I Want To Slitttt Their Throaatssss, It's Not FAAIRRRRR, HOW COME THEY GET TO BE TOGETHER AND IM ALL

inside of me there are two wolves…

I THINK I FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I SWITCH UP ON PEOPLE SO QUICKLY NOW !!!

(this applies more for people I know irl rather than online)

So yk how sometimes you have fake arguments in your head ? I do that but have full conversations. But it can be very specific.

For example, I always think about what will happen in my therapy sessions, and since I hype myself up about what it's going to be like, I get disappointed and upset when my therapist seems to be going off my script

It happened today with my teacher. I built up the courage to go up to him and ask about the test and if I could do it earlier (since I was leaving school, before the time of the test) and the second I asked, he looked uninterested and plainly said I had to do it tmrw. It wasn't the reaction I had thought he would have (nor was it the one I wanted, I think he's a bitch for being uninterested, there was like 4 kids in the class and he was doing nothing, so it's not like I inturputed him or anything)

Anyways, I think that's the best way I can explain this XP

Intro :P

-> ☆ Name: M (or anything, give me a name and I'll use it :3)

-> ☆ Age: In between 14-17

-> ☆ Pronouns, sexuality: He/him/ + neopronouns that I'm too scared to share >.<). Bisexual, possibly demi-romantic

-> ☆ Likes: Bungo Stray Dogs, Needy Streamer Overload, Suicide Boy, Sanrio, Sonic, Death Note, Flowers, The rain, cutting

-> ☆ Dislikes: Most people, yelling, animals, eating, when my blades are dull

DNI: I don't think I mind to much who interacts, as long as people don't dm me :P I'm very paranoid about getting weird stuff ＞︿＜ I think anyone under 12 shouldn't be on Tumblr or social media. So, no DNI, I'll just block if I want :P

I'll post things about self h4rm, 3ating disorders, su!cide, or just any of my depressing thoughts or opinions. I'm also a Jirai >:3 So if I act different sometimes, I should be back to normal soon enough :]

I haven't been diagnosed with anything, but I'm semi in the process of getting diagnosed with Autism and SAD (social anxiety disorder). I have asked my therapist if I could have BPD, and he said my symptoms can eventually evolve into BPD :P Trynna get help for it, but idk if its working :/

ANYWAY

Enjoy this blog ^^

Being so depressed you can’t even cut yourself <<<

I wanna be independent because that's how I've been taught to be, but whenever someone starts talking about having a partner or a friend group I get so sick with jealousy

I don't rlly understand why I don't fit in with anyone :/ everyone just becomes boring, or is mean to me, or treats me in a way I don't want. I try to keep an open mind about my friends/people, but I want friends that are decent people. I want to surround myself with good people, because they would be good, and maybe I'd figure out the correct way to live and act around people, but everyone's who's bad has found there way to me ╯︿╰

Idk if it's just me but the thought of having someone cutting me for me sounds so gross.

Like for starters, what if they get there greasy finger oils on it and my blade rusts😒

And what do I do, just...sit there and watch them do it ? Or do I strike up conversation ?!?!? 🧍‍♂️

I js like doing it alone, cause I know exactly how I want it, and I get to be proud of myself for going deeper and getting more blood >:3

Trynna act cool and mysterious at the library knowing damn well I'm just scrolling on my silly tumblr 🧍‍♂️

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