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Okay, she gives you a look and when you see the look, you make a move.
It isn’t that it’s Ellie Chu. Behind all of the letters, the text messages and the art vandalism. If she’s being honest, Aster knew from the first date that it wasn’t Paul. The way that he spoke to her? Even the way that he asked her out… All of it made Aster realize that it hadn’t been- that it couldn’t have been him.
Once she knew this, she had picked apart each letter, word by word and line by line until the truth sunk in. It was Ellie Chu. The way the words looped and swirled, Aster had seen Ellie’s writing before, she wasn’t an idiot… yet, apparently Paul was for not even trying to rewrite the letters in his own hand. One mistake of many that lead to the breakdown of their ruse. Ruse. What a simple word for such pain.
She wasn’t angry at Ellie for helping Paul… He was her friend, and he really was hopeless. There was no way that he had stood a chance in her eyes, certainly not before the letters started coming to her.
He was sweet, but simple. So different from Trig but very similar. He loved what she looked like, how sweet she could be. The only difference was that he was willing to try in gaining her love, Paul was willing to learn about her likes and dislikes, to study in order to be able to stand toe to toe with her in debate. Aster told herself that THAT was love, the fact that he tried his hardest to be who she needed.
Only a small flicker had taken shape, a hope, a wish… that maybe Ellie helping was more than just aiding a friend. If this was the way Ellie truly was, then clearly it was Ellie that Aster was in love with.
And so she had tried. Aster took Ellie to the spring alone, and Aster had insisted they go in, and Aster had initiated conversations… and Aster had taken Ellie’s shirt off, getting so close to the other girl that she was sure you could hear both of their hearts pounding in their chest. Aster had waited, had stared at Ellie, and bit her lip in nerves waiting, just waiting for Ellie to do something about it. To be bold.
Ellie hadn’t been bold, and Aster kissed Paul for reassurance that HE was the one who wanted her.
Everything that followed had been a devastation. Paul trying to kiss Ellie was the scene that Aster needed to prove that he couldn’t love her, not in the way the letters portrayed. Neither of them could.
Aster Flores wasn’t angry at Ellie out of betrayal that she had written the letters. She already knew that.
It was the trying, and the reaching, and the failing that Aster Flores had done in her efforts to try to figure out Ellie Chu… It was that Ellie had lied to her about her feelings. It was that if Ellie had paid just one second to bother seeing Aster face to face (seeing her beyond those letters), that the two of them might have been able to experience a form of beauty that Aster didn’t even know truly existed.
What she had wanted to say was “You could have had everything,” “You should have seen that I knew all along,” and “You are the one that I am in love with, Ellie Chu, not Paul Munsky, not Trig Carson, but-”
“You.” Aster had said, voice trying not to waver and eyes trying not to tear as she left the church.
Anatomy:
1–> KLM for Gross Anatomy
2–> Snell’s Anatomy
3–> BD Churassia
4–> RJ Last
5–> Grey’s Anatomy
6–> Langman Embryology
7–> KLM for Embryology
8–> BD For General Anatomy
9–> Dissector
10–> Di Fore Histology
11–> Junqueira’s Histology
12–> Netter Atlas of human Aantomy
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LYV9KQ3lxY29FY28
Physiology:
1–> Guyton
2–> Ganong
3–> Sheerwood
4–> Sembulingam
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LdXlCSjdZM214dEE
Biochemistry:
1–> Harper
2–> Lippincott
3–> Chatterjea
4–> Satyanarayan
5–> Stryer
6–> MRS Biochemistry
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0Ld0o3WnhCR2VEczg
Pathology:
1–> Big Robins
2–> Medium Robins
3–> Pathoma
4–> Goljan
5–> Harsh Mohan Pathology
6–> Atlas of Histopathology
7–> Levinson
8–> MRS microbiology
9–> Microbiology by Jacquelyn G. Black
10–> Color Atlas of Microbiology
11–> Kaplan Pathology
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LYkRYdjFrTm5MR0U
Pharmacology:
1–> Big Katzung
2–> Mini Katzung
3–> Kaplan Review
4–> Lippincott
5–> Pocket Katzung
6–> Rang and Dale’s Pharmacology
7–> Atlas of Pharmacology
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LMkE1UUVRZGwtTlU
Forensic Medicine:
1–> Simpson’s Forensics
2–> Krishan’s Forensics
3–> Atlas of Autopsy
4–> Atlas of Forensic Medicine
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LQXVwOGoyWnFSV2s
Ophthalmology:
1–> Jogi
2–> Jatoi
3–> Parson’s Textbook of Eye
4–> Kanski
5–> AK Khurana
6–> Atlas of ophthalmology
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LOHc5WVZMdkJjX2M
Otorhinolaryngology:
1–> Dhingra
2–> Logans Turner
3–> Color Atlas of Otorhinolaryngology
4–> Maqbool’s Text Book of ENT
5–> Clinical Methods in ENT by PT Wakode
6–> ENT at a Glance
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LaDY2a0lFNDlfTGc
Community Medicine:
1–> Monica’s Text Book Community Medicine
2–> Mahajan And Gupta Text Book of Community Medicine
3–> Bancroft’s Text Book of Community Medicine
Folder link–> https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0Lc1RCMml2NjhFNjA
Internal Medicine:
1–> Churchill’s Pocketbook of DD
2–> MTB Step 2 Ck
3–> Davidson Essentials
4–> Davidson Principals and practice
5–> Harrison’s Internal Medicine
6–> Internal Medicine USMLE Nuggets
7–> Internal Medicine on call bt LANGE 8–> Oxfords Specialties
Folder link–>https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LeEFJNG5TMlc4eWc
Surgery:
1–> Bailey_love short practice of Surgery
2–> Churchill’s pocketbook of Surgery
3–> Deja Review of surgery
4–> Farquharson’s Textbook of Operative General Surgery
5–> Hamilton Bailey’s Physical Signs
6–> Oxford Handbook of Clinical Surgery
7–> Schwartz’s Principles of Surgery
8–> Macleod’s Clinical Examination
9–> Macleod’s Clinical Diagnosis
Folder link–>https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LRFpFSG5hZ1pVWkE
Obstetrics & Gynecology:
1–> Case Discussions in Obstetrics and Gynecology
2–> Deja Review of Obstetrics Gynecology
3–> Obstetrics by Ten Teachers
4–> Gynaecology illustrated
5–> Gynaecology by Ten Teachers
Folder link–>https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LMU1LRjFDa1FrbjA
Pediatrics:
1–> Nelson Essentials of Pediatrics
2–> Nelson Complete
3–> Pediatrics Review
Folder link–>https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B3WdpdsqpX0LUkdTQkVuNV92Yzg
I hope this helps everyone, it’s not mine. But has been shared to me and I am sharing this with all of you.
I DONT FUCKING GET IT
The circle is broken
“I feel like Dina’s avoiding me. Cat says she’s just jealous about how i’m spending my time. I keep trying to invite Dina along, but she keeps saying she’s busy.”
i’m obsessed with the fact that dina was jealous of cat years before ellie and dina’s relationship even started. it goes to show you they always had a little more than just “best friendship”, probably from day one. dina always had a thing for ellie, maybe even more so than ellie had for her and i fucking LIVE FOR IT
screenshot cred: @dilliebar :)
Me:
the screenshots of Ellie are from @manicoldsoul’s account!!
no one talk to me
The Last of Us Part II (2020)
Listen, tlou2 broke my fucking heart and stomped on it. I tried, I DID, to sympathize with Abby even if I hated playing as her. I get it... the swapping of roles between Ellie and Abby. Ellie becoming consumed with the thought of revenge while Abby found her humanity with Lev again, just like Joel and Ellie in the first game. But what the fuck with that ending? The lesbian lead of a major game ends up mutilated and broken. In the end her worst fear became true. She was all alone. WTF?!?
*sighs*
A lot of people seem to miss the point of the ending which is not surprising to me. It's not so simple as what you see.
Yes, Ellie loses the family she fought so hard to build, but the fault was on her for that happening. She became so consumed by hate and revenge that she slowly was losing her own humanity. She had moments that slowed her descent into madness, but ultimately she still couldn't stop the dark desires inside of her. She couldn't just "move on" and be satisfied with the life she had like everyone else. If you read her journal, she talks about sleepless nights and panic attacks. All at the fault of her personal trauma and anxiety. All triggered by the deep rooted hate and loss that had built inside her that whole time.
So yes, she turns her back on all she's gained to pursue Abby. It's not until she's at the breaking point and about to kill Abby, that the person she truly is (the one Joel tried protecting for so long) finally stops her from doing the one thing she's wanted, but that could have ultimately destroyed her.
So she lets Abby go. She goes back home and sees the consequences of her decisions. The consequences of her consumed rage and need for revenge. It causes her pain, but also teaches her that she has to learn how to forgive.
That's when she remembers the night before she lost Joel. How she'd finally forgiven him after hating him for what he did. And in that she finds peace, and decides to change her course. She sets off, and the ending leaves it open that she's going to more than likely go searching for Dina, and earn her forgiveness so that they can start again. So she can start again.
It's a beautiful, powerful, and very HUMAN ending. Human lives are messy and not at all simple, and that's why it's so bold. The entire story is wrapped around the concepts of cause and effect/confronting the consequences for your actions.
I love it, and I'm still processing all my emotions over it. Not everyone is going to agree with it, not everyone is going to like it, but frankly that's their choice. As a writer, and someone who loves very deeply flawed content, this was fucking brilliant. And I'm happy it exists.
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i stan
Love my zombie post-apocalyptic queer daughters
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"Potato... Potato. My little baby Potato. [whistles] My Potato, my Potato. My little buddy Potato... What a big boy. Yeah... That's my buddy."
aw, joel has pictures of his daughters on his bedroom dresser... 😭
when ur hunting down murderers with ur gf and u find a gay bookstore
i still cant over with the ending. i waited for 7 yrs for part 2 but i just finished it for 4 days, fuck
can we talk about this
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To all my black followers and friends, stay safe.
Also, I would like to add that black lives have always mattered, will always matter.
It’s awful that we even have to say that because it should be a given. However, we need to say it loud and clear for the racists.
We cannot be silent.
“It’s rare to meet someone with a mind just as beautiful as their face.”
— Unknown (via quotemadness)
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The End of the F***ing World
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