Nicole Except When She Thinks About Jecka Moving For College She Gets So Unbelievably Angry That She

Y is everyone slowly leaving me :((

future au..

NGL RN ALL I WANNA DO IS SLEEP BUT MAYBE INE DAY AT 1AM WHEN IM SUICIDAL ILL GET SMTH OUT CUS I ALWAYS GET MY BEST WRITING FONE THEN 🙏

RHEA I NEED ANOTHER FIC FROM YOU😭😭😭😭 IF I READ THAT EMICOLE ONE AGAIN IM GOANNA CRQWHD TF OUT ANYWAY FAV SHIP??

DID YOU READ MY NICOLE BEDROOTINF FIC AND THE EMIJECKOLE ONE 😭

ANYWAY I HAVE ABOUT TEN FAVOURITE SHIPS SO ILL JUST LIST THEM IN ORDER FROM BEST TO LEAST

jeckole

Emiari

Emicole

Jeckily

Emijeckole

Ari Cole

Jeckari

Jeckelly

Megkelly

Jeckaren

Also im if im drawing a trans character as a kid do I draw them as their before gener or now gender…????

Toxic Jeckole would be where Nicole is still an asshole, lacks any sort of empathy, and disregards the emotions and feelings of other people. And the frustration that Jecka has to put up with that everyday leads her to giving into everything she’s seen from her dad growing up.

Nicole won’t listen or carry her weight into anything while living together, so Jecka says fuck this, grabs an empty beer bottle from the many that Nicole has drank from, and smashes it over her head.

hey dude. obv u don’t have to respond to this but on ur old acc i saw u reposting some ed and pro ana stuff and it really scared me for u. obv eating disorders are complex and hard to get over but i just wanted to say help is always available and there no such thing as a “perfect body”

- someone who cares and had an eating disorder for like 3 years :)

omg wtf this is so sweet?? Thank you so much dude I can't tell U how much that means to me 💗💗

Yeah, on my old account of was reposting that kind of stuff (not to trauma dump or nothing) but I was and still am a little bit struggling with my weight and how I look and things, but I'm not st@rvibf myself or anything, just eating healthier

But thank you so much anon, that's actually so sweet since you didn't have to do that, yet you did so thank you so much 💕

Tumblr won’t let me respond to the ask but I love a good parent au, I’m a sucker for it so this is so exciting for me @myl0v3l1f3

Nicole has several panic attacks during the process of them becoming parents (I think they would adopt bc I just don’t think either of them would wanna be pregnant but it’s definitely smth to explore). Her and Jecka are like mid 30s at this point and they’re a lot more stable but they obviously have bad days. Jecka is trying to comfort her and remind her that they aren’t their parents and it’s a process but Nicole is convinced she’ll just fuck them up.

After a really long therapy session she decides to actually do something about it and buys a fuck tom of parenting books and spends the majority of her time researching childhood trauma and how to keep their home safe and welcoming for a foster child.

It was Jecka’s idea to begin to foster kids and she was beginning to get worried bc with Nicole’s anxiety, she’s been really hands off with the whole process but after Nicole’s new passion for it, it unlocks something in her and she finds herself loving Nicole in a whole new way. They’ve been together for over ten years and they’re ride or dies but now she’s seeing Nicole as a leader for their soon to be family and it’s a really beautiful time for them.

They’re both extremely anxious when they actually begin to foster children, these twins come to them. It’s a big and girl around 7 years old and they’re very quiet so Nicole thinks she’s doing something wrong bc she hyped herself up for this great experience but she thinks the kids hate her. She’s still welcoming and trying her best but her insecurities are starting to get the best of her. Until one day Jecka comes home after picking them up from school and the boy brings her a drawing and she fully starts sobbing bc it’s a small reinforcement that she’s doing a good job and they’re starting to feel comfortable. Nicole frames it and everything, she’s so happy and she refuses to hide it. As they get older she’ll make jokes like “I’m his favorite” and Jecka just rolls her eyes

Jecka is a mountain of anxiety and she’s done a lot of work to manage it and not project it onto the kids. She still has anger issues and sometimes when the kids are being kids but it overwhelms her, her hands start to shake and she goes to her room crying bc she thinks that means she’s just like her dad. Nicole is rubbing her back and reminding her that Jecka has never put her hands on them and she never would. Being angry doesn’t mean she’s violent and after she calms down

I’m going to make ONE little hc about if one of them got pregnant bc I read a fic about them dealing with a teen pregnancy and it was funny. This is basically a shit post but I had to include it. After Nicole gets Youtube famous, Jecka traps her so she can secure her bag and she likes Nicole anyway so why not. They’re terrible parents and Jecka is “excited” to have a baby bc the idea of having someone love her unconditionally is exciting but then actual motherhood is a nightmare. Nicole doesn’t know what the hell she’s doing and they’re starting end up turning into a family vlog channel to make more money but then once the kid is like 8 they stop bc they can see unhealthy habits forming and they actually love their child.

Some happier moments are Nicole actually enjoying a house full of kids when they’re fostering multiple kids. Her house was always loud growing up bc of her parents yelling and then her numerous stepdads but there’s a weird comfort in the chaos bc it’s familiar. She also really enjoys the routine of driving to school, pick ups, packing lunches. She likes to be needed and she’s happy that she’s able to provide a stable home with her partner

genuinely obsessed w class of 09 bc wdym nicole

- actively, in canon, hates all men

- only builds any semblance of emotional connection with women

- states in text that shes never liked a guy enough to call him a "boyfriend"

- wishes multiple times that she was a lesbian

- only goes out of her way to help jecka

- IS IN A LESBIAN RELATIONSHIP

and then when the audience interpreted her as lesbian the creator went "YOURE ALL CRAZY" like this is the funniest shit in the world

At the end of the day, I know ill never be what they are to me to them

I think about this scene a lot

I am going to kms why are all the lights on why is my throat covered in blisters why am I coughing 24/7 why can’t I sleep why did I spill juice on me why do I have to keep spitting phlegm out