It's With A Heavy But Hopeful Heart That I Watch Palestinian Families Fundraiser On Here, Slowly Accumulating

I hate taking medication. 10/10 do not reccomend. It makes me numb and makes it difficult for me to identify what I'm feeling most of the time, even worse than when I'm not medicated. But when I don't take my meds, I feel everything all at once and everything is amplified. I'm glad that I can feel but it's so overwhelming.

When I'm not medicated, I feel like myself. I feel more in tuned with who I am. When I'm medicated, I feel like everything that I am is being suppressed into something more palatable. I forget to take my meds immediately and start getting "riled up" about something? I'm told to take my meds because I'm "too much". Sometimes I want to stop taking my meds out of spite because I feel like I can't be myself because people can't handle how strongly I feel about things. Even my own family prefers me medicated.

What am I supposed to do? How can I stay true to myself when no one wants the real me?

I'm writing a modern au Law×oc and I am torn on something. Corazon. I dunno if I want him alive or not. Like, I want to give Law a break but also, I dunno how much it would change his over-all personality. My fellow Law lovers, what do y'all think?

Fuck you cis men! I think I've been hurt enough....

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Falling for you..

how the monster trio would react to realizing they have a crush on you

ft characters : Luffy , Zoro , Sanji [THE MONSTER TRIO]

a/n : this might be a whole overarching series in my blog, BC I ACTUALLY REALLY LIKE THIS IDEA . and this is my first ever fanfic posted on tumblr YAYYY!! , ps. u can go send me requests !!

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|Monkey D. Luffy|

i swear this man will be the MOST oblivious with his crush, mf will most likely just spend a couple of minutes thinking why he treats you a bit more special than the rest of the crew, and at the end of his thoughts he would just shrug it off and continue on his day as if nothing happend

Once he has finally sat down with himself and thought about it , i think he would actually laugh about the idea.

he thinks to himself. as he slowly loses himself to sleep while thinking of the times he favored you over any of the other strawhats.

i can definitely say he fell asleep thinking of YOU instead of meat that night.

and dont you dare be shocked , when one random day when you are talking with him, he just grins widely and says

'shishishi i like you a lot, you know that?'

|Roronoa Zoro|

he would definitely be so confused on why,how and when this couldve happend. how could THE zoro? the man who strives to be the greatest swordsman alive, fall inlove with someone like you.?! (what ?! rude!) but truthfully thats what he thought at first.

but once he has finally realized that he was getting defensive over nothing, and he should learn to relax and let go once in awhile he finally realizes why he fell for you. from the way you talk, the way you act when he is or isnt around, how you manage to take care of yourself so well, he just cant get enough of you.

as he sees you walking around the sunny blissfully unaware that he has fallen head over heels for you he cant help but think to himself

'i wonder how you managed to do it?.. how could someone like you manage to get me all wrapped around your finger like this _____?'

|VINSMOKE SANJI|

the realization would probably leave him shocked. of course he knows hes no stranger when it comes to admiring gorgeous women on the street, but this feeling ? its diffrent from simple adoration and admiration. it feels like a burning sensation to his chest, he cant help feel his heart pumping a bit faster when he sees and feels you around.

you were different to him. this feeling was rooted deep into his chest , even when you werent around, he couldnt help but think of you.

but the moment he would finally admit to himself that he does have a genuine crush on you, would most likely be during a random encounter. you were laughing at one of luffy's antics .his heart skipped a beat, he froze mid thought , wide eyed, hands sweaty. he would say under his breath,

'oh shit. i have actually fallen for them.'

Queen of the Night

A/N: I have always wanted to do something like this ever since I discovered Oda associates Law with this flower so here!!! Pairing: Law x reader CW: backstory spoilers if you squint its like super vague tho • masterlist • ko-fi • discord server •

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It happens so rarely that you sometimes forget what it feels like. Law is a man of barriers built so high that you’ve lost count of the layers. And yet, Law, the Queen of the Night, blooms ever so rarely for you, and his guard falls. It’s never when you expect it. It could be at moments when the moon is at its highest and you two are sitting in comfortable silence, or it could be when the sun kisses your skin as you explore an island with the crew. Small and elusive moments, so fragile that you almost fear that they aren’t real.

“Have I told you about my parents?” There it is. The blooming of the flower that only dares to show its beauty in the most scarce moments. 

It’s the kind of sentence that hands in the air suspended in time. You blink and your breath catches in your throat because you know better than to ask questions when it comes to him. You know that if you prod or push too hard, he’ll retreat back into that shell he’s so used to hiding in. 

So you wait. 

Law’s eyes are fixed on some distant point off across the room, as though he is seeing the very manifestation of something that no longer exists. 

“They were good people. Doctors. Believed in saving lives… even when the world told them it was pointless.”

There’s a bitterness in his words that you can feel deep in your chest. He’s not talking about the heroism of their profession- no, this is something darker, something heavy that sits on his shoulders and is weighing heavily on him. 

You stay silent, giving him space. You watch as the flower opens slowly, petal by petal, revealing its delicate center only when it feels safe.

“They didn’t deserve what happened to them,” he continues, voice cracking in a way that you know he wouldn’t allow on any other occasion. It’s a sound that feels too raw, too real, for someone of his nature. 

His hand twitches against his leg, the muscle tensing as if fighting back the urge to hold something that isn’t there anymore. You want to reach out and touch him, but something holds you back. Not fear, no, but respect. You understand that these moments are a gift, and you don't show him pity or try to interrupt him, you just let him open up on his own accord. 

“And when they died- my parents… sister… everyone…” He swallows, throat tightening as he struggles to get the words out. “I fell into a very dark place. One that I am not sure I have completely gotten away from.”

His words are jagged, straight from the depths of his soul and you wonder just how long he’s carried all of this with him, letting it fester in his mind waiting to be told to those who are patient enough to wait for him to be ready to say such things. 

“What happened during that darkness- the man who brought me out of it…” he pauses once more, taking a shaky breath. “He’s the reason why I am doing all of this. He’s why I am even here.” 

You don’t dare ask for details of the savior he speaks of, knowing that he will tell you when he’s ready. Tonight might not be the night, but you have already accepted that you won’t be getting all the details, but rather just a few pieces of the puzzle of his past that you ought to put together over time. 

The flower will soon close again by morning and Law will soon put back up those walls, locking himself away for the unforeseeable future. So you savor what little time you have watching him blossom. You feel a sense of honor knowing that he trusts you enough to let you see this side of him, even if it’s just for tonight. 

And even when the flower of his heart begins to close, you know deep down that it will bloom again. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not for a long time. But it will. And when it does, you’ll be right there, waiting, just like you are tonight. 

Because that’s what it means to love him. To be patient. To wait. And to cherish every moment that the Queen of the Night blooms for you. 

the suffering never ends

it's so fascinating to me that dabi & hawks are fraternal foils, yet there's nothing about their dynamic and constellation with endeavor that signifies fraternity, they're in relation to each other as sons of endeavor (emphasis on him, not them). their sense of worth depends of endeavor the patriarch, they center him the way a child centers their parent and it's crazyyy how endeavor indirectly sets up dabi & hawks against each other as filial rivals the way he sets up touya and shoto.

the difference is that touya & shoto have a more tangible rivalry going on while dabi & hawks compete with each other thematically, they have similar experiences with childhood neglect & abuse and choose polar survival strategies so to me, dabi vs. hawks boils down to the dialectics of which post-traumatic survival strategy (fight vs. fawn) leads to the parental attention their inner child desperately craves.

and tbh? idek who actually gets what they wanted or a "kinder" conclusion. dabi dies for the sake of revenge and hawks comes out alive, but it is ultimately dabi who gets to move on from endeavor and focuses on his little brother & the unconditional love he experienced despite everything he put him through, meanwhile hawks is still deeply attached to the endeavor he chose as a pseudo-paternal figure as a 5yo like he doesn't get to move on at all and doesn't receive the fraction of unconditional love that dabi does. it's crazyyy to watch hawks go through all of that and act like nothing happened, as if dabi's presence never challenged his stance on endeavor/abusive men/the way he copes with what happened to him as a child.

and ofc hawks can't do any of that, endeavor as a "redeemable" character only works if hawks is there to remind the reader of his good deeds, which only works if hawks doesn't get to progress and reflect. It's sad but also funny on a meta level because there is a very clear analogy between horikoshi reducing hawks to a tool that suffers from bad writing for the sake of another character's writing and the hpsc reducing hawks to a tool that suffers mentally for the sake of the establishment. (dog motif works so well for hawks but i digress)

idk, one thing i really like about the todoroki subplot is that it's good at showing how an abuser messes with a family's dynamics and renders it dysfunctional, there was no way for touya to be normal about his little brother and ofc he saw shoto's birth and his own death sentence, and there was also no way for dabi & hawks to have a normal relationship either because endeavor is an omnipresent patriarch in their fight. horikoshi barely scratched the surface of dabihawks' dynamic in relation to endeavor and completely ignored it the final arc to ride endeavor a little harder, but the implications are there and i won't let anyone ignore them!!!!!!!!!!!

#writing tips

good traits gone bad explained

good traits gone bad - Part III

Ambitiousness - While ambitiousness is generally seen as a positive trait, driving individuals towards achieving their goals and aspirations, there can be a downside if it becomes excessive. An ambitious character can come across as ruthless.

Optimism - Optimism can lead to increased happiness and resilience, but not if it becomes unrealistic. Excessive optimism can lead individuals to underestimate potential risks or challenges, which can result in poor decision-making.

Diligence - Constantly working diligently without proper breaks can lead to burn out. Diligence can also mean that the person is not able to bend strict rules, but rather makes sure to follow them. It can make them resistance to change.

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