Leaning back on your couch, with you perched prettily on his lap. His chest heaves with arousal, and he prays you donât feel the bulge pushing through his trousers.
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âWould you like to come in?â you ask shyly, biting your lip. His face flushed at your question, shuffling his feet nervously. âLike, right now?â Your laugh eased his worry, small smile forming on his own face. âYeah, right now. You totally donât have to though!â you mumble, âI just like bein around you.â Gods, it was only your guysâ fourth official date and he already thinks heâs in love. âYeah, Iâll come in,â he said, pressing a kiss to your head. You squeezed his hand with your own, smile brightening. âGreat! We can watch a movie or something,â you smile up at him.
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The movie in question played behind you long forgotten. Moans mixed in with the track playing behind you. He nearly whimpers when you grind yourself into him, hands tightening on your waist. âIs this okay?â you whisper to him, fingers twirling the short hairs on the nape of his neck. He grunts in response, not trusting his ability to his the desperation the claws up his throat. His hand moves to the back of your neck, pulling your mouth back onto his. You moan into his mouth when he runs your tongue against his, hips grinding harder onto him. He breaks the kiss, eyes avoiding yours. He clears his throat, willing the heat rushing up his cheeks to stay dormant. âUhh- Iâve, um. Iâve never done this,â he cringes at his own words. âOh, thatâs alright,â you say with a smile, âwe donât have to do anything.â
âNo, itâs not like thatâ like I havenât, you know. But it only becauseâ
âBakugou.â
ââbecause of paperwork and my job I just donât really have time toâ
âBakugou.â
âLike Iâm not experienced or whatever but I know what Iâm doing it doesnât have to be a weird thing orâ
âKatsuki.â
His mouth is quick to close, eyes squeezing shut in embarrassment. âKatsuki,â you whisper, âIâm not worried about it. We can stop.â Your hands card through his hair, forehead falling lightly into his. He breathes heavily through his nose, eyes opening to meet yours. âI want to, eventually. Just, maybe not right now. But I dunno, Iâ I donât want to stop.â Youâre quick to press your lips to his again, content to let him set his own pace. You gasp in surprise when he grinds you back onto him, hands gripping his hair tighter. You rest your hands over his where theyâre resting at your hips, sliding them under your skirt to rest against the bare skin. He moans at the action, warm hands gripping your bare skin to bring you down harder onto him.
âFuck,â he moans, head falling back, âcan feel how wet you are.â You whimper at his words, hips stuttering when he rests his thumb against your throbbing clit. âIs it good when I touch you here?â he whispers, thumb rubbing harsh circles over your covered heat. âYes! Yes, Katsuki. Youâ youâre gonna make me cum.â He groans, lips attaching to your neck to nip at the skin. âCâmon, sweet girl. Cum for me.â
A tear falls from your eye as your high washes over you, hips bucking wildly at the intense pleasure. You fall against his chest as you come down, breaths heavy. âYou okay?â he whispers, âFeel good?â You hum in approval, moving to peck his lips. âSo good. Weâre not done though, right? I still want to make you cum,â you say, grinding your hips over his throbbing member. Yeah, he thinks, maybe I am in love.
No. I CANT DEAL WITH THE FEELS!
OK, so imagine Snape looking into the Mirror of Erised but he doesnât see himself. He sees Lily with James because he just wants her to be as happy as possible.
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what if it all worked out
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my hero academia
pairing. pro hero!bakugou x villain!reader
word count. 4k
warnings. kidnapping, mentions of drugging, dub-con, sub!bakugou, dom!reader, tentacles oh my, bondage, anal penetration (m. receiving), edging, deep throating aforementioned tentacles hello
Darkness. Thatâs the first thing Katsuki becomes aware of as heâs drawn slowly from the tender thralls of a deep, dreamless sleep. Even as his heavy eyes blink open, thereâs not a hint of light, only deep, inky blackness that surrounds and consumes him.
For a moment, he thinks he must be in his bed, waking in the middle of the night for one reason or another. But that belief is abruptly snuffed out when he attempts to move and finds that none of his limbs will cooperate. Noâ thereâs something holding him down, something cold and metal around each of his wrists and ankles, restricting his movement.
The air around him chills his skin as he realizes the dangerously compromising position heâs in, spread eagle and locked down against a cool slab of something hard and flat. Metal? Stone? He couldnât quite tell.
Confusion settles in his bones.
âWâ what theâ?â the young hero chokes hoarsely, words slurring on his heavy tongue. His throat is painfully dry, and his head is throbbing, symptoms vaguely similar to a bad hangover, but far more intense.
âHe lives.â
Katsukiâs head jerks at the low purr that ripples through the air around him, narrowed vermillion eyes fervently searching through the opaque darkness.
âTâ the hell is this? Whatâs going on?â He growls, head swiveling uselessly as soft footsteps echo in his ears.
âWouldnât you like to know?â The voice is light, taunting, and it only riles him up more, stroking the flames of anger and frustration flickering inside of him.
âStop fucking with me and show yourself, coward.â The blonde spits viciously, yanking against his sturdy binds.
Laughter comes, trickling impishly from unseen lips.
ââCowardâ?â Katsuki gasps in shock, not expecting the whisper to come from so near, not expecting the rush of warm breath that washes over the shell of his ear. Vague recognition flickers in the back of his mind, but itâs gone before he can fully grasp it. âIâm not sure thatâs quite the right word to describe me.â
It clicks in an instant, the void in his memory suddenly flooding with the events of the previous day.
The villains. The fight. Being snatched up some strange, alien-like tentâ
His eyes widen in realization, before a deep scowl contorts his features. âTentiplicity.â
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Summary: It was a bittersweet moment when Inarizaki lost to both Inarizaki's manager and Karasunoâs ace. What will happen next? Do the feelings stop there?
Word Count: 11.7K
Warnings: A lot of fluff. The slow burn is intense. This chapter is long because I wanted to add meaningful conversations. Spoilers for Season 4/Chapter 291! Dialogue from both sources. I donât own anything. Haikyu belongs to Furudate Haruichi! Also, I added a scene that I found adorable. The Tiktok creator (astrq.ella) translates the fanmade manga into English and it's so cute!! Go check it out!
A/N: Obviously, the dialogue of the twins, Aran, Kita, etc are from the anime and manga. I tried my best to keep the flow of speech going throughout this chapter. Lol idk if I can keep up but Iâll do my best! When am I going to edit that dialogue in the previous chapter? Well, your guess is as good as mine! Also, I apologize for the sudden hiatus, my life is crazy but I hope you enjoy this new chapter.
The match ended with a score of 30-32. With each team winning a set, the third and final set was their last chance to win, to advance, to stay alive in Nationals. The hunger to win was there. The sheer determination to win was there. The will, the passion, the⊠Well, everything. Each player on the Inarizaki had it all. They played with everything they had.
Atsumu proved to everyone, whether they were familiar with volleyball or not, how his setter skills were top tier and worthy to be labeled as the best high school setter. With his opponent being a setter that attended the same All-Japan Training Camp, he was pushed to another level to become a star setter.
Osamu covered for any tiny mistake his brother made during the match. The unspoken intuition between him and his brother every time he scored a point through their version of Karasunoâs quick attack. Never before had he felt so hungry during a match.
Aran played his role as the ace more than ever. With each difficult pass that was made, he made sure to call out for the ball and with his strength he scored a point for his team. The title of ace suited him as he proved it with each service ace and spikes that broke through Karasunoâs blocks. Gin followed his senpaiâs footsteps closely as he scored points through difficult blocks and receiving difficult passes.Â
Omimi kept up his blocking skills all throughout the match, turning Karasunoâs possible points into their points through his blocks. The same can be said with Suna. The middle blocker, despite his deadpan expression, didnât slack off as per usual. He lived up to his title as one of the best middle blockers in Nationals as he kept his sharp game sense and surprised his opponents with his wide-range spike.
Akagi did his best as lead libero. He saved the team on multiple occasions through his receives. His eyes focused on the ball more than anything as he commanded his body to follow after it. With each received he made, it brought a sense of security to his teammates to continue playing. He was the cornerstone for his teamâs defense and wasnât about to slack off, not even for a second.
Kita kept his plays consistent all the while keeping the rambunctious second-years in check. But ever so often, the match brought out a side of him that hasnât been felt for a long time. Karasuno wasnât like any other team. Every player on that team pushed his teammates to their limits so many times that it made him crack a smile or two throughout the game. Karasuno were worthy opponents.
Even the first years challenged themselves to play. They didnât hold anything back.Â
And yetâŠÂ
âItâs a madhouse in here!â The announcerâs loud voice filled the arena of the crowdâs uproar. âThe entire Tokyo gymnasium is shaking with the roar of the crowd!â
The Inarizaki manager was the first to snap out of it. She didnât realize how loud it was before until now. The last sound she heard was the sound of the ball hitting their side of the orange court. Everything after that felt muffled in a sense as she stood there motionless.
(Y/N) looked at her team. With the exception of their chests moving, no one made an effort to walk off the court. Whether they were too tired to move or they were in disbelief at their loss, (Y/N) knew that her friends were taking this loss harder than usual.Â
They were so closeâŠ
âWe lost.â It helped saying those two words out loud. It didnât lessen the sting obviously, but it confirmed her reality.Â
Even more so when she saw how unbelievably happy Karasuno looked. Her eyes automatically looked for Asahi. When her eyes landed on his jersey number, her wounded heart swelled up with admiration. Under the bright gym lights, Asahi looked unbelievably happy as his arms wrapped around his teammates. He, along with his friends, were hugging the two first-years that made the incredible block against the twinsâ attack.Â
The scene made her smile bittersweetly. While she was sad that her team was no longer able to advance, losing the match to Karasuno didnât feel too awful. The match was almost like a battle of wills. Everyone was fighting for a point. No one gave up, not even when the odds were against them.Â
There was no way around it, Karasuno won fair and square and while this didnât mean the end of the world for her⊠Today marks the end of her Spring Tournament journey⊠Wow. Third year brings out a different perspective more than anything.
(Y/N) reminded herself to breathe. She looked for Kita. Unsurprisingly, the captainâs observant gaze was on her already. He always had a knack in knowing what she was feeling. It has been like that since their first year. The two smiled at each as they were thinking the same thing.
They couldnât be any prouder of their entire team.
âItâs time to line up.â Coach Kurosu instructed with Coach Ćmi following behind.
She nodded and wordlessly grabbed the white picket sign that showed her schoolâs name. The manager waited for her captain to step next to her. Once he did, she gave the sign in his hands. Their eyes met and (Y/N) knew he was going to be okay.Â
Everyone lined up on either side of the net; their Karasuno counterpart right in front of them. (Y/N) looked ahead and she smiled when she was met with Kiyokoâs teary-eyed expression. She hoped those tears were of happiness and not of pity for her and her team. In unison, everyone bowed down and thanked each other for the game.
After standing back up, the players stepped forward to shake hands. (Y/N), along with the coaches, did the same.Â
âThat was a great game.â (Y/N) told her when they shook hands. âAnyone who says Karasunoâs a fallen powerhouse is kidding themselves.â
Kiyoko wiped away the tears that threatened to fall at her new friendâs words. âThank you. You donât know how much this means to us.â
(Y/N) let out a good-natured chuckle. âYou have a great team, Kiyoko. Take care of them because the competition is going to be even fiercer.â
âI will⊠And (Y/N)?â
âHm?â
âIâm sorry-
âDonât be.â The Inarizaki manager cuts her off. âDonât apologize. You never know whatâs going to happen. All we can do is our best and keep moving forward. Okay?â
âOkay.âÂ
âGood.âÂ
The girls smiled at each other. To Kiyokoâs surprise, (Y/N) gave her a tight hug. It took her a second but Kiyoko managed to hug back. The loud cheers of the arena along with the announcerâs voice almost made it impossible to hear (Y/N)âs next words but she still heard them all the same: âKeep winning.â
Kiyoko pulled away first as she gave her friend a determined nod. âWe will.â
(Y/N) smiled at her one last time before following her teammates. She stood next to Kita in front of the Inarizaki cheer section. She scanned the crowd to see her fellow classmates and friends. They had tears streaming down their faces but it didnât stop them from clapping or shouting words of encouragement.Â
In the corner of her eye, she saw how frustrated Atsumu looked. Anyone who had eyes can tell by the expression he wore.Â
With furrowed brows and a small pout to accompany it, Atsumu muttered under his breath, âCâmon. Boo us. Losers donât need no consolation applause.â
To his surprise, one of the older fans called him out. âShut yer mouth, Atsumu, ya little dimwit!â
(Y/N) smirked when her underclassman was taken aback; heâs probably thinking how on earth did the man see right through him.Â
âItâs scrawled all over yer face, ya idjit!â The fan yelled at him, confirming (Y/N)âs theory from before. She didnât miss the way Osamu smirked at his brother, most likely thinking he was a idiotic moron.
âA GOOD GAMEâS A GOOD GAME, AND WEâRE GONNA TELL YOU IT WAS A GOOD GAME! YOU GOT THAT?!â
While the loss did sting, the fanâs words gave her a sense of pride. Everyone rallied behind the fanâs statement. The claps became louder. They shouted each memberâs names, including her own, telling them it was a great game. They even brought out the hand-made signs that had their names on it and carried them proudly over their heads. (Y/N)âs eyes swept over the crowd until she was met with Kitaâs grandmotherâs gaze.
She met the older woman before on multiple occasions. Kita Yumie was the ideal grandmother as she wore a gentle smile that matched her kind eyes. The fact that she showed up to their game only proved how much she cared for her grandson and his team. Not to mention she wore a hand-made sweater that said âGood Luck Shinsukeâ.
It didnât help when the elder woman mouthed, âIâm proud of you all.â
(Y/N) could feel her tears well up around her eyes. She blinked rapidly to gain control but there was always that one tear that ended up escaping down her cheek. Her hand quickly wiped it away before her team saw. But, as always, the Inarizaki captain was watching.
He patted her back and gave her the same gentle smile that he shared with his grandmother. The smiles were almost identical.Â
Wordlessly, everyone bowed to the Inarizaki cheering section and shouted, âTHANK YOU VERY MUCH!â
~
As Coach Kurosu and Kita delivered their post-game interviews, (Y/N) busied herself with packing everything up. Once she deemed everything was accounted for, she zipped up her bag and took one last look at the orange court. It was bittersweet to say the least.Â
âCanât forget this.â Aran came up to her, her maroon Inarizaki jacket in his hand. âYâalright?â
(Y/N) smiled at her friend and nodded as she put on her jacket. âI should be asking you that, Aran.â
The ace shrugged. âIt hasnât sunk in yet, yâknow?â
She hummed in agreement. âI keep expecting to wake up but I pinched myself enough times to know this is real.â
The two third-years walked towards the crowd of journalists where their friend/captain continued to answer questions. As they waited on the sidelines, Aran couldnât help but steal glances at his manager. Which of course didnât go unnoticed by her.Â
âSomething wrong, Aran?â
He took a moment to find the right words before he spoke, âThat samurai guy⊠He made some great plays.â
âHe did, didnât he?â (Y/N) recalled Asahiâs top moments of the match. A smile graced her lips when she remembered the moment Asahi feinted a spike that surprised both Aran and Akagi. She can tell by the look of his face that he didnât mean to do that, all the while Inarizakiâs ace and libero glared at him. âEven our own fans cheered him on at one point.â
âI know right? But I couldnât blame them for cheerinâ.â Aran sighed as he crossed his arms in front of his chest. He mentally winced as he recalled the time Karasunoâs #3 received his spike with his shoulder. He didnât want to brag but he knew for a fact that his spikes were strong. No doubt Azumane is going to have a bruise that will last a few days. âHeâs definitely a strong ace.â
âYou guys shook hands, right? Did you tell him something?â (Y/N) asked her friend, curiosity getting the best of her.Â
Aran nodded. âYeah, I told him something.â
(Y/N) waited for him to continue but when he didnât say anything else she stepped in front of him. âWell? What did you tell him? You didnât say anything mean, did you? Heâs sensitive and-â
Her mini interrogation was cut off when Aran laughed and said, âRelax, (Y/N). I didnât say anything mean.â
âThen what did you tell him?â She asked again, getting slightly annoyed by Aranâs secrecy.
âDonât worry about it. Itâs a guy thing.â
Oh, you suck.â (Y/N) pouted as she punched his arm repeatedly. âAnd here I thought you were the one guy that I can trust unconditionally. Guess Kita is the only one.â
âAww. Donât be like that.â Aran swung his arm over her shoulder and brought her in for a side hug. âAfter all weâve been through these last three years, youâre just gonna toss me away like that?â
(Y/N) let out a small yelp when she felt Aranâs hand ruffle her hair. âHey! My hair! It took me all morning to make it look good.â
âOh?â Aran gave her a teasing smile that could rival the twinsâ. âYou never do your hair for matches. You tryinâ to impress samurai guy?â
âS-Shut up! Whatâs wrong with me trying to look good?â (Y/N) defended, hoping Aran didnât see through her tough act. âAre you really not going to tell me what you told him?â
Aran laughed and shook his head. âNope!â
âFine. Iâm sure Kita would tell me.â She said before pulling away from the aceâs embrace. She wrinkled her nose before covering it. âYou stink.â
(Y/N) opened her bag and gave him a clean towel. Aran huffed but didnât argue because he knew he didnât exactly smell like roses. He wiped away the sweat around his face and neck when he noticed his captain coming towards them.
âLooks like Kitaâs done.â
âYou guys were waiting for me?â Kita asked his friends. âYou didnât have to.â
âItâs tradition.â Aran pointed out. âWe always walk together off the court.â
âItâs been like this since our first-year, Kita. Remember? Why would we change it now?â She added.
Kita hummed as his heart stirred at his friendsâ words. âI guess not but letâs go. The next match is going to start soon and we shouldn't get in the way.â
He walked forward, missing the way his friends shared a knowing look. Together, the Inarizaki captain, ace, and manager made their way to the rest of the team that were patiently waiting for them.
Along the way, (Y/N) took the chance to ask the same question she asked Aran and hoped he would give her the answer she was hoping for. To her dismay, Kita gave her a soft smile and said, âAran only told your friend the obvious.â
(Y/N) sighed. âYou wound me, Shinsuke. I thought you were my friend. My best friend who would tell me everything. My good friend who should have my back after everything we went through. My-â
âGive it up, (Y/N).â Aran laughed at her attempt to guilt trip Kita. âI told ya itâs a guy thing.â
âThatâs the lamest excuse Iâve ever heard.â (Y/N) complained as both captain and ace smirked at her.Â
The third-year trio met up with their team and together they departed to the sub-arena. As they walked down the stairs, (Y/N) could practically feel her underclassmen heavy stares on her back. It was only a matter of time before someone said something.
Itâs almost comical how she was able to call stuff out before they even happened, especially when the twins asked for Kita. Judging by the guilty expressions on their faces, it wasnât hard to figure out what they were going to say.
In unison, the twins began their apology. âUm⊠Weâre sorry-âÂ
But, as usual, Kita was one step ahead of them as he interrupted their speech. âWhat? Gonna apologize to me so you can feel a bit better about yourselves?â
Standing next to the captain, (Y/N) shivered under her jacket at Kitaâs seemingly ice cold words and she wasnât the only one who felt the effects. The Miya twins straightened up their posture and with similar embarrassed expressions they yelled, âWha?! N-No! Course not!â
(Y/N) grinned at the second-yearsâ panicked response. Sheâs going to miss those two when she graduates in a couple of months.Â
Kita smirked to himself and waved his hand in dismissal. âI know, I know. Sorry.â His expression changed into a pensive one. âBut⊠I think you should save the apologies for when youâve done something wrong.â
Atsumu and Osamuâs eyes seemed to glimmer under the light, taking their captainâs words to heart.
Kita continued. âI donât think you made a mistake by choosinâ to do that quick set right then. I thought you were gonna score too⊠Though I hafta say I hate the idea of tryinâ stuff in real games that we ainât done in practice first.â
The twins grimaced as their eyes looked at the ground with great interest. They looked so guilt-ridden because they knew Kita had a point.Â
âStill,â (Y/N) spoke up, causing everyone to perk up. âThe fact you guys were able to copy that quick attack on your first try was amazing. Iâve never seen anything like that.â
Aran nodded. âAnd that last rally there⊠We probably just picked the wrong guys to try it against.â
âI agree.â Kita said as he recalled the matchâs final moments. âWhen you two get all fired up and gung-ho-like⊠You usually leave everybody else back behind you in the dust.â He paused, recalling Karasunoâs so-called âfreakâ duo before continuing. âBut this once, the other guys were just as fired up and gung-ho-like as you two⊠It was amazinâ right?â
The captain couldnât help the smile that grew on his lips and (Y/N) couldnât help but smile as well. It was a rare sight to see her friend smile but it never failed to warm her heart. Kita began his descent down the stairs but not before saying, âIt ainât every day you get to play a game like that against a team like that. We got real lucky⊠Good for you.â
(Y/N) chuckled at how her underclassmen looked so shocked after hearing Kitaâs touching words. They must have thought heâd be his stoic self. They donât realize that heâs happy that his teammates found worthy opponents in Karasuno.
âWaitâŠâ Atsumu said. âKita-san was smiling just now, wasnât he?â
âYeah.â Osamu confirmed, his eyes following his upperclassman.
Riseki stepped beside Atsumu and added, âI caught him smiling bunches during the game.â
âBunches?!/Yer kiddinâ.â The twins exclaimed at the same time, not believing the first-yearâs statement.
They looked at their manager, mentally asking her if it was true. Their jaws dropped when she nodded and said, âHeâs not a robot, you guys. Kita can smile. Donât act so surprised when he shows his feelings.â
Kita stopped in his tracks when he heard his managerâs words. He stood there in silence, contemplating his next words that could leave a lasting impression on his team.Â
After a moment, he admitted his feelings, âStill, for some reason Iâm awfully frustrated. Now, I did everything I could proper and I did it right. I can say I donât have any regrets and mean it as the honest truth. Results like winning and losing, theyâre still just side effects that happen when Iâm doin what I oughta be doinâ. But⊠Itâs funny.â
The captain of the Inarizaki volleyball team turned to look at his teammates. His eyes met with each one along with his rare gentle smile that surprised the first and second-years.Â
ââWell? Isnât my team amazing?â I wanted to say that even more.â
(Y/N) opened her mouth to say something but she was left speechless after listening to Kitaâs speech. She tried so hard to contain her tears but it was no use. Her strong facade crumbled with each tear streaming down her face. Kitaâs words etched into her heart and she hoped her juniors will continue to work hard in the future. At the thought of her juniors, (Y/N) glanced up at them only to see they were tearing up as well. Suna was the only one who remained tear-free but (Y/N) knew him well enough to know heâs feeling the same way as everyone else.
As she tried to compose herself, Osamu tearfully spoke up, âPlease keep saying it, senpai.â
Atsumu followed up and declared, âWeâll be the kind of teammates you can brag about to your great-grandkids.â
Kita looked up to the ceiling with a hopeful look on his face. His smile grew even more after hearing the twinsâ promise.
âI look forward to it.âÂ
And with that, the third-year captain turned around and continued to walk down the stairs. The rest of the Inarizaki team were left spellbound, too stunned to move an inch.Â
âCome on. Letâs hurry up and get changed.â Kita advised them. He looked at his friends and his eyes softened when he saw the state (Y/N) and Aran was in. âYou guys okay?â
(Y/N) couldnât help the small chuckle that escaped her lips. Automatically, her arms wrapped around him and hugged her friend tightly. It took a few seconds but she soon felt him hug back. Then she felt another pair of arms around them and it didnât end there. In less than ten seconds, her and Kita were in the center of a massive group hug.
Inarizakiâs motto stated that they didnât need the memories, but with this heartfelt moment she was experiencing⊠(Y/N) hoped her teammates would make an exception because she will definitely hold this memory close to her heart.
âYou guys are the best. I wouldnât manage any other team. Thank you for the last three years!â
It went without saying there wasnât a single dry eye amongst the group.
âTHANK YOU SENPAI!â
~Meanwhile in the baggage storage area~
Asahi never felt so exhausted before in his entire life. This match was, without a doubt, on his list of top three most difficult matches. The adrenaline from before seemed to evaporate the moment he stepped away from the court. He was sure he looked like the dictionaryâs definition of tired. Despite the exhaustion and the victory under his belt, he felt conflicted.
He hasnât seen (Y/N) since the final line up and he wondered if she was okay. Her team came close to winning. The last rally was really a battle of wills between his team and hers. He could only imagine the sting of hurtful defeat the moment the ball fell onto their court. And with (Y/N) being a third-year, it was her last chance to be with her team in Nationals.
Now her chance is gone⊠Asahi couldnât help but feel a bit responsible for that.Â
Which is why his eyes keep glancing at the entrance every five minutes, hoping to see her and talk for a minute. Even after he cleaned up and dressed back into his normal clothes, there was still no sign of the girl that made him nervous yet confident all at the same time.
It didnât help how tired he felt. He yawned for what seemed like the fourth time today, but his tired eyes kept focus on the entrance.Â
âYo Asahi! You look like the walking dead.â Suga jested, sitting down next to him. âEverything okay?â
âJust tired. My arms feel like theyâre going to fall off.â
Suga laughed and repeatedly slapped his aching back. âBut you were great out there! You looked so dependable.â
Asahi let out a nervous chuckle. âThanks. I didnât want to let the team down.â
âOh yeah? And here I thought you were just showing off for a certain Inarizaki manager. I caught (Y/N) smiling when you made that awesome service ace.â
âYou did?â He hoped Suga wasnât pulling his leg. The thought of (Y/N) smiling because of him felt too good to be true.Â
Asahi wished he could have seen that smile but with how intense each set was he could only afford the briefest of glances in her direction. Thankfully, there was a moment they shared together that felt like an eternity.Â
It was during a time out and he was intensely listening to Coach Ukaiâs instructions. Kiyoko just handed him his water bottle and a clean white towel to which he gratefully took. He wiped away the beads of sweat that formed on his neck and face before taking a drink. As he took in the cold refreshing drink, his eyes drifted to the other side of the net where the Inarizaki players were huddled together. And there was (Y/N), doing the same thing as Kiyoko as she handed her teammates their water. She just gave her setter his water when she looked up and met his gaze.
His heart began to beat wildly against his chest and it had nothing to do with the high caliber game that was going on. Then she gave him that smile, the same smile that made him all warm and fuzzy on the inside, along with a small wave. His face began to burn bright red and for a few seconds he forgot how to breathe. Unfortunately, during those few seconds he was drinking his water which led to him having a small choking episode. Luckily, it wasnât too bad so when he looked up and saw (Y/N)âs worried expression, wordlessly asking him if he was okay. Touched that she was worried for him, Asahi gave her a small nod and hoped it was enough to reassure her.Â
The interaction lasted about maybe 45 seconds before the referee signaled for the game to continue but those 45 seconds were committed into memory, something he will cherish for a long time. He wondered if (Y/N) thought the sameâŠÂ
âAre you remembering how you choked on your water when you looked at (Y/N)?â Suga laughed. âI thought you were going to pass out! Then we wouldâve been in real big trouble!â
âI-It wasnât that bad.â Aashi protested though he could feel his cheeks beginning to warm up. Trying to hide his blush, he grabbed a towel and wiped away the nonexistent sweat from his face. âShe just surprised me, is allâŠâ
Suga grinned at him. âHow is it that you two are so adorably cute yet you guys arenât even together?â
âSorry?â The ace apologized with a confused look on his face because honestly he didnât know what he was apologizing for.Â
âNever mind. By the way, did Inarizakiâs ace say something to you when we shook hands?â
Asahi recalled that moment with Ojiro Aran. âYeah, he did. He didnât say anything bad. Just wished us luck in the next round.â
It was trueâŠish. His Inarizaki counterpart did wish him luck as well as some advice, something he wasnât quite ready to share with his friends just yet.
âHuh, well thatâs nice of him. He looks like a cool guy. The kind you want to hang out with, you know?â Suga remarked.
Asahi nodded. His eyes took a quick glance at the entrance, hoping to see the familiar maroon-colored Inarizaki jackets. He tried not to look disappointed when he didnât see anyone on the team.
âI just canât believe that Aran guy!â Suga exclaimed. âHe was on a roll so many times. I canât believe he jumped for the ball not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES!â
âUh-huh.â
Suga furrowed his brow at his friendâs lack of active response. He was just about to ask him whatâs wrong when he took one look at his face. It didnât take a genius to figure out what was on his mind.
âLighten up, Asahi, Iâm sure your future girlfriend will walk through those doors any minute now.â
Another wave of heat washed over him as he tried to stutter out a reply. âI-Itâs been a while. I wanted to talk with her before we go back to the inn.â
Initially, Suga was going to poke fun at the fact Asahi didnât deny the âfuture girlfriendâ part but he decided against it.Â
âIâm sure sheâs with her team right now, Asahi. They lost their place in the Spring Tournament so they must be torn up. After all, they were the favorites to win this whole thing.â
âYeah, I know. That's why I want to talk with her to see if sheâs okay. I mean I know sheâs a third-year so this is her last year, so I canât help but feel bad.â
âI thought you guys agreed on being cool whatever the outcome was?â Suga asked.
âDoesnât mean I canât feel bad for her.â Asahi countered. âI mean, Iâm happy we won but⊠I donât know⊠I wished it was different.â
Suga sighed but he understood where his sensitive friend was coming from. âI get it, Asahi, but you also need to stand proud for what you accomplished, itâs almost like a slap in the face to her and her team if you donât. Iâm sure if (Y/N)-san was here, sheâll agree with me.â
Asahi slightly grimaced but he couldnât find any fault in Sugaâs advice. After all, he did make an agreement with (Y/N) before the match started that they would stay on good terms whatever the results may be. Still, the thought of her being sad, especially when he was the cause of it, made his heart tighten in anxiety.
The ace was brought out of his thoughts when he felt Sugaâs hand on his shoulder, âJust breathe. Everything will work out in the end. So quit giving yourself a panic attack.â
âRight.âÂ
Following his friendâs advice, Asahi took a deep breath to calm his nerves and to get rid of the worst case scenarios in his head. It was difficult to say the least with each passing minute and there was still no sign of (Y/N) or her team. During the time he waited, he made the choice to sit on the bench closest to the entrance.Â
Asahi was very much aware of the stares from the other players but he didnât take it to heart. Instead, he kept his cool composure while his hands were balled up inside his black jacket. Thatâs when he felt his phone and an idea formed at once. He quickly pulled out his phone, clicked (Y/N)âs contact, but then stared at the blinking cursor.
âWhat should I text her? Something short and sweet? No, it should be something meaningful. But if I do that then it will be a super long text and it might freak her out⊠Gah! Why is it so hard making a good text?â
âListen up everybody!â Coach Ukai announced loudly. âWe leave in a few minutes. Get your stuff and head outside.â
Focused on the task at hand, his mind wracked for the right words that would check off the metaphorical checklist of the perfect text. After a few rough drafts and deleting a few words here and there, Asahi was more or less sure, 85% sure, he wrote a good enough text. All he had to do was press the send button.
His thumb hovered over the button for a moment and at the same time his heart was beating like crazy. Itâs unbelievable how nervous (Y/N) made him even when sheâs not physically there next to him. He wished he could at least see her.
âChop! Chop! Man-bun! Our ride is here!âÂ
Asahi shuddered under Coach Ukaiâs nickname designed specifically for him. Without thinking, he hurried to pocket his phone, grabbed his bag, and joined his team. He looked over his shoulder one last time before following his team to the bus. Once he sat down, he took out his phone and opened up his messages when his heart jumped to his throat.
Message sent.
His message to (Y/N) has been delivered.Â
He must have accidently sent it when he was getting his stuff together when Coach Ukai called him out. Maybe it was for the best. He wasnât mentally ready to send the text but perhaps it was for the best. A little push from the gods to give him a little boost of confidence.
Now all he could do was wait for her reply. The anticipation of her response was suspenseful to say the least. Either way, at least he could breathe a bit more easily now that his text message was sent. He just wished he had another chance to talk with her.
~
(Y/N) stood right next to Suna as they all stood in line underneath their Inarizaki banner. Her attention focused on Riseki who was pointing the camera, ready to take the commemorative photo Kita had asked for. She put on her best smile and placed her hand on her hip, ready for the picture to be taken.
She felt a subtle shift in her hair and automatically her other hand went to pinch Sunaâs arm as she knew how childish the middle blocker was for making bunny ears from behind.Â
âReally, Suna?â She quietly chided, making sure to keep her smile on for the camera. âBunny ears? What are you? Nine?â
âDonât know what youâre talking about, senpai.â
âWatch yourself, Suna. I know your phoneâs passcode. Donât tempt me.âÂ
Suna pouted slightly before removing his hand away. Heâll just have to time it the moment the picture is taken. Easy enough.
âReady? Say cheese!â Riseki called out.
Ding! (Y/N)âs phone alerted her that she received a text message.
Bi-Bip! Kashik! The camera took the picture without a hitch.
Multiple events happened at once the moment Riseki took the picture. What was supposed to be a normal commemorative picture that enshrined Inarizakiâs great volleyball players turned out nothing of the usual. Everyone gathered around the first-year to look at the picture, hoping it turned out alright. It didnât take long for opinions and excuses to start flying all around.
âWhat the heck, Samu!â Atsumu exclaimed to his brother. âLook at the camera, wouldja!â
Osamu shrugged his shoulders and offered his excuse, âI thought I caught a whiff of curry cominâ from outside.â
âCurry? Youâre imagining things!â Ginjima laughed but he wouldnât be surprised if the ever-so-hungry Miya was right.
Suna joined in on the banter as he said, âYouâre hallucinating smells now? Scary.âÂ
âLike youâve got room to talk, Suna!â Aran called out the middle blocker. âYou werenât lookinâ at the camera, neither! Or you, Akagi!â
The libero offered the ace a smile. âI was thinkinâ maybe we oughta go call coach.â
Ćmimi sighed while closing his eyes at his teamâs antics. He looked at Riseki, who stared wordlessly at the cameraâs screen with a sweatdrop rolling down his face. âTime it better next time.â
Suna took one more look at the picture and his lips formed a smile when he saw his bunny ears hand gesture behind (Y/N)âs head. Even with the silly hand gesture unbeknownst to (Y/N), the manager looked effortlessly beautiful with her smile. He was sure if the president of the yearbook club were to see this picture, he wouldnât hesitate to put it front and center of the dedicated pages because of their lovely manager that could charm any guy with a smile.
Speaking of their manager, Suna never heard her opinions about the picture. He looked up and his eyes searched for her. It didnât take long to find her. She was in the same spot as she was in the photo though this time with her phone in hand. Come to think of it, he remembered her phone notifying her that she received a message.
Who could be texting her? He had a pretty good guess.
âYo.â He called out to (Y/N) before peering over her shoulder. His eyes strained to read the screen before she quickly pressed her phone to the chest. âIs the samurai guy texting you already?â
She turned around and gave him a soft glare. âQuit sneaking up behind me, Suna.â
Suna ignored his managerâs words as he swung his arm over her shoulders. âDonât dodge the question. Iâm right, arenât I?â
â... Maybe.â (Y/N) smiled up at her friend. âHow did the picture come out? Are we taking another one?â
âNah. I think Kita-senpai liked it. Said it looked just like us or something like that. You looked great compared to the rest of us.â
(Y/N) playfully rolled her eyes, âI would hope so. You guys need a shower. Like badly.â
âI take it back. You looked horrible.â Suna huffed in what was supposed to be annoyance but the third-year manager knew better as she saw the playful glint in his eyes. âNow I donât feel bad for doing bunny ears behind your back.â
âYouâre such a rascal. Just wait, Iâll get even with you.â (Y/N) informed him with a mischievous glint in her (E/C) eyes. Â
âI like to see you try.â Suna remarked as he removed his arm away from her.Â
Ever the observer, he looked for any signs of sadness that (Y/N) may be hiding. Todayâs loss was a harsh reality for the entire teamâs expectations to make it far into this competition. Heâll never admit it to anyone but he did try his hardest to help his team win. He wanted to keep playing more matches with the third-yearsâŠÂ
âYou okay?â He asked her after sharing a moment of silence. âYou can tell me the truth. I wonât tell anyone.â
(Y/N) couldnât help but let out a light chuckle, leaning her head back to look at the gym lights. She replayed all the best moments from the match with a fond smile across her lips. There were no regrets at all as she answered, âHonestly and strangely, I feel fine. I know you guys played your best against them so thatâs all I could ask for. If anything, Iâm grateful for Karasuno because I know for a fact this loss will only push everyone, including you, to become better. â
Suna frowned at the idea of the extra drills and long practices that will no doubt be inevitable. But before the tiring thought could take over his entire mind, the sudden urge to win against Karasuno grew tenfold. By this time next year, Inarizaki will come out victorious.
âI havenât lost you, have I, Suna?â (Y/N) asked in a teasing tone. âHow on earth are you going to manage your third-year?â
âDonât ask.â Suna groaned. âYouâve been with us since day one. Itâs going to be weird without you and the rest of the third-years around. Weâll miss you.â
(Y/N) bit her lip in order to contain the laugh that threatened to slip out. âIâm not dying, Suna. I canât stay in high school forever.â
âNot forever. Just stay another year with us.â Suna clarified.
âTempting offer but this girl would like to step out into the real world. Besides, donât pretend you arenât going to send me daily texts. Iâm counting on your videos to cheer me up.â (Y/N) smiled one more time at Suna before patting his back. âNow, come on. Letâs get going. We wouldnât want to keep everyone waiting.â
âOh? Whatâs the rush? Eager to see samurai-guy again?â
She could feel herself getting warm from Sunaâs line of questions. Though it didnât stop her from saying, âHis name is Azumane Asahi.â
Suna exhaled but still smiled nonetheless. âIf he cares for you, the same way you care for him then I guess Iâll remember his name.â
(Y/N) smiled at Suna and nodded. As the middle blocker made his way to follow the rest of the team, the manager slowly trailed after him. She took out her phone and reread the text Asahi sent her.
Hey (Y/N)-san. I donât know if you want to hear from me or not but I hope you do. I wanted to talk with you face-to-face but Iâm about to leave. I was waiting for you but I guess you were busy? I mean, I understand if you were. So if youâre free and if thereâs any chance we could talk in person somehow, could you text me back? I want to explain myself to you (if that makes sense). Please⊠Thanks.
Even with words on a phone screen, (Y/N) can feel how anxious Asahi must have been when writing this message. It was almost adorable in a way. Then again, the fact that he said he waited for her really had her heart skip a beat.
She quickly typed her response:
Hi Asahi! Iâm sorry we couldnât meet up after the match. We were taking a picture and it took longer than expected lol. Iâm sorry you waited for me. I wanted to talk with you too. Congrats on winning! It was a great game! If itâs okay with you, do you want to meet up tonight? Our coach is taking us out to eat so Iâll text you when weâre back at the hotel.Â
It didnât take long for another message to show up and she felt herself smile like a fool in love when she opened and read Asahiâs text.
If itâs no trouble then yeah letâs meet up. Enjoy your meal and see you soon.
(Y/N) smiled to herself once more as she held her phone close to her heart. She couldnât wait to see him again.Â
~Hours Later~
âSAMU!! QUIT STEALING MY ONIGIRI!!âÂ
âIT WAS MINE FIRST AND YOU KNOW IT!!â
(Y/N) sighed for what seemed like the hundredth time today but the amused smile never left her lips as she watched the twins continue to bicker. The other third-years sitting next to her also watched in amusement while adding their own comments.
âIâm gonna miss this.â (Y/N) confessed when she took a sip of her drink. âYou can always count on the twins for entertainment.â
âRight? Itâs going to be weird without hearing their arguments.â Aran laughed.
âOr separating their fights once every two weeks.â Akagi added.
âTheyâll be fine.â Kita spoke up from the center of the table. âThey all will.â
And strangely enough, no one doubted the captainâs words. (Y/N) had no doubt in her mind that by this time next year, their juniors will make it to Nationals once again and when that time comes, sheâll be there.Â
âHey (Y/N)-senpai? Youâre still treating me to dessert, right?â Osamu asked from across the table. Sticky pieces of rice danced around his mouth but still had that hungry look in his eyes.Â
âHUH?! If he gets dessert, then I should too!â Atsumu proclaimed.
Yeah. Sheâll definitely be there for them.Â
~
After leaving the restaurant with stomachs filled with ramen, curry, onigiri, and other delicious meals, the Inarizaki manager took her phone out and texted Asahi that she was on her way back to the hotel. With each passing minute, (Y/N) could feel herself become excited yet nervous at the same time. It wasnât long until the familiar building of her hotel was right in front of her.
On the walk back to the hotel, she was laughing along with the rest of the third-years when she heard her name being called from outside the group.Â
âAsahi!â (Y/N) greeted him with a wave. It was almost natural to have a smile on her lips; the crush she had on Karasunoâs ace was so obvious. She can practically feel her face burn with all the warm fuzzy feelings against Januaryâs chilly air.Â
âH-Hey (Y/N)!â He waved at her before giving the crowd of boys a nod of acknowledgement. His mind racked for the right words to say to them, but having ten or so guys staring (were they glaring at him?) made it almost impossible. Still, Asahi found the ability to speak and without stuttering he said, âHey guys. Er, nice to see you again.â
While the first-years were too scared to reply and the second-years tried to maintain their silent dominance, it was Aran and Kita that finally broke the tension.
âNice to see you too. Azumane, right?â Kita asked, giving the ace a warm smile. âYou played a great game.â
âOh, thanks! You guys did too.â Asahi returned the compliment, meaning every word.Â
âYour receives were impressive, Azumane-san.â Aran followed up. âHowâs your shoulder? Hope I didnât hurt you too badly.â
Funny how at the mention of his shoulder, Asahi felt it throb in pain. Still, he made himself smile and lied, âItâs nothing I canât handle. Iâll be fine by tomorrow.â
âThatâs good to hear.â Aran laughed in good nature. âKarasuno is definitely a team to watch out for. Hope youâre ready for tomorrow.â
There were a couple of scoffs and a few mumbles but Asahi was sure he heard someone say, âDay three is always hell.â But before he could ask, (Y/N) clapped her hands together and stood in front of him.Â
âGuys, letâs not make Asahi nervous. He doesnât need the extra stress.â She told her friends, making sure to give the second-years a pointed look just as Atsumu opened his mouth to say something. âWhy donât you all head inside? Iâll catch up with you guys later.â
Kita nodded. âAlright, donât stay out too long. Youâll catch a cold.â
âIâll make sure she stays warm.â Asahi was quick to say, not realizing the slight innuendo his words sounded until it was too late. âI-I mean-â
Atsumu stepped forward with Osamu right behind him. âOh, now weâre definitely staying.âÂ
âNo you are not.âÂ
The Inarizaki setter flinched under Kitaâs ice cold words that felt like a punch to the gut.Â
âB-But (Y/N)-senpai-â
âLetâs go, you two.â Aran placed his hands on each of the twinâs shoulders before forcing them to the hotelâs entrance. âIâm sure your company isnât needed.â
âWhat are you talking about? I make great company.â Atsumu argued.
Osamu scoffed. âNot really.â
âShut yer trap, âSamu!â
Kita sighed before facing (Y/N) and Asahi. âSorry about them. They mean well. Go ahead and have your conversation.â
âThanks, Shin.â (Y/N) told him as she hugged her friend. âYouâre the best.â
âNo problem.âÂ
With one final wave, the Inarizaki captain followed the rest of his team. He helped Aran push the resistant twins into the hotel, but not before Osamu yelled, âNo funny business!âÂ
âYeah! What âSamu said!â Atsumu called out from over Aranâs shoulders. â(Y/N)-senpai is our manager. Donât hurt her!â
âQUIT TALKINâ AND GET INSIDE, YA STUPID TWINS!â Aran yelled as he gave one last push to make the Miya brothers enter the hotel.
(Y/N) sighed before facing her crush. It wasnât until now she realized how warm she felt until a cold breeze flew by. It was funny how a crush can emit such feelings. She wouldnât deny she never had a crush before. Perhaps there were fleetings moments of admiration and adoration to some guys at school and an embarrassing fangirl crush on famous celebrities.
But never before have the butterflies in her stomach felt so impactful. Asahi has unknowingly made his way to her heart and caused the warm feeling of love to bloom.
Which is why she couldnât help but smile up at Asahi. He looked taller up close. Broader too. His hair wasnât in its usual style, instead it was in a low man bun with a few strands framing his face very well. His eyes remained kind and warm and she could feel herself fall deeper in love with him.Â
âSo,â (Y/N) began, her hand instinctively tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear. âYour text said you wanted to talk?Â
âY-Yeah.â Asahi confirmed nervously. âI hope I wasnât interrupting anything with your team. You guys look close.âÂ
She smiled at how anxious Asahi was behaving and a small part of her hoped it was because of her. âI could say the same thing about your team, but donât worry about them. We spent the entire evening together so they should be fine without me for a while.â
âAre you sure?â Asahi asked, the worry in his voice was evident and (Y/N) knew she had to do something to help him calm down. âI-If y-you rather be with t-them-â
Without a second thought, (Y/N) took his hand and held it reassuringly, âI want to be with you.â
Her heart swelled when she saw how Asahiâs eyes seemed to light up as he asked, âReally?â
âReally.â She confirmed, her voice firm yet gentle that washed away all doubt in Asahiâs mind. âNow, come on. Letâs sit down and have a friendly chat.â
Never before has Asahi felt his heart beating so fast against his chest than it was at this very moment. He was feeling hot and cold at the same time. His stomach was in multiple knots with those metaphorical butterflies dancing between his ribcage. Was it weird for his mind to go a million miles a minute yet he couldnât figure out what to say to the most beautiful girl heâd ever laid eyes on?Â
(Y/N) looked like an angel sitting under the strings of outdoor lights. Even while wearing casual winter clothes with her maroon Inarizaki jacket and a red scarf, Asahi thought she looked ethereal. Her (H/C) hair looked so elegant, almost magical in a sense when he noticed tiny snowflakes decorating her head, like shimmering diamonds. Then there was that smile of hers. A smile that made him feel like he could do anything in the world. He wished he could see that smile of hers for the rest of his life.
âSo, what did you want to talk about, Asahi?â (Y/N) asked, her eyes were bright and inquisitive. âYour text said you wanted to explain yourself?â
âY-Yeah, I did.â He admitted, his hand rubbing the back of neck. He took a deep breath to calm down before facing his crush. âI-I wanted t-to apologize.â
(Y/N) furrowed her brow upon hearing this. âWhat? Asahi, what are you- H-Hey!â
He was bowing his head and before she could ask further questions, Asahi spoke, âI-Iâm sorry that w-we ruined your chance to advance. Y-You guys were the favorites to win this whole thing! A-And itâs y-your last year too! Iâm sorry we took your chance away. Please forgive me!â
Asahi didnât dare raise his head after spilling everything he felt ever since the match ended. He could feel his ears beginning to burn against the cold air. The silence was unnerving and it didnât help when his mind was overtaken by anxiety.
âWhy would (Y/N) ever forgive me?â He frustratedly asked himself. âShe probably hates me. No. Iâm sure she hates me and probably everyone on my team.â
â(Y/N) is not like that. Sheâs kind, considerateâŠâ The tiny voice of hope spoke up. âShe doesnât hate you. Youâre friends-â
But the dark voice of anxiety and doubt took over. âFor now. (Y/N) probably only agreed to talk to you so she can say itâs over. She doesnât want anything to do with you. Why would she be friends with the person who stole her and her teamâs chance to win?!â
âAsahi.â (Y/N)âs voice sounded so soft and full of care. It may sound crazy but just hearing his name in her voice made Asahi feel the warmest he has ever felt. âPlease look at me.â
He didnât want to but something in her voice reassured him, similar to a ray of sunlight after a hurricane. Slowly, Asahi looked up and his eyes immediately found comfort in (Y/N)âs eyes. His heart skipped a beat when he saw (Y/N) was smiling up at him, not an ounce of hate anywhere.
âI thought we agreed that whatever the outcome of the match, weâll be okay?â (Y/N) asked before taking hold of his hand, the very hand she shook when they made the agreement. âWe shook on it, remember?â
Asahi felt himself flush under her words but he still found the courage to speak as he said, âI-I just thought⊠You would, I-I donât knowâŠhate me after what happened today.â
âI would never! Todayâs match was the result of everyoneâs hard work. Everyone played amazing. You guys won fair and square. If thereâs anything I should feel, I think being grateful comes to mind. In fact, I feel like I should thank you.â
âThank me?â Surely, he must have heard her wrong.
But (Y/N) flashed him a bright grin and nodded, âYou and your teammates gave motivation to my team the next time they get to Nationals. Iâm not sure if you realized this, Asahi, but you guys represent Nationals to a lot of people now.â
âAre you sure? I feel bad. I want to do something, anything, to make you feel better.â
Out of everything that came to mind, Asahi wasnât expecting to be punched in the shoulder by the girl he has a major crush on. It was just like yesterday, (Y/N)âs punch wasnât as forceful as Sugaâs nor was it delicate and yet it was enough to send shivers and goosebumps all throughout his body. Then when her eyes met his, Asahi swore his breath was taken away with how close she was to him.
âFirst, you can stop feeling bad. Iâm okay, really.â Her hand lifted again and Asahi mentally prepared himself to be punched again only to have her hand on his shoulder. (Y/N) offered a gentle smile before continuing on. âAnd second, if you really want to make me feel better then take the win. Take it and do the same thing tomorrow. Play each set and win some more. I promise if you do that, Iâll be more than okay because Iâll be rooting for you.â
Just hearing her words of encouragement was enough to make his head spin. All the self-doubt threatening to take over his mind washed away. How does she do that? Say these words so easily that brought him back from the edge? Words that held such meaning that easily helped him calm down and breathe.
âAsahi? You okay?âÂ
âAh! Yeah! Sorry! Itâs justâŠâ Asahi looked at his feet, his hand scratching his cheek. âYou just surprised me is allâŠâ
(Y/N) was taken aback before smiling, âI hope thatâs a good thing. But I meant what I said, Asahi. Though if youâre still worried about me being sad and you were serious about making me feel better then maybe⊠You could do me a favor?â
Asahi jumped at the chance and nodded furiously. âAnything!â
It was hard to hide the laugh that threatened to escape but (Y/N) canât help how adorable Asahi was behaving. Heâs a teddy bear. Ugh! She just wanted to hug this gentle giant!
âWin the next match for us.âÂ
He opened his mouth to say something, anything really, but his mind was still reeling of how sincere (Y/N) was with him at this moment. His eyes never left hers, searching for any hint of sadness or bitterness. Instead, he felt himself getting lost the longer he gazed into those beautiful, kind eyes.Â
After what felt like a lifetime, Asahi found his voice and for the first time his voice did not waver, âWe will.â
(Y/N) smiled before nudging her shoulder against his. âThatâs the spirit! Plus look on the bright side, Karasuno is getting popular. Iâm sure after today you guys earned some fans cheering you on. Youâre definitely going to have fans cheering you on.â
Asahi let out a nervous chuckle. âI guess so. I just hope I donât disappoint them tomorrow.â
âHey!â A series of soft pats made their mark on his shoulder and Asahi could feel himself flush under her touch. âThink positive! Remember youâre not alone. You have your friends and the rest of your team that you can rely on.â
There was a moment of hesitation. He can see it in her eyes though it was gone because (Y/N) smiled at him and said words he wonât be forgetting anytime soon, âAnd if it helps, you have me too.â
She didnât physically hug him but she might as well have with her words that filled Asahiâs whole being with warmth.Â
âIt does. Thanks, (Y/N). You-â Asahi stopped himself when he realized he was about to say something embarrassing. Instead he said what he always thought since yesterday, âYouâre amazing.â
This time it was her turn to flush under his gaze. His warm brown eyes had her melting in her seat. Out of habit, (Y/N) let out a nervous laugh before playing with a strand of her hair, âIâm not as cool as you, Asahi, but thank you for saying that.â
The two high schoolers sat in comfortable silence underneath the twinkling lights and while neither one of them said a word they found themselves gazing at the dark sky full of stars. Maybe there was a stolen glance or two but no one said anything.Â
âHey, Asahi?â
âYeah?â
âThis is going to sound a bit weird but⊠Whatâs your star sign?â
Asahi furrowed his brow but he answered nonetheless. âIâm a Capricorn.â
For some reason, a childhood memory played in his mind and the thought of it made him smile. It was a bit silly thinking about it but it was a precious memory all the same.Â
âYou know, when I was a little kid I used to spend all my time looking for the Capricorn constellation.â
âOh? Any reason why?â (Y/N) asked with genuine curiosity.
Asahi looked up at the sky full of stars. It was a shame they were in Tokyo as the bright cityâs lights made the stars look faint, almost dim.
âWell, I thought that if I could find my constellation in the sky and make a wish it would come true.â The ace felt his neck grow hot when he confessed the next detail. âBut whenever I couldnât find it, I would go crying to my grandma.â
âAww, Asahi.â (Y/N) cooed though there was a faint glint of amusement in her eyes. Her imagination took over as she thought of how cute Asahi must have been as a kid. He must have been the sweetest little kid with the biggest heart. âThatâs adorable. Do you still look for your sign or did you grow out of it?â
âWill you think it's embarrassing if I admit I still do?â Asahi asked.
âCourse not. I think itâs sweet to carry on your childhood tradition. I hope you made a lot of wishes.â (Y/N) looked back at the sky and sighed. âI wish I could see my star sign right now. I donât even know what mine looks like.â
âReally?â
(Y/N) rubbed her hands together, trying to bring back some warmth. âYou canât really see the stars well back in HyĆgo.âÂ
Asahi rubbed his neck. âWell, if you want⊠I could show you.â
Surprised, (Y/N) looked at him before asking, âYou would do that for me? You know you donât have to, right?â
âI want to. You did a lot to help me. Besides, after looking at the stars for so long Iâm sure I can find your star sign.â He looked at the sky and his heart physically deflated when he saw how faint the stars looked above the Tokyo cityâs lights. âThough I wonât have any luck seeing any constellations tonight. Iâm sorry.â
(Y/N) giggled before nudging her shoulder with his. âYou really like apologizing, donât you Asahi? Itâs not like you could control the weather or light pollution. But itâs nice of you to offer. Maybe one day I can visit Miyagi and see what the stars are like from your perspective.â
Asahi felt his heart skipping a beat at the sound of her laughter and the smile in her eyes. While he only met her literally yesterday, he felt comfortable enough to relax around her, even if his heart was going a hundred miles an hour and his skin felt like lava.
He didnât know where he found this extra boost of confidence to say, âI could show you around if you want. Miyagi has a lot of hidden gems that only locals know about. We can hang out i-if you want to.â
âIâd like that. Canât wait for the tour.â (Y/N) said as she clapped her hands together in glee. âMaybe one day, you could visit HyĆgo and I could show you around too!â
âIf itâs not a bother to you then yeah, I could pay a visit.â
âGreat!â (Y/N) exclaimed. âHyĆgo has a lot of tourist attractions we can visit. Iâll show you all my favorite spots! Oh, like the Kobe Port Tower! Itâs 108 meters high and it's designed to look like a traditional Japanese drum. It has an observation deck where you can see for miles! It even has a revolving cafe! Or if you donât like heights, there's the Himeji Castle. Itâs a very popular tourist spot because of its architecture-âÂ
It was only then she realized how much she was rambling. She glanced at Asahi only to find him already staring at her with those warm brown eyes, as if she did something amazing. Embarrassed, (Y/N) tried to hide herself behind her red scarf.
âSorry.â What was she apologizing for? (Y/N) didnât know. Maybe Asahiâs habit of excessive apologizing was starting to rub off on her. âI got excited for a second. I ramble whenever itâs a topic Iâm passionate about. I know architecture is a bit boring to some people but I think itâs so cool to see the different kinds of designs buildings can have and- Oh. Sorry Iâm rambling again.â
âI donât mind.â Asahi told her along with a soft smile. âI think itâs cute.âÂ
(Y/N)âs eyes widened when she heard her crush calling her cute. Did he realize what he just said? Or did she imagine it? So she had to ask, âDid you just say cute?â
The look on Asahiâs face quickly morphed into one of panic as he tried to jumble out a reply with an obvious blush painting his face, âI- Uh? No? I mean, I did. B-But I-I meant youâre rambling. N-Not you specifically. W-Wait! I think youâre cute too! P-Pretty even!â
(Y/N) couldnât hold back her laughter at how panicked Karasunoâs ace was currently behaving. So strong on the court and yet he was practically shaking like a fall leaf.Â
âAsahi, itâs okay. Breathe.â She placed her hand on his shoulder, hoping it offered comfort. âItâs just me.â
âI-I know.â He took a deep breath before facing her. âBut I meant what I said. A-About you.â
There goes her heart again, beating like crazy against her chest. âThanks Asahi⊠I⊠I think youâre pretty cute too. And youâre an amazing player.â She sighed longingly. âI just wish I can see you guys play again.â
âWait,â Asahi furrowed his brow, concerned . âYou arenât coming to the match tomorrow?â
âIâŠI donât know. I heard the coaches talk about it during dinner. Apparently, the principal called. He expected us to place further along in the tournament and since we didnât⊠Well, thereâs a chance we might go back to HyĆgo tomorrow morning.â
âOh.â He couldnât hide the bitter disappointment in his voice. Now more than ever, he didnât want this night to end. It might sound a bit silly but he wanted to keep seeing (Y/N). Todayâs victory dimmed in comparison now that he learned this might be the last time heâll see (Y/N) in a long time. âSorry again.â
âHey, come on, Asahi.â (Y/N) got up from her spot and stood in front of him. âYou donât have to keep apologizing. Thereâs nothing to forgive.â
âAre you sure?â His eyes pleaded for the truth.Â
(Y/N)âs light chuckle pulled his heartstrings and the vibrations sent warmth from his chest all the way to his fingertips. He can feel himself falling in love with her all over again when she surprised his soul out of his body the moment her hands touched his. She pulled him towards her and he was so anxious he almost tripped over his own feet as he stood in front of her.Â
Then Asahi felt it. Her arms wrapped around his torso bringing him close. It was a hug that sent a huge swarm of butterflies in his stomach. She was so close, closer than he has ever been to her. Wait⊠Thatâs not exactly true. Yesterday, when he saved (Y/N) from getting hurt, he was able to pull her aside just in time. (Y/N) stood right next to him with his arm around her. It was the first time he ever did something that brave and he remembered every second of it in that short moment.
But that moment of (Y/N) being next to him so close only lasted a minute. Asahi thought nothing could top the moment he met the girl that made his heart race.Â
Boy, was he wrong. Maybe his so-called bad fortune from his new year shrine visit was wrong. Or maybe the gods thought it was time to cut him a break. Perhaps he did something in his past life that granted him this moment right now. Whatever it was, he didnât want this moment to end.
(Y/N) had her ear pressed into Asahiâs firm chest as she continued to hug him. She could hear how fast his heart was beating and she smiled to herself because of it. It was cute that she had this kind of effect on her crush.Â
â(Y/N)?â His deep voice reached her ears and while she couldnât see him she could imagine the nervous expression on his face. âIs this okay? You hugging me? I mean, w-we only met yesterdayâŠâ
âAre you uncomfortable with me hugging you, Asahi?âÂ
âNo!â He was quick to reply. âI just meant⊠You donât have to hug me.â
âYouâre my friend and this is my way of showing you that thereâs really nothing to forgive. You donât have to apologize anymore.â She pulled away and smiled brightly up at him. âDeal?â
âDeal.âÂ
âGood.â
âGreat.â
âAmazing.â
âAwesome.â
âCool.â
âUhh⊠Warm?â
(Y/N) raised an eyebrow at him. âWhat?â
Asahi let out a nervous chuckle. âI-I donât know. Youâre warm so I said what was off the top of my head.â
The two high schoolers stared at each other before they laughed together. They were still in each otherâs arms but they made no movement to separate. If anyone were to walk by and saw them together, no one would have any doubts about how genuine young love can be.
Which is why they were surprised to hear a familiar voice that broke the calm, soothing atmosphere around them.Â
âOh? Asahi-senpai! I didnât know you had a girlfriend!âÂ
(Y/N) pulled away but she didnât stray too far as she stood her ground by Asahiâs side. Her eyes met with the innocent yet excited eyes of Karasunoâs #10, Hinata Shoyo and not far from him was the other half of the terrifying duo, Kageyama Tobio. Well, at least no else was here- Oh. Wait. Was that Tsukishima on a bicycle?Â
âHinata!â Asahi shouted before turning back to (Y/N). âSorry about him. He doesnât know what heâs talking about.â
The manager smiled and reassured him that it was okay. She then turned to face Karasunoâs first years and introduced herself. They did the same and Asahi was just about to sigh in relief when-
âSo are you Asahi-senpaiâs girlfriend?â This time it was Kageyama who asked.
(Y/N) felt her neck warm up and it wasnât because of her scarf. Out of habit, she tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear before answering, âNo, Iâm not. Iâm just a friend.â
Hinata and Kageyama looked satisfied with the answer. However, Tsukishima looked unconvinced. His calculated eyes looked at his upperclassman as if asking for the truth. Asahi tried to convey the silent message to leave them alone to the middle blocker, hoping they could leave them alone. Preferably before the duo could ask any more embarrassing questions.
âHey, Asahi-san, why are you holding hands-â
âCome on, you two,â Tsukishima, Asahiâs savior right now, grabbed their collars. He bowed before his upperclassmen before dragging his teammates. âWe finished your nightly jog. Itâs time to get back.â
âAck! Youâre choking me!â Hinata cried.
âYou donât have to push! Besides, Asahi has to come too!â Kageyama argued, clearly frustrated at how he was being manhandled by the snarky middle blocker.
âNo. Asahiâs right where he has to be.â Tsukishima stated. âYou idiot.â
âHUH?!â
(Y/N) watched in amusement as the trio of first years entered their little inn. âThey sure are interesting.â
âSorry about that. They can be a bit much.â
âOh, thatâs okay. The Miya twins are like that too. But I think⊠I should let you get back. Itâs getting late and you need your sleep. Tomorrowâs a big day for you.â
âRight. TomorrowâŠâ Asahi wished there were more than 24 hours in the day. âSo I guess this is it?â
âYeah...â
Her hand was still interlocked with his but did not make the effort to leave. She still wanted to spend time with him. Instead, she said, âSo, um, good luck tomorrow. I might not be there in person but Iâll be cheering for you.â
âThanks. That means a lot.â
âYou got this Asahi.â She gave him one last hug. âI know you do.â
The ace hugged her back one last time before he awkwardly pulled away. (Y/N) cleared her throat before smiling.
âKeep in touch?â She asked.
Asahi nodded. âOf course. Iâll call you before and after the match.â
âOkay⊠You know, Asahi, Iâm glad weâve met each other. Youâre not like any guy Iâve ever met.â
âThatâs a good thing, right?â
(Y/N) laughed but nodded. âYes. Iâm glad we've become friends. I would have hated for you to be someone I used to know.â
âMe too⊠So I guess, this is goodbye?â Asahi couldnât hide the sadness in his voice. His eyes landed where their hands were still connected.Â
âMmm, itâs more like see you later. Weâll see each other again.â
It was a silent promise under the endless night sky where the moon and stars were the only witnesses to see how enchanted Karasunoâs ace and Inarizakiâs manager were with each other.Â
~ Meanwhile inside Inarizakiâs hotel room~
âSay Aran-kun.â
âWhatâs up, Osamu?â
âI wasnât going to ask but (Y/N) brought it to my attention so Iâm curious. What did you tell Azumane when you shook hands?â
âOh that?â Inarizakiâs ace smiled to himself as he recalled that specific moment. âI just gave him friendly advice.â
âWhich was?â
âPlease donât hurt my friend.â
~
Next: Chapter 5
YALL HELP. I WANT TO FIND A SMALL READ TITLED "VOICE" I BELIEVE AND IT WAS A BAKUGOU KATSUKI ONE. I CANT FIND IT AGAIN AND MY PHONE RESTARTED BEFORE I CAN HEART IT. YALL HELP ME S.O.S THE READER ADORES HIM AND HE CANT STAND HOW MUCH SHE TALKS AND SHE HAS A SKETCH BOOK FULL OF SKETCHES OF HIM S.O.S
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Synopsis ! Jake had taken you as his own after Tsu'tey's passing, leaving no one to care for you. Things had been good before your relationship with him had blurred along growing of age. You and him fought all the time; argued each other's ear off and tonight was no different-- except words have been said, severing the already damaged bond. Content & warning Jake sully x Daughter!Reader, Sully kids x Sister!Reader Neytiri x Daughter!Reader. (wc; 3104)
Jake knew a saying; held onto it ever since he had resided amongst Naâviâ every person is born twice. While he believed that it meant that the second time is when you earn your place here in Pandora, Eywa had a clever way of broadening the idea. His very children were proof of it.
He thinks itâs the great motherâs way of compensation, perhaps a second chance for him to do betterâ to do his very best to keep them alive on behalf of those he lost.Â
While Kiri was a special case enough, you too were an odd one.Â
You are Tsuâtey's daughter. Turns out, he had someone in secret while he trained to become oloâeyktanâ when he was supposed to take Neytiri for himself. It was tabooâ absolutely wrong to become unfaithful to oneâs mate. But following the carnage of the great war, when Tsuâtey had so selflessly sacrificed his life, only then did Tsiâewa came forward; told everyone of their love and what could have been. She was a simple songstress along Ninat, but it was her round and bulging belly that caught everyoneâs attention.
It caused an uproar and understandably so. After all, Neytiri had only announced her rebellion with Jake not long before, but when the people connected the dots themselves and both stories had become one, they understood that their hearts merely yearned for another and no one should have ever dictated otherwise. Arrangements had been made and condolences were exchangedâ everyone can only look back and wish that things could have been different.
Jake was supposed to take you under his wing as a way of honoring himâ he owed Tsuâtey his life and perhaps an apology as big as so. But after your mother had unfortunately died during your birth, he knew to himself that he had to take you in; not as a responsibility, but as his own blood and flesh. His first daughter.
You were the loudest baby, he recalled. That day, Jake had rocked your body back and forth in his arms frantically, while Moâat and Neytiri did everything within their power to help TsĂŹ'ewa. Your cries were ear-splitting, enough to wake the whole clan up.Â
âJust what do I do with you,â He muttered under his breath, eyebrows knitted in frustrationâ just where do he hold you? Is he doing it right? Are you hurt? Why are you crying so loud?
âJake, the baby!â Neytiriâs shout from inside had cut his train of loud thoughts, snapping back to your bawling. He wasnât doing such a good job.Â
âIâm trying, Neytiriâ this thing wonât budge.â
Neytiri had emerged from the hut, stomping her way to Jake with a scowl. "That is not a thing, you skxawng!" she exclaimed before gently scooping you up from his arms, cooing softly to youâ though it was more like mocking him instead. âDoes Jake here make you cry?â She said, patting your thigh soothingly. âHeâs not at all pleasant to look at, but you have to get used to it.âÂ
Almost in an instant, your cries had died down. You babbled along with her, like you were agreeing with her every word. He slowly pulled himself closer to Neytiri, eyes wide with curiosity as he watched your small hands playing with her long braids. âHeh, she has Tsuâteyâs eyes,â He whispers, unable to look away.Â
The flap of the hut swinging open was the only thing that got their attention, momentarily away from yours as they looked at Moâat with anticipation. With a single shake of her head, sorrow surged their hearts, eyes traveling back to your innocent ones. They mourned for you; an unknowing child should never have to carry such grief. They had to make a choiceâ A responsibility they werenât expecting to have so early.Â
Jake mindlessly trails his finger down your stomach, gently, like you were the most fragile thing. Your little hand wraps around it and it was like you had binded his scattered thoughts into one big understanding.Â
Sully. Youâre one of them now.
Jake releases a breathless chuckle as he gazes upon his lover and you with a newfound clarity, a perspective so bright it illuminated in his very eyes. Then came an ideaâ the desire of having children of their own. Perhaps thatâs why Neteyam came after only two years. You were quite the ploy; the push they needed to start a family.
You were truly blessedâ the genius of your age was undeniable, your remarkable talent soon earning you the admiration of all who had seen it. By the time you turned six, you had already mastered many of the abilities that a hunter would needâ your skills with a bow were unrivaled by most of the children your age, let alone those who were much older than you. They'd marvel at your accuracy each time you took aim with an arrow. You could never miss. You had to make sure you didnât.Â
By the age of 12, you had already accompanied Jake in hunts. You had developed a knack for planning, coming up with routes and back-up plans that were often surprisingly effective. You have proved to be helpful plenty of times. You were quick, silentâ full of poise. They often wondered if you were an old, seasoned soul trapped inside a little girlâs body.Â
But as quickly as the spotlight had shone down on you, it left almost as soon as it had come.
(âWhat you did today was reckless, y/n.â Jake settles his bow on the table aggressively, emitting a sharp thud. You were just as frustrated, throwing your satchel down the floor of the hut.Â
The mission had gone rather wildly, with things not going along the plan. There was another airshipâ one that no one was aware of. Your instincts jolted your body, immediately throwing an explosive towards it which had it blowing all over the placeâ its pieces crashing and causing a wildfire.Â
Jake argued that there couldâve been a more safer way. One that didnât have to risk more of our resources and supplies; one that didnât have to injure the other warriors. Of course you knew to yourself that you did the right thing. You did what you had to do.Â
 âYou couldâve been hurt and got others killed! Just what were you thinking?â He continued to berate you. You jest that if this went on, thereâd be steam visible above his already heated head.Â
âI had to take a riskâ not everything goes to plan and this is proof of it.â You answered back with a scowl, âIf I hadn't, there wouldâve been more casualties.âÂ
âThatâs not a call for you to answer to! Jesus Christ,â Jake runs his palms down his face, grunting, before looking back at youâ expression suddenly tired and soft. âCome on kid, whereâs that sweetheart who always listened to what I said?âÂ
You had scoffed, a hurt forming on the pits of your stomach. âThat sweetheart once had a place in plans before.â You said, eyes unwilling to look at him. It weighed in your heart heavilyâ why did people assume that you were the only one who changed? You didnât understand. âPretty sure the Jake before was a good listener too.âÂ
The wrinkle in between his eyebrows deepened in confusion, but he never was one for confrontation. With a single dismissive grunt, he turns his back against you. âIâm way past your attitude. Youâre grounded. Go.â)
As you grew, the resemblance to your father became ever more apparent. Jake started noticing the many similarities between the two of you; the way you walkedâ how you sauntered confidently through a crowd. Your braids would move along your heavy steps (and perhaps, thatâs where Neteyam got his mannerism of swaying his too.), shoulders wide and proud. You even had his signature snarl, something Tsuâtey was known for that unfortunately seemed to have been passed down to you too.Â
However, it was more than how you brought yourself. You were strong-willedâ stubborn.Â
There was another thing about you too. You didnât call Jake dad anymore. It hurt himâ left a heavy feeling on his chest every time you regarded him so distant. It was unfair that you still called Neytiri mom, why did it have to change with him? He didnât have the heart to address it. Couldnât ask you what went wrong.Â
Because he knows damn well why.Â
Loâak was enough of a headache, but you were a different kind of royal pain in the ass, more like a personal problem. It was tiresome. Petty. There was not a day that you and Jake wouldnât argue and bite each otherâs ass offâ and yet, there was never a day where you two would talk it out. The fights would blur itselves out and before they knew it, things would be back to normal, only for it to fall out again over something small. It was routine. The only thing normal for you both.Â
He missed youâ missed his baby. Just when did you grow to become so distant? When did he start to overlook you?
Youâll admit, you might have indulged in the folkâs gossip. They always had a story for everything and they have plenty about your father. Tsuâtey was a fit oloâeyktan. He had proved so in his training and determination. Of course it was a low punch in the gut when the throne had been passed to an outsiderâ a demon, most of all. It was unfair, he knew it wasnât right. A washed up marine had taken something he had worked for like it was nothing. Like he was nothing.Â
You pitied your father and you feared youâd be like himâ like nothing.Â
And history might just repeat itself. You werenât cluelessâ wasnât blind to the fact that Jake had trained your brother more. He adored him so much that the very moment he was in the right age to train, you were off to fend for yourself; trained all alone while Jake went over the routine with Neteyam like he did with you. You remembered waiting for him every afternoon because he promised that heâd make timeâ that time was yours and yours only. But as the light bled and neared eclipse and you were too cold to wait outside, you learned never to wait again.Â
They would come home soon afterâ smiles on their faces and a handful of apologies for you.Â
Soon enough, your suspicions proved you right as the people started to talk again; Neteyamâ the golden child. He would make a good oloâeyktan.Â
Perhaps that would explain the drift between you and Neteyam too. Could they blame you for it? You had lost their attention so earlyâ while you still needed them. You werenât their kid and you were reminded of it everyday. In times when you didnât know if you had space in the family hammock while they sat together, telling stories under the starry sky. You pretended to have fallen asleep everytime; back against them as you listened. In times where the family was growing and growing, until the small table wasnât big enough for everyone anymoreâ or in this case, for you.Â
(âCome on, maâite, what are you doing so far from here?â Neytiri had called for you when she noticed how distant you were from everyone. You silently scooted beside her, wooden bowl in your lap. âLook, I prepared your favorite.âÂ
It wasnât. You hated it. You hated the tangy taste of it so badly. But you had decided to eat what was left on the table after everyone had gotten their meals and there wasnât usually enough for you. Neytiri thought nothing of thatâ didnât think that you eating only scraps and dried fruit was because there wasnât anything else for you to have. She simply thought that it was your favorite and had been making it for you ever since.
You didnât have the heart to tell her. Not when she thought she had been doing well with preparing it. You kissed your teeth, smiling tightly as you lifted the food to your lips, eating silently. âThank you, itâs good.â You muttered under your breath after.)Â
But you were family; they said so themselves. When they tucked you in to sleep, when they patted your head. They were still present now, just not in the way you wantedâ not in the way you longed for. It seemed like making them angry was the only way you could have their attentionâ particularly, your dad. You could never make Neytiri mad. She tries to understand you, she does. Explaining now just seems so.. Petty. So childish, you decided to push her away instead.Â
What do you tell her? That you only let dad blow a fuse or two was because you missed him? Because you didnât know what went wrong?Â
So there goes your routine.Â
âI just donât understand why I canât be oloâeykte.â You had brought up again, lips in a familiar snarl. âYou tire me and for what? Kiri is already training to be Tsahikâ just what would my place in this clan be?âÂ
âWe are not having this conversation again, y/n. Not tonight.â
Jake had just returned from a particularly bad hunt; went home empty-handed and with a patience as thin as a strand of hair. He continued to sharpen his dagger, movements almost aggressive. Everyone immediately went out of his way, not wanting to be on the end of his temperâ not you though. You could never get a hint, it seems.
âYes, tonight! My ceremony is almost near, sir. I have been waiting.â
It wasnât like he had a reason anyway. Jake couldnât tell you because he had no reason as to why. Why couldnât you be oloâeykte? You had all the skills to be one, even more so. But in the back of his mind, a thought so deep and petty that he couldnât bear to say, tells him that the name he carried was something to gift his eldest son. Oloâeyktan was a privilege reserved for Neteyam. He never thought to have you so earlyâ he always dreamed of having a son first.Â
âWait more.âÂ
âThis is insaneâ saânok!â You had turned to Neytiri, eyes pleading. She quickly grasps your arm and tries to tug you back towards the exit, speaking in a soft but firm voice as she tries to soothe the tension.
âMaâite, why donât we go out for a walk?â She whispers. To be frank, she was tired of thisâ never of you, no. But at the way things had been. Parents arenât parents automatically just because they have had children of their own. Itâs a skill they have yet to musterâ to truly understand. She didnât know where the line between you and her had blurry along the years. Didnât know where this constant need of yours to be seen came from.Â
You jerked your arm away from her, almost too harshly. It tugged on her heartstrings, not knowing what was going on with you. âI cannot wait anymore.â You said, taking two steps towards Jake with an unreadable angerâ an anger he didnât know when had stemmed from.Â
âIs it because Iâm not your daughter?âÂ
His eyes widened. A flash of vulnerability visible in his gaze, momentarily softening his glare. âYou stop this right now, y/n.â He had stood up, tucking the dagger back to his loincloth. Jakeâs larger frame towered over you, telling you to drop itâ to leave the conversation. But you werenât backing down.Â
âI am your eldestâ! You trained me earlier than Neteyam, I have been here long enoughââ
âYou arenât ready!â He had shouted with the same fierceness, earning a dirty look from Neytiri.
âWhy wonât you see me?â Your voice had softened, borderline beggingâ just a bit, but enough for his ears to flatten in response. He knew that beneath those few simple words lay many layers of underlying meaning; emotions that have yet to be spoken.Â
But he turns his back against you dismissively anyway. âNeytiri, get her out of here.âÂ
Neytiri grabs you by the arms again, although a bit forceful now, but just enough for her to touch youâ to have you in between her arms. She embraced you, like she was trying to keep the words from escalating. She feared one of you would say something out of line; something you both would regret.Â
But on the brink of the tensionâ the severity of the situation, you had muttered. Your voice was muffled, but it was clear. The message was oh so crystal. âYou took everything from my father.âÂ
Jake grunts, âYeah? Well maybe your father wasnât enough either.âÂ
âJake!â Neytiri hisses and although Jake couldnât see her, he knew very well he was getting quite the conversation with his mate too.Â
It was a low blow. Unnecessary. A straight strike to the gut. It was a pain so bitter, you didnât want it to linger any longerâ you were nauseous. You wanted no more than to vomit everything that spiraled out of your stomach.Â
âYou want to lead so badly and you canât even control your temper. No clan wants a hot-head for a leader.â But he kept goingâ relentless and cruel. âYou ought to be someone elseâs shadow.âÂ
âBut Iâm your daughter,â Your tone had softened, almost cracking as the lump in your throat grew. Tears blurred your vision, threatening to escape as Neytiri held you close.Â
âAnd yet you never listen to meâ because Iâm not exactly your father, yeah?â With one last glance, he stepped out, passing his children who stayed just outside the door, listening. Jake opens his mouth, desperate to ease the tensionâ the discomfort written in their faces, but he quickly shuts it and continues to walks out. He had said enough for tonight. There was nothing saving his face from this. It was best if he left instead.Â
âOh, maâite.â Neytiri rocks her body along yours, drawing soothing circles on your back but the embarrassment settles in your chestâ gnawing at your body. You catch a glance of the pitiful looks from your siblings as they try to enter the hut silently.Â
How could you make a mess out of yourself in front of them? Why had you let this blown over?
You retracted slowly from your motherâs hold, wiping your tears before running the opposite way from where Jake had gone to. It was better if you left instead.
mauve here! finally done writing this after racking my head for weeks. wanted it to be relatable (??) as much as possible, idk why. there is just something therapeutic w writing about your past issues <3 but i hope this one's alright!!! really excited to finally post this heheh
lots of kisses!
Ooo I love this, I can't wait to see where it goes
illicit love
synopsis: what are the odds of someone confusing you for a world famous scientist, kidnapping you, and sending you to another planet at age 18? apparently itâs very high odds because thatâs exactly how you found yourself on pandora.Â
pairings: loâak x femhuman!reader
warnings: mentions of death, mentions of child abandonment, swearing, kidnapping (accidental)
word count: 4,000
a/n: this is gonna be a series... this is only the prologue, please bare with me. ik lo'ak isnt in this part like at all but he will be in the next part i alr writing it.
theodora willisin was grace's apprentice before grace got a location change to pandora. though theodora was sad, grace promised to send back as much intel as possible to keep up with her studies and eventually join grace in exploring pandora one day.Â
it took theodora 10 years, but by 26, she was on a cryo ship, being sent off to pandora. she didn't have any rda affiliation. she was just a young 16-year-old girl who had admired grace's studies. one day she decided to take all her savings in hopes that she could walk into grace's office and beg on her knees, explaining how she left her whole life behind to become grace's apprentice. grace, of course, loved the enthusiasm and accepted her immediately.Â
during her time on earth, theodora became a very well-known scientist. she was famous for her studies on the na'vi. she was so well-informed for someone who lived on earth. of course, her studies were only fueled by grace's information. this wasn't a secret, but the girl made groundbreaking discoveries regarding language, fluency, and pronunciation. and don't get me started on her wildlife studies. she and grace could talk about trees when they studied together on earth, and she couldn't wait until she got to pandora to discuss everything new she had learned with grace.
but there was one thing that theodora hated that she had to leave behind. her two-month-old baby. nobody knew she was pregnant except her mother. bless be to eywa that her mom was an obstetrician (a baby-delivering doctor). she hid her pregnancy from the world, and thank god she had a good workout routine and breastfed a lot because that helped her shed all her pregnancy weight just in time for her to be shipped out to pandora. theodora dressed herself in disguise and dropped her baby off in the early morning hours on the steps of her neighborhood firehouse. by the time she got home from abandoning her baby, she had to shower and get ready, so she would get on the ship by her assigned boarding time.Â
as horrible as theodora felt about this, she tried to look on the bright side. going to pandora to pursue her studies was her dream. she has an avatar growing on pandora, ready for her upon her arrival. she was finally living her dream, and nothing could ruin it.
except something could. the trip to pandora and getting settled had been a success. theodora was living her best life researching, studying, and living on the planet she had spent her entire life studying. unfortunately, when she got here, she was given the heartbreaking news that her boss had been killed in a war that broke out. she was the last and only person to get on that previous cryo capsule. the natives saw the ship in the night and set out to destroy the sky people who dared to land here right after they had sent everyone back.Â
when they got to the ship, it was empty, but there were traces of human life trailing in the direction of the lab. jake decided to investigate the situation himself. when he arrived, he was met with max and norm, which had a new person with them, and they quickly explained. they said that theodora was merely a scientist who studied under grace when she worked on earth. she had no weapon training, but she dedicated her life to studying the planet, the people, and the culture. theodora posed no threat to the na'vi. she wanted to join their everyday life and help, maybe even become one of the people.Â
of course, that was wishful thinking because neytiri was very hard on the young scientist. giving the human attitude and throwing threats around as if they were compliments. the young scientist knew this was nothing personal as the na'vi had just gone through a war with sky people, so she never took anything to heart. hadn't gotten to use her avatar yet as she was still gaining the trust of the clan's people. she decided to occupy her time, so she went on walks in the forest to study the trees.Â
unfortunately, one day she got way too close to a baby thanator that was asleep on its own by a stream. the mother, hunting nearby, caught a whiff of the unusual scent near her cub. one thing led to another, and there was one less human on pandora. but as theodora's life flashed before her eyes, she couldn't find it in herself to care because she could only think about her daughter. the one who she abandoned and didn't even give a chance at a happy childhood. she remembered the letter she had written and left with her baby. she wished she had written more. she wished she had written about how she was ticklish and an adorable baby. she wished she had written about how she was easy to care for. she wished she had written about how she never cried. she can wish and wish and wish all she wants, but it kills her on the inside that the only thing she had written was
'her name is y/n.'
jake was upset because he knew max liked having someone back at the lab again, given that norm was usually out studying in his avatar form. he could do nothing; it's not like a native killed her. her death was an accident. neytiri said it was eywa, getting rid of the skydemon from their home. max couldn't bring himself to get rid of her avatar, so he left it in the corner of the lab, knowing nobody would ever be able to use it. it was a memory of her.Â
you were walking out of the mall, having just gone shopping for the party you were invited to this weekend. it was the talk of the campus, the biggest frat was having a huge party, and it was invite-only. if you got invited, you were on another fucking level. did you really know what that meant? no. did that matter, though? absolutely fucking not. you were just ready to get blackout drunk with your friends after the stressful week of finals everyone just had. and you and your friends were the only freshmen to be invited, so you had to go!
you were at a crosswalk waiting for the light to change when you considered taking a different way back to campus. you figured it wouldn't do any harm, and honestly, the change in scenery was lovely. you got to walk through the park and see the wildlife. you even got approached by a few stray kittens weaving in between your feet. you laughed as their fur tickled your ankles, but your attention was stolen by a man in what looked like jungle exploration gear??
"theodora? theodora!! oh my god! i thought they sent you to pandora years ago," he said as he shook your shoulders.Â
"um? i'm sorry, who are you?" you asked the man, currently regretting your decision to walk back to campus a different way.Â
"oh, that's not important right now. there's an empty cryo capsule because someone bailed at the last minute. i thought you were on pandora already!! come on, the scientists will be stoked that i found you here and brought you with me!!" he said as he dragged you into this weird-looking corporate building. Â
the weird jungle dude passed you to other scientists dressed in white scrub suits. you don't know what is going on; you just want out! you cannot miss this party this weekend. your entire reputation counted on it.Â
"ms. willisin i'm gonna give you a rundown on everything that is going on. this is the first ship that were sending to pandora in the past 18 years so things may be a bit hectic. you are going to go into a cryo capsule that yu will be held in until you reach your destination you know everything else any questions? no? good? get in the capsule," the scientist said as he started to push you into the capsule, but you resisted.Â
"i don't know who you think i am but my name isn't willisinâ"Â
"you're right. your name is theodora. now get in the damn capsule. i don't get paid enough for this," he said as he fought against you to get you in the capsule. unfortunately for you, the man was stronger than you, so he managed to get you in the capsule and slammed the door shut before you could even register everything happening.Â
"let me out!! my name isn't theodora. you have the wrong mother fucker!!! it's cold in here. get me out of this box!!" your screams were useless as the cryo capsules were soundproof so that the rocket's takeoff wouldn't affect the passengers. you felt weaker and weaker as the cold consumed you until you started to fall asleep. the rumble of the ship only aided in putting you to sleep, but the last thing you saw before you closed your eyes, looking out the window in your capsule, you saw the planet you live on. earth.Â
why can i see earth right now?!?!
that was the last thought to pass through your head before you fell into a deep sleep.
you feel weird when you wake up again, almost like you're floating. bright lights block your vision as you feel hands frantically moving your body to get you out of your capsule. you were barely awake as you walked, basically dragged, around this weird science lab. "sit here and don't move. the head scientist will tell you what to do next." the woman said before she walked away. by the time she turned the corner, you were at least cognizant enough to know what was happening. your memory from before you fell asleep started flooding your mind again asÂ
these people kidnapped me. am i even still in our solar system?? where the fuck am i?
so many thoughts drowned your mind, but one thing was clear to you.Â
you gotta get out of here, but you knew you had to be smart about this.Â
"theodora! hello, it is wonderful to meet you. wow, you look great for 44 years old. is that how scientists dress on earth now?" the man who seemed to be the head scientist approached you, hand extended in a greeting. you firmly shook it, playing your role and faking a laugh at his joke.
if i act like this theodora person. they'll pay less attention to me, and i can find an opening to leave. but i know nothing about her!Â
you were stumped, that is, until the man next to you started listing off every accomplishment and groundbreaking discovery 'you' had made. that's your ticket, though. he mentioned that this theodora person was obsessed with trees and made some huge discoveries regarding them, so why not play that card?
you smiled brightly at the scientist before you and cut off his praise.Â
"excuse me, dr�" you said, trying to get his name.
"naylor. dr. naylor"
"dr. naylor, i would absolutely love to sit here and chat with you about⊠me, but i am just dying to see the trees in person, so if you would excuse me." you said as you slowly started to walk towards a door in the room that looked like an exit.
"that's fine, dr. willisin, don't forget your mask!" dr. naylor said, pointing at a mask that was hanging on the wall. you simply nodded and placed the mask on your face as you attached the bulky pack thing to your hip.
as soon as you were outside, you walked toward the forest line, casually waving at scientists who gave you weird looks, probably due to your attire. still, you could care less because you weren't even supposed to be here.Â
as you got a few feet into the trees, you looked back to make sure you were completely out of sight before you started running as fast as you could. god bless that you were athletic, having earned a track scholarship at usc and being the most scouted track star in america. you had some legs on you, so you weren't planning on stopping soon. that is until you stop because an arrow gets shot into the tree right before you. you looked around to see where it came from, noticing a blue figure hiding in the shadows. you didn't even think twice about running. if your love for horror movies taught you anything, it was that you do not stop when you hear a noise in the distance. you run faster than your ass can carry you and pray to any god out there that whatever the hell is trying to kill you would kindly stop.
you didn't know how long you had been running and dodging arrows until one of them struck you in your left arm. it, thankfully, had been a smaller arrow. at least in comparison to the others you had seen as you had been running. it went through your arm cleanly, and even though it hurt like a bitch, the adrenaline you were feeling right now made it feel more like someone pinched you really hard rather than being shot in the arm.
running for just a few minutes more, you moved the branches and leaves out of your way until you came up to what looked like an empty, abandoned lab. it looked the same as the one you had left earlier, so you assumed it was a lab.Â
you busted your ass, sprinting to the door as arrows were shot by you, one skimming your calf and another grazing your cheek. quickly, you clutched the door's handle, swung it open, and slammed it shut behind you. the arrows had ceased. whoever was trying to kill you gave up. you finally give yourself a minute to catch your breath, and as your adrenaline dies down, you start to feel every scratch and cut on your body. not to mention the arrow that was stuck in your arm.Â
you can't believe this is happening right now. first, you're kidnapped from your home planet, then you're trying to escape an arrow attack, and now you're standing in this lab making eye contact with two men, one who looked like yet another scientist and another who was wearing similar exploration gear as the guy you saw before you were so horribly kidnapped.Â
"are you fucking kidding me?! i ran all that way just to end up in another fucking lab?"
the two men standing before you were in shock. not only was there a human girl standing in front of them, but she looked an awful lot like theodora. the two men's attention was caught when they heard you groaning in pain.Â
"who are you?" the explorer guy asked you, still in his shocked state of mind.Â
"what do you mean who am i just ran from here. and tell your trigger happy friends out there to knock it off with the arrows this shit hurts!!" you said as you sat on the steps in front of the door. you applied pressure on your leg injury so you could at least slow the bleeding.Â
"we haven't had visitors in over 18 years. i'm gonna ask you again who you are." this time it was the scientists who spoke up.Â
god, you were starting to hate these scientists, explorers, and everything else on this planet.
what planet even is this? it didn't even matter to you. you just wanted to be home.Â
"that doesn't matter. what day is it? i have a frat party this weekend and these crazy fuckers kidnapped me and put me on a ship that was leaving earth!" you said, annoyed that they weren't answering your question?
"well, first, why don't we introduce ourselves, yeah?" the explorer spoke again. your eyes moved to him, and if looks could kill, boy, would he be dead. "my name is norm, i'm an anthropologist, and i focus most of my studies on nature and the natives of this planet."
the other man spoke up next. "um, my name is max. i am a civilian scientist on this planet. i'm in charge of the linking between humans and their avatars?"Â
"humans, avatars, anthropology. what the hell is this shit? just tell me where i am and what fucking day it is." norm and max hadn't had to deal with the wrath of an angry woman in a while, so they were just about as terrified as when they had first met natives.
"you're on pandora. it's 2193. what year was it when you left?" max said after swallowing his fear.
"its been six fucking years??!?! i was 18 years old when i fucking left!!!"
"well⊠happy birthday?" norm tried to lighten the mood, but something in your head clicked; you had never heard of a planet called pandora.Â
"am i even still in earth's solar system?"Â
"no, you're 4.37 light-years away. look, we don't know how you got here. we havent had any outside contact with earth in ages so whatever scientists you came from are not associated with us."
"bullshit, there's shit everywhere in here that says rda on it and that was the name of the people who took me. i saw it all over their techy nerd stuff. you're lying so you can get me to go back there. you guys robbed me of six years of my life." you didn't know how to feel. you couldn't feel your body anymore. everything was just so overwhelming.Â
"six years is how long it takes to get to pandora. they didn't explain that to you when you boarded the ship?" norm question, to you, was stupid because you had just answered that.
"do your ears not fucking work? i didn't get on the ship, i was dragged onto it against my will. these idiots kidnapped me because they mistook me for some woman named theodora willisin, and i don't even know who that woman is." you sighed. you were starting to feel tired again, tears filling your eyes. you didn't know where you were or who these people were; you were just tired, and the injuries you sustained weren't helping you keep your eyes open.Â
your voice was quiet as you spoke again. it was almost inaudible compared to your voice's earlier volume. "please, i'm not even supposed to be here; i just need help. i wanna go home, and this arrow is hurting my arm, and i'm tired andâ" you couldn't even finish your sentence before you passed out.Â
although they didn't know you, norm and max were quick to come to your aid. it had been several years since they heard that name. they don't know who you were or where you came from, but they couldn't lie and say that they didn't understand why these scientists had mistaken you for theodora. your resemblance was uncanny. norm quickly moved your form from the steps you passed out on. he placed you onto an empty lab table that they had while he snapped max out of his trance, telling him to grab their medical kit.Â
the two men patched up your wounds and moved you into the room that theodora used to live in when she lived with them. they closed the door and allowed you to rest.Â
max told norm immediately to link with his avatar so he could inform jake about the young girl they found. max wanted to make the natives nearby aware that the girl wasn't even meant to be there.Â
norm quickly made it to jake's home, finding the olo'eyktan spending time with his youngest daughter. jake could read the worried look on norm's face and quickly approached the man so he could know what was wrong.Â
"what is it?" jake got to the point.Â
"there's a human girl in our lab who passed out from arrow injuries." norm said.
"only arrow injuries? did they not kill the skydemon?" neytiri asked when she heard that there was a sky person on their planet again. that could only mean one thing, though. they were all back.
"what do you mean there's a human girl in your lab? kill her you know the rules around here norm there's no acceptions for any skywalkers."
"that's the thing. she's not a skywalker, she's not a sky demon. she's an 18 year old, well now she's 24, but she was a college student who was kidnapped. they mistook her for theodora and she lost six years in cryo. i don't know how she was able to dodge the arrows from your scouts but jake i can't kill that girl. she's harmless. she didn't even know that pandora existed until she woke up from cryo. she's terrified." norm explained to his friend. hoping jake could find it in him to let norm and max just take care of the girl.
"normâ" jake started, but norm cut him off
"look, we can't send her back, it's impossible, just let us raise her. she won't come near the people. she won't cause any issues. it'll be as if she's not here. i had to come tell you because she was almost killed trying to escape the people who kidnapped her."
"her mask has a tracker in it. she will lead them to your lab." neytiri voiced. over time she had grown fond of norm and max, them being the only skypeople trusted. she didn't want this skydemon to harm those she cares for, especially after norm said they mistook her for that scientist who died all those years ago.
neytiri hated theodora. the woman was clumsy, always walking around making trouble for herself that others would have to save her from, and now there's another one. another cursed skydemon is here to destroy her home. she would not stand for it. neytiri stood from her place next to tuk and walked over to her bow and arrows. jake looked over to his mate, seeing how she was walking out of their home with her weapon. "woah, hey, neytiri. hold on a second, just wait." jake said to his wife.Â
"no. i shall go kill that girl like i meant to do with the last one," she said, but norm spoke before she could leave.Â
"her mask doesn't have a tracker! we checked it after she passed out and even broke it and i threw it far away somewhere just for good measure but from the looks of it they gave her one without a tracker because they thought she was that famous scientist."
âsee, ma neytiri, mawey. it is okay. they said they would keep her there. there's no need to interfere if she isn't a threat. she doesn't want to be here just as much as you don't want her here yawne." jake said, soothing his mate's tense shoulders, feeling her release her breath, giving in to his comfort.Â
 "she wont bother you guys. we'll make sure she has boundaries and never crosses onto native territories. we'll even give her one of our tracker masks so we can keep an eye on her. just please don't kill her. for some reason she means a lot to max. i think he's seeing something that i'm not. that's not important, just please if she wanders off i will be the one to go get her. just don't kill her. please." norm was begging at this point. to neytiri, it was weird, but she assumed it was because he really meant what he was saying. jake was already convinced, so once neytiri put her bow and arrows down, the tension in the room dissolved. everyone could finally release the breath they had been holding.Â
"thank you." norm said before he made his way to his ikran, flying back to the lab.
I really need to stop starting new fics to read right before I go into work. I'll sit there my whole shift wondering what's going on and will not focus at all đ especially if I left off somewhere đ« đ„°đđ€Șđ
Soft as Clouds
Neteyam x F!Reader
Summary: You weren't well known in the clan, and when you become friends with Tuk, no one believes her.
Warning: Straight up Flufff
When you were growing up, you found yourself wanting to linger in the background more than insert yourself into the everyday activities of those your age. Like now, you were currently lounging in a tree, eyes facing up at the clouds as they moved by at their own pace.
You were a gatherer for the clan, not that anyone knew. You would rise before the sun to go out and gather the sweetest, most bountiful food your clan had ever tasted, leaving it in the baskets by the main fire circle. The fruits were always plump and juicy, herbs and spices nicely placed in pouches for easy access.
You wanted to begin early to end early, opting to stay out of sight of others. Now, some knew of you, the elders for example always took a small notice on how you were much more reserved than others your age. Your parents of course knew you, but you were a failure of a child in their eyes. At your age you should've been chosen for a mate, or made a mark on the clan in some positive way, but you didn't, so they turned their attention to your more 'promising' younger siblings.
You never cared, preferring your more modest lifestyle of peaceful serenity.
"Whoa! What are you doing up there?"
But Great Mother had other plans for you.
You gazed over the side of the branch you were currently laying on, brushing your hair that had fallen into your eyes away, spotting a young girl in the forest floor below you.
This was not just any girl, oh no, this was Tuktirey, Toruk Maktos youngest child.
You let a small smile slip on your face as you slowly began a decent, swift and agile, like that of a cat.
You knelt infront of her, your eyes meeting hers that were still so full of child like wonder, "what are you doing here small one?" Tuk giggled, looking side to side as if looking for something, or someone.
"I was following my brothers, but I guess I got lost," Extending a hand to Tuk, "Well, let us get you home then," her small fingers wrapped around yours and you both began your walk, going back down the path you had made from the times you ventured out here.
Tuk couldn't help but wonder why she had never seen you before, yet she thought you were very beautiful. The aura that surrounded you was so soft and peaceful, it made her feel instantly safe.
"Why do you come out here, it's very far from home? Are you a hunter or a gatherer? Your hair is very pretty, can you do mine like that? Wait! What's your name?" Tuk rambled out, skipping beside you. A chuckle escaped your lips, you liked Tuk, she was very silly.
You stopped and knelt down beside her, her yellow eyes stared into your soft green eyes and she couldn't help but think you held the forest in your eyes, "My name is (Y/n), I much prefer to gather, and I think your hair is fine just the way it is, simply because it's yours,"
You couldn't help but boop her nose, her nose scrunched as she let out a laugh. You smiled, "now, what is your name?" Tuk felt like you already knew, but she puffed out her chest proud, "My name is Tuktirey, but you can call me Tuk!"
"Such a pretty name," you gasped, standing up and resuming your walk to the village. Tuk swung your intertwined hands back and forth, both of you finding comfort in eachother.
When you had finally happened upon the village, you could hear everyone in a state of panic. Tuk groaned, her ears pinned back, "I think they realized I was gone," you knelt beside her, both of you hidden just out of sight with the plants, "then maybe you should appear,"
Tuk hugged you, you wrapped your arms around her to return the embrace. "Will I see you again?" She asked, pulling away enough to see your face.
"Of course, I quite like you," you smiled, slowly giving her a nudge to the panicked clan members.
When Tuk had emerged out of the brush, the panicked cries turned into one's of relief and joy. Many ran over to embrace her, but by this point you had already vanished without a trace.
"Tuk! Where were you, we were worried sick!" Jake exclaimed, sweeping his youngest into his arms and giving her a extra tight hug. "I tried to follow Neteyam and Lo'ak but I got lost, but it's okay!" Tuk laughed, "I found (Y/n) and she helped me get home!"
Jake and Neytiri exchanged a look, as did some of the other clan members. Your name was no familiar, almost positive there was no one in the village who has that name.
"Tuk, what are you talking about?" Neytiri wondered, taking her child from her mate and settling her on the ground in front of her, "There is no one named (Y/n) in the village," Neytiri began to examine Tuk for a head injury, but Tuk pulled her head away in annoyance, "I know what happened, (Y/n) helped me, she's right,"
But when Tuk turned around to where you had been, you were gone, "she was right here," Tuk cried, but her parents chalked it up to fatigue from being lost all day.
"Come, you must eat and rest," Neytiri pulled Tuk along by the hand, which Tuk did almost sulkly, glancing back one more time to see you emerge and give her a wink before disappearing behind everyone's backs. Tuk grinned, now happily walking with her Mom.
~.~
Weeks had passed and Tuk now snuck off any chance she had to find you, sometimes waking up early to join you on your gathering. You were like another big sister to her, you were so soft and gentle with her, it almost reminded her of her own mother. You would show her the best places to gather fruit and herbs, show her how to move silently through the forest so not to disturb it.
In return, Tuk gave you simple companionship. You always thought it was fun being alone, but Tuk gave you a shining light of what having someone around could be like.
When Tuk would return from wherever you two had disappeared to, she would tell her family all about it, now causing Jake and Neytiri to worry that she was making up stories to make herself feel important like her siblings.
"Ma Jake, I'm beginning to worry about Tuk," Neytiri spoke one day when she watched her youngest venture off into the brush before she could stop her, "it is not safe out there but yet she continues to go, we must stop her," Jake could only hum in agreement.
"What's the name of the person she speaks of? (Y/n)? Are we sure she's not a person in the clan?" Jake questioned, Neytiri feeling her shoulders sag in exhaustion cause she had asked any gatherer, hunter or healer she could think of and no one knew about you.
"Maybe we should send Neteyam with her one day? Make sure she's really safe? See what he can find out?" Neytiri fired off question after question, Jake taking her hands into his as he calmed her down, "That's sounds like a great idea, if there's anyone who can find out it's him, come, let's find him,"
They both set off to find their eldest, who they were sure was going to throw a fit hearing about their plan.
~.~
Tuk panted, running up to a clearing where she saw you relaxing by a small pond, toes and feet floating in the clear water. "I'm here! What are we going to do today?" Tuk skipped over, taking a seat next to you as your turned your gaze to her, a smile coating your face.
"What would you like to do?" You asked, Tuks face scrunched up in thought before asking you, "Could we go for a swim next to the waterfall?" You thought about it, before nodding. It was very close to the village, but you were looking forward to spending time with Tuk.
"Awesome!" She cheered, pulling you up off the ground and began the walk, with you giggling behind her.
The water had been very liberating of any stress or thoughts that plagued you. You sighed in bliss, leaning back to float in the water as your eyes gazed up at the clouds, the soft white making you forget everything.
Tuk had jumped in, splashing you and causing a laugh to erupt from your stomach as you flipped over, watching the young girl giggle and continue to splash you with water.
You began a water assault back, both of you not even paying attention to how loud you were being which caught the attention of Neteyam nearby who had been searching for Tuk under the instructions of their parents.
"Tuk!" He called, walking into the rocky terrain that held the waterfall where he saw Tuk soaked and wading waist deep in the water, her breath heavy as though she ran for miles, yet a smile plastered her lips.
You were no where to be seen, ducking under the water to find a rock that had caught your eye.
"Tuk, it's time to come home, let's go," he helped her out of the water, not noticing you surface up to your shoulders in the shade of a tree that grew on the nearby bank.
Your hair had rested on your face a little and your shoulders, the shade making your eyes almost glow as you analyzed Neteyam. He was your age, currently training to be the next clan leader and yet here he was, fetching his sister.
Tuk through a glance over her shoulder to see you in the shade, throwing up a quick wave goodbye and taking off in front of her brother.
Neteyam had caught her look and couldn't help but turn back, catching a quick sight of you.
A beautiful, young woman who was lounging in the water covered by shade. Your eyes are what caught his attention the most, but just as quick as he'd seen you, the next second he blinked in shock before opening them to find you gone, the water only rippling from where he saw you, well, where he thought he saw you.
Neteyam was now becoming a quick believer of Tuk's stories.
~.~
Now that Neteyam had caught a glimpse of you, he started to see you everywhere. Although, it was out of the corner of his eyes, because when he would turn to see you, your figure was gone, the place he had seen you now empty or void of anyone or anything.
He had told his parents that he didn't see anyone with Tuk, but that was only because he feared how crazy he would sound. Seeing someone who wasn't entirely there and then them being gone the next second. They'd send him straight to the Sky People for evaluation.
Neteyam had followed Tuk out of the hut one late afternoon, Tuk turning to him confused since he has never followed her before, "What are you doing?" Neteyam just smiled, playing an act to follow his parents instructions, "Well, I've missed hanging out with my favorite littlest sister," he roughed up Tuks hair, causing her to hiss and push his hand away, "so I figured we could spend the rest of the day together,"
Tuk glanced sideways towards the path, a bit unsure about how you'd reac to Neteyam coming along, "I don't know, you probably wouldn't be up for it," Neteyam raised an eyebrow, his thoughts consumed on what a child would be doing that he himself couldn't or wouldn't wanna do, especially so late in the afternoon.
"Well, if you're sure," Tuk grinned, taking off down the path faster than Neteyam had expected, "Tuk! Wait for me!"
~.~
You had been lounging in a tree again, this time basking in the setting sun's glow. You felt so warm, the lights rays bringing a sense of belonging to your being.
"(Y/n)!" Tuk exclaimed, running into sight as you glanced down at her, your lips showing your usual soft smile that you saved for her.
"Neteyam is following me, come on let's hurry!" Tuk tried to rush you, but you only laughed, "Why are we hiding from your brother?" Tuk felt her cheeks puff up in annoyance, "Come on (Y/n)! I don't want him to find you!" It wasn't often Tuk would throw a childish fit with you, so you knew this must be important to her.
You quickly climbed down, taking her hand and pulling her out of sight just in time for Neteyam to come around the corner. He stopped and took a quick look around, running a hand through his braids aggravated. "Come on Tuk! Mom and Dad don't want you out here by yourself,"
Neteyam continued on through, running right past where you two hid in a flower bush before emerging a minute after he disappeared.
Tuk laughed but quickly stopped when she saw your disappointed face, "I'm sorry," she mumbled, kicking the dirt with her ears pinned down.
"Let's walk and talk," you took her by the shoulder softly, "Is there a reason you keep running away from your family? I understand you want to be friends, but surely I'm not worth worrying your family over?"
You led her down a path as Eclipse began to set in, the forest coming to life with lights and sounds. "Well, I thought you might want to be kept alone, like how you were before we became friends," Tuk answered, but you knew better, "but?" You pushed, Tuk groaning before replying.
"Well, Neteyam has his hunting parties and future clan leader responsibilities, Kiri has healing and grandma, Lo'ak and Spuder go on treks through the forest, I just wanted something that was mine for a while," while a bit childish, you could see what she meant. It was nice to have something all your own, even if it wasn't necessarily yours to keep or own.
Tuk kept her eyes trained on the ground in front of her, hands rubbing together embarrassed. Tuk thought that you would be upset with her, but she was shocked when she felt your hand rub soothing circles on her back as you continued to walk together.
"Do not feel bad, sometimes we wish for things that cannot always be, but if it makes you feel better, you will always be my first and best friend," Tuk felt giddy knowing that you felt the same as she did. You truly were a big sister to her.
"I think it's time we returned for the night," you told her, Tuk nodded, feeling a little tired. "Come," you picked her up, her arms wrapped around your neck and head rested on her shoulder.
You smelled of flowers and mist, a calming scent that soon had Tuk drift off to sleep. Which means she couldn't return to her parents on her own, meaning you had to face the leaders of the clan.
Entering the village, you took notice that many had already gone to dinner, leaving a clear path straight to the leaders tent, where you could hear inside Jake Sully, the Olo'eyktan and Neytri, his mate and Tuks mother frantically asking Neteyam where Tuk was.
You held Tuk up with one arm, softly clearing your throat to make your presence known as you lift the drape, all three coming to a freeze as they saw you, a stranger, with Tuk fast asleep in your arms.
You dipped your head in greeting, eyes over looking the two males and straight to the female who quickly walked to you with fear and concern for her baby. "She is alright, just sleeping," you whispered, not wanting to wake up Tuk as Neytiri gently slipped her from you.
Neytiri nodded a head in thanks, though her eyes held confusion. Your eyes slipped over Jake Sullys form, a small gesture of hello from another head nod before you allowed your eyes to stay trained on Neteyams shocked yellow.
'She is real,' is all Neteyam could think as you both played a stare game, you breaking it off with a soft smile before disappearing. He found the sudden ability to move, dashing to the drape only to pull it back and find you gone, like a phantom.
"I think, that's (Y/n)" Jake mumbled, his mind wracking to find any sense of familiarity of you, but found none. Neytiri felt a small rumble from Tuk, glancing down at the small girl to find her awake and giggling softly, "Told you she was real,"
~.~
Neteyam couldn't get you out of his head, now actively looking for you, but you weren't anywhere to be found. Tuk had told him all about you, and this time he listened, but she wouldn't tell him where you go.
"(Y/n) doesn't like to be sought after, you can only find her when she wants you to find her," Tuk laughed like it was the most simplest thing in the world, but it just made Neteyam frustrated.
He knew so little about you but felt a strange need to be near you, hear your soft voice again and find out more. Call it a crush, infatuation or even obsession, he just wanted to see you again, even if for a last time.
It was only when he took a stroll through the brush on a warm afternoon, that he found you. Only you were laying patch off soft moss, eye shut as you looked at piece with the world.
The world itself seemed to be happening around you, each breath you took was like a breeze from Eywa herself. Insects and small animals passed you by, as if you were just one with them.
Neteyam had approached you slowly, footsteps light as he observed your face. It was beautiful in his eyes, your soft lashes caressing your cheeks, lips parted ever so slightly with each breath you took in. Your hair seemed to flow around you in the vast green foliage.
He was too lost in his thoughts that he didn't notice you open your eyes and look back at him. Your green eyes traced his features as well, taking in the rough yet handsome face he was gifted with. He truly was his mother's child.
When he saw your green eyes staring back at him, he fell back from his squat in shock. You softly hummed, a smile so small but just for him.
"What are you looking at?" He coughed, his face feeling warm from your stare.
You sat up slowly, his eyes glancing at how your body was bending, hair falling over your cheeks to frame your face.
Eywa help his sinful thoughts.
"Oh you know," you drawled, "The clouds,"
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Clouds of Rain
Neteyam X F!Reader
Part 3 of Clouds Series
Summary: Everyday you and Neteyam get closer, but now he's seen a side you want to hide
Warning: Toxic parents, a little angst, fluff moments between Neteyam and Reader, Neteyam and Reader are eyeing eachother đâ€ïž
When the day had started, distant sounds of thunder echoed around the forest. Shadows crept across the moss covered floor as a storm rolled in. Many Na'vi relished in the rain, the prosperity it brought to the food and animals almost seemed mystical, but to you it brought a sorrow.
You weren't allowed out of your families tent on stormy days, even though you were seen as a grown adult, you were unmated, uncourted, so therefore, still a child in your parents eyes.
You longed for the sunshine and blue skies, but Eywa seemed to want a day of rest and restoring water to the cycle of life. "(Y/N)! Come here at once!" Your mother's voice cut through your day dream as you stared out into the vast mist of rain in the distance.
You stood from your position and walked with small steps to your mother. Your youngest sibling, a boy the age of three, sat in her lap fast asleep. You wished you could curl up like that, remembering the days she would coo at you and kiss you sweetly, that changed when more siblings came along and suddenly you couldn't do anything right in her eyes.
Kneeling in front of her, she spoke,"You are to go get us some fruit from the gathering circle, be quick, you are to come straight back, do you understand," her tone left no answer needed, it was a demand.
You nodded, going to stand but her hand tightly grapsed your wrist, pulling you back around to face her, her dull yellow eyes hard. "Answer me girl!" "Yes mama," you quietly spoke, eyes meeting her face but not her eyes, she hated when you looked at her in the eyes.
Releasing you, she waved you off and you quickly turned and hurried out. It wasn't usual for Na'vi to be abusive to their children, yet it wasn't unheard of. Your parents just happened to check every mark there was, verbal, emotional, mental, and physical. It just depended on their mood of the day to determine how your day would end.
Reaching the gathering circle, you picked the nicest looking fruit that you hoped would appease her rath, you began to walk back with it bundled in your arms, only to run smack into another person.
The fruit got squashed between both bodies, the juice sticking to your arms, chest and stomach, your mouth slightly open in shock. That was unexpected, but then again you were rushing with your head down.
"Oh Great Mother, I'm sorry!" Neteyams voice made you jolt up to meet his eyes, his face worried as he realized he ran into you. Just another foolish episode it seemed.
"(Y/n)! I'm so sorry, let me help you," Neteyam reached down to grab the fruit, but it unsavable at that point. You covered your mouth with a soft laugh, not wanting to upset the man in his rush to help you.
"Its alright Neteyam, no harm done," you assured, a smile gracing your lips. Neteyam was a light in your gray world, he could do no wrong in your eyes. The thought of the fruit left your mind, now focused solely on spending time with Neteyam.
"Come," you helped him up, his words stumbling over each other as he tried to figure out how to help, "B-but your fruit? Let me, let me help," you shook your head, waving it off, "There will be more fruit, but let's go get washed up," he let you drag him away, the fruit left forgotten on the floor.
Mother would not be happy later.
~.~
Laughing as you two walked up the edge of the village where vases of water sat, you let go and approached the water. Cupping your hands together, bringing the cool water to your face and neck, you breathed in a sigh of relief and shut your eyes, the water doing good to help rid the sticky fruit and seeds that stuck to your skin.
Neteyam allowed his eyes to trace over each water droplet that ran down your soft skin, going where only his eyes could imagine and where he wished he could touch too. Oh to be envious of water.
"Aren't you going to wash up?" Your soft voice broke his concentration, eyes looking to your face and seeing your glowing green eyes staring at him with your eyelids lowered, a look you weren't trying to give him but his thoughts quickly wondered and this caused him to rush forward, almost dunking his head into the water to cool himself off.
You giggled, having noticed his look from before and allowed your own eyes to slowly rake over his flushed body. His years of training doing wonders for him, the muscle and strength he held made your tail flick a few times before you willed it to stop and wrap around your leg.
"I am sorry, for ruining your fruit," Neteyam wiped his face of water, looking down at you though you smiled.
That pretty smile made him weak.
"Its alright, there will be more fruit later," you looked up at him, "let me make it up to you," he offered, though you grew confused. How would he make it up to you? Why did he feel the need? It was only a few pieces of fruit, surely you could replace it on your own.
"Oh? How?" You asked, arms crossing and staring at him intrigued, your hip jutting out a little causing him to gulp, trying to focus back on you as a whole.
"That's for me to worry about, now, let's go grab you some more fruit," he placed a small kiss to your head as he walked by, your face flushing as you trailed after him.
It was true you had kissed him before, a few weeks ago before he took you flying on his Ikran, but since then it had only been longing stares and a few light touches. A whisper here and there in the others ear, both of you too scared to ruin what you had going on. Scared that your realities would be crushed by the world if the true feelings were spoken out into the air.
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Arriving back at the gathering circle, Neteyam grabbed new fruit to replace the ones he messed up, placing only one in your arms and he carried the rest.
"Oh no, Neteyam I can carry It really," you begged, not wanting him to follow you home. Not to the horrors that may await you. "Nonsense, allow me to help you, it was my fault," he grinned, not picking up on your worried tone.
It seemed he didn't have to, for your father's voice cut throught the air like a knife. "(Y/n)!" His deep, growl like voice caused you to freeze, Neteyam frowning when he saw the fear plaster on your now pale face. His eyes glanced behind you where two figures were appearing.
"Papa," you greeted, turning where the tall, brooding Na'vi man stood. He was one of the best hunters in the clan, your younger brother, only three years younger than you, trailing behind him with a small, smug look.
Your brother quite enjoyed when you got in trouble, but that's only because he himself didn't have to bare your father and mother's disapproving gaze.
"What are you doing? Your mother has been waiting and here you are, goofing off and laying around like you always do," Your fathers eyes made you shrink, head down into your shoulders hoping to disappear.
Neteyam placed himself between you both, chest puffing up to match your father. He didn't like how dull your eyes got, he hated how you tried to shrink instead of stand tall. "The fault is mine, sir, take it up with me. Leave your daughter out of this," Neteyam hissed, his tail lashing at the thought of what this man would say or do to you, his own child.
Your Father seemed to realize who he now faced, eyes narrowing suspiciously as they darted between Toruk Maktos oldest son, the future leader of the clan and his own child, his only daughter and oldest child.
The way the young man stood in front of you, challenging him to dare say another word had your father ask,"Who are you to tell me how to talk to my daughter? Have you courted her, mated with her," he knew the answer, but your father wanted to prove a point.
"No sir, but the fault is mine. I caused her to drop fruit and helped to clean her up, so any qualms you have you can deal them with me right now," Neteyam promised, knowing that the fact you two really weren't together stung, but he would defend you no matter what. He loved you that much.
It seemed as though Eywa had a saving grace, his own father, Jake Sully, appeared. "What's going on here?" Jake looked narrow eyed to the hunter in front of him, he knew (F/N) well, the man was very strict and harsh, but one of the best hunters to the clan.
You rushed forward, tired of all the arguing and not wanting a whole fight to break out. "Neteyam was helping me with fruit, I was clumsy and dropped it," you spazzed through your words, not turning to meet either Sully mens eyes behind you, focusing on your father instead, scared of what he would say more or do.
"I'm sorry Papa, I will be more careful from now on," Your father didn't want to cause a bigger scene infront of his Olo'eyktan, so he called for your brother to take the fruit who glared at you as if you had asked him instead of your father. "We will speak at home," your father leaned down close and threatened, eyes of green, though darker than your own, stared right through you. His words a silent threat that more than talking will be done at home.
"Yes Papa," you submitted, ears pulled back in fear and humiliation. Fear of what your father would do. Humiliation that Neteyam had to witness you like this.
Your Father and brother stomped away, your shoulders tense as you turned to see both men staring at you sadly.
"Thank you for helping me Neteyam, I'll see you around," you hurried out, words like mush as you trailed off into the direction your family had gone to.
"(Y/n)-" Neteyam reached out, but his father's hand on his shoulder stopped him, a huff of defeat in his lips as you disappeared from view.
"Give her some space, (F/n) is not one to mess with, getting her in more trouble may not be a wise case," Jake instructed, Neteyam clicking his tongue in annoyance and anger.
"(Y/n) shouldn't be suffering with them! It was my fault that the fruit fell, she shouldn't have to pay for that," he felt himself become hostile every second that passed, now beginning to pace in front of his father.
"(Y/n) deserves to be free! She is a grown woman, not a pet or a child!" He cried, Neteyam turning his body, eyes gazing after your invisible figure one last time.
"She so gentle, I want to watch her float on the clouds, not be tied down," Neteyam whispered.
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