WHY IS IT SO REAL?!
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eds are real funny cause you think you’re the one in control until you realize you can’t tell the difference between you now and you 20lbs ago
I hope in another universe I’m happy. I’m normal. I fit in. I’m talented. I have friends. I wasn’t born in the wrong body. I’m attractive. I get everything I want instead of nothing. I’m not in a constant state of anxiety, dissatisfaction, exhaustion, and desperate yearning for things to be different. I have an amazing relationship that lasts forever instead of a string of abusive ex lovers. Instead of a pervasive loneliness, I seldom feel lonely. I’m talented and successful and I can do things like everyone else. Other universe you I hope you’re out there. At least one of us will be happy then.
is the quality of my day based off if I eat or not!! I get so depressed after I eat SO WHY THE FUCK DO I STILL EAT
I love fasting and restricting for long periods because then when it’s time to eat for a fun night with my friends there’s no guilt. I’m not a pig, it’s a special exception for a fun night. And I’m skinny enough that everyone can see that.
some glam thin$po for my dark feminine side👑
The fuck up thing is, when my ed is active, it doesn't make me depressed or sad or insane. It makes me the happiest I can be. I feel on top of the world. Like I can do and accomplish anything. Everything just falls into place and life is easier.
can my brain please stop thinking about food
TW: eating disorder (Ana) / she-her / SW: 81kg GW: 50KG CW: _ H: 155CM / vent and rant stuff / expect rblgs of my interests
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