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Something about Nicole’s suicide ending fills me with such indescribable sadness that I don’t know how to describe. The fact she’s just hanging there, the room was dark, the computer was on, the bed was not made, the whole house was dead silent. Don’t even get me SYARTED on the suicide note either:

“People are books, puzzles and pawns. In that order. First theyre read, then they’re figured out, then they’re persuaded”

People are read, figured out and persuaded as Nicole says herself, but theyre also open, confusing or difficult and gullible. In that order can be a reference to Nicole before the game, listing to her mom’s advice and being a “nice” child, but ending up being gullible and vulnerable in the end. Being confusing/difficult can be Nicole struggling to “fit in” in society, with the mindset and attitude she has.

“Some would call that wrongly manipulative but whats the alternative? Basically any advice my mom’s ever given me. “Dont be mean, don’t judge, be open,”,”

Nicole doesnt see another option besides manipulating people or being stupidly nice, with no in between. It shows the difference between how both of them think you should supposed ply act in society. Nicole thinks you should figure out how to change people to have control and ‘not get hurt’, whilst her mum thinks that you should be respectful, and - in Nicole’s eyes - vulnerable. An open target, really.

“And yeah sure but, that only works when men don’t wanna have sex with you. Be tolerant of guys who get off by choking you, no way that goes south.”

Nicole recognises that she CAN act like her mum says, she knows it’s an option, except she’s also aware that men do see woman as objects and things to stick their dicks in, and in a place where she is mostly interacting with men, it crosses it off as something she can do, because she knows if she does, she WILL get hurt. She’s aware that she’s supposed to ignore the warnings and calls it out but she’s also aware that she won’t be heard, by a majority of people.

“Whats wrong with a pizza delivery-boy with no career goals? Whens the last time you asked a pizza delivery-boy if he’s a rapist?”

I feel you can interpret this im different ways. I personally see it in two different lights - sarcastic (people like crispin are seen as people with no career goals, or realistic ones, and he’s most likely (obviously in Nicole’s eyes) a rapist, yet no one ever checks because they’re seen as less educated) and Nicole seeing no problem with ‘settling down’ with someone who doesn’t have a bright future ahead of him (idk I feel like this is a reach and doesnt make sense but this is the best I can describe what im thinking 😭)

“Theyre called warning signs, but ignoring them makes you a nice person. And one day, if you’re a nice enough girl you’ll end up just like me”

If you call out people on shit behaviour, you’re seen as ‘disrespectful’ or something along those lines. If you ignore them, you might have a good life, but in the end you will be caught up in vulnerability. Nicole frequently called out and accused men of inappropriate behaviour, and she was both hated for it and liked for it, however in the end, she called out someone who didn’t have a line to cross and in the end she couldn’t ’handle?’ It, the pressure and most likefesr of what would happen to her, as again, the men in this game dont have a line they can cross.

“And just like my dad”

This is such a line. Nicole’s dad killed himself, yeah, and Nicole could just be referencing the fact they both died the same way, but were not told why he kills himself, we just know it’s apparently Nicole’s fault. This could open up so many different reasons on why he did it (Nicole’s mum giving him less visitation rights, the divorce, etc etc or just being under pressure). I think my favourite thoughts in this line is that potentially, Nicole knew why her dad killed himself, and only she alone had the actual reason, which is why she says it - knowing people will just think it’s because they’re both dead/died the same way

If you’re reading this, im dead.

Very obvious, shes dead.

Sorry if this is out of reach Icl as I was writing this I lwk confused myself 💔 but uhhhhhhhhh lmk how you felt abt it?? CUS I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE WHO WNTS TO ACTUALLY START CRYING WHEN THEY SEE THE IMSGE RIGHT???

Nicole except when she thinks about jecka having her life together better than her she wants to kill herself just a little bit more

everytime I see this i laugh 😭💀

HELP I JUST REALISED THATTT 😭😭

I think about this scene a lot

lowkey i might die from embarrassment

ILY MOREEEE 😽❤️

OKAY OKAY RHEA... like.. ummm would you share Jeckemily hcs?? Like they're my opt😽😽 and your hcs are SO good

Ty babe 🤞😼

- Emily loves laying on Jecka’s chest. She’ll do it whenever but mainly when she’s tired or upset

- When Emily starts distancing herself from everyone, or lashing out, Jecka feels SLIGHTLY insecure about their relationship

- Jecka swears it’s a secret relationship but everyone knows they hookup in the third floor bathroom.

- Emily gives her a discount on addies (25% off)

- Jecka’s not that big on pet names, but she’ll call Emily ‘babe’, ‘em’ or if she’s drunk then ‘baby’. Emily fw everything so she doesn’t mind but she called jecka loads of different ones, but it’s mainly ‘babe’, ‘baby’, ‘pretty’, and stuff along those lines - unless they’re getting freaky.

- Emily actually praises Jecka’s body a lot, sometimes too much and jecka gets weirded out but she secretly fw it cus she low-key has body dysmorphia

- Emily has carved Jecka’s initials into her body somewhere.

- Jecka paints both of their nails, and they do face masks together but it’s like, cute and wtf at the same time because Emily has 🧿🧿 eyes and jecka has 👁️👁️

- bites x doesnt like to be bitten

- Emily is always kissing Jecka when they cuddle, like it doesn’t matter where - her neck, shoulders, collarbone, chest, stomach, ear, jaw WHEREEVER. She just liked being affectionate

- Jecka showers with a shit ton of fancy products from her mom, and Emily’s been using the same shampoo since she was 10.

- Emily’s apart of those vip scene kid groups on MySpace and jecka sometimes looks over her shoulder and sees what’s happening ands like “….”

- If were to think about them with others - They’re both still attracted to Nicole, but Nicole is infatuated by the fact Ari will let her do whatever, but actually tells her to fuck off when a line has been crossed.

- They both get insanely jealous of other people with each over because all they have to go off is their parents fucked up marriages

- If were to think when they’re adults - Jecka becomes something in the medical field, and Emily is unemployed because jecka said no to selling drugs 💔

- Emily likes to cling in her sleep during the summer and distance herself in the winter. Jecka gets very frustrated and confused.

- in a modern au, where their teens in like, modern - you get it - they both run the schools TikTok page with all the muggies of people and jokes of teachers , and they haven’t been caught yet.

- Sometimes Jecka is actually worried for her safety being with Emily, and then she’ll see the odd picture of Emily when she was little or all the scars she has, or her crying or just her being vulnerable and remember that Emily is also her age and trying to survibe through the fucked up worldd they live in so it kinda fades but not completely.

- constantly on and off but always end back with each over

- they. Get freaky a lot. 👩🏿‍🦰

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