Me Scouring The Internet For Content Abt A Ship I Like

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It sure is something being a teacher this week with every MHA ending-hater being like: "Deku still had to teach for 8 years! He wasted the prime of his life! This is a terrible ending for him!"

Thanks for the support, guys. Feels real good to know my life's work is a fate worse than death!

Luffy, the king of the pirates that you are....

ft. Zoro's earring bc they are in love your honor

(Please ignore how messy the frame is in this, it was a last minute decision I realized I kinda hated but had already committed to)

I hate being the token gay, because my existence is always one that’s celebrated through homophobia.

“You don’t look gay”

“You’re not like other gay people I’ve met”

“You seem normal”

First off, I dress like an ai rendering of a twink and a butch lesbian mashed together, bound with non-binaryness, BC I AM.

And I’m not your starter gay, your token gay, your “cool” gay, I’m just fucking gay.

I’m a lesbian, the big homo, shirtless men make me sad, I frequently yearn over women, I describe my gender as lesbian or just N/A.

Just because YOU🫵, a clueless cishet, couldn’t clock me despite the mullet, baggy clothes and excessive amount of necklaces, (I don’t mean to stereotype but I dress every morning with the intent of letting the world know men aren’t for me) doesn’t mean I’m a palpable gay.

Something I have noticed is that so often in media and in real life, is that we push around this narrative that having a “dark side” or being someone who “you don’t wanna see mad” is a good thing.

If you have a “dark side” you’re dangerous, someone who could hurt others and be cruel, and that makes you strong. That being good in a fight, having the ability to be scary when your angry, those are things that push authority.

I don’t get it.

Why must being benign be seen as a weakness?

Being harmless does not make you fragile.

Violence and strength have been so interwoven to the point people mistake one for the other.

Being violent does not make you strong, and being strong does not mean you have to be violent.

One of the greatest ways to show strength not in a character but in life in general is to choose forgiveness (seriously, like watch ATLA and see how Aang shows great strength by forgiving others instead of lashing out).

Anger is a valid and real emotion that you are allowed to express, but it is not one that should be wielded as a weapon. Anger is a secondary emotion, morphed from pain and sorrow.

Anger is like fire. It’s okay to light a fire, as long as it is safe and contained. You can keep a fire in a fire pit going for as long as you want, just don’t burn a forest.

Do not fear your anger and do not use it to strike fear in others. Being kind does not make you weak, being forgiving does not make you soft.

Generosity, honesty, fragility with your emotions—these can bring you strength. To be open with who you are and how you feel is a tremendous feat.

It takes courage to cry, to ask for help, to forgive.

Know that being loving is not a weakness, understand that forgiveness takes strength.

It’s easy to kill a fly, but it takes effort to capture it and bring it home.

I’m writing more Zolu and if you’re wondering what the vibe is lemme give y’all a sneak peak at my thought process:

I was listening to Roadkill by Searows and looked over to see some of the dead flowers I’ve preserved and I thought “hmm, I feel like Luffy loves others in the same selfish manner in which we preserve flowers: he loves them too much to ever part with them and even in death he would still find beauty and use in their shape.” Also very inspired by a painting I’m making about a crow eating another dead crow on the side of the road (because is there any other greater act of love and mercy one can show on another in a cruel, mangling death by still giving them one last purpose in life?)

So yeah, luffy Pov all abt his view of death, love, devotion, and Zoro

I want this tattooed on my brain NOW

“Those two things can exist at the same time. Like you said, it's all—it's all tangled up together, you and me.”

double page spread for one of my favorite luzo fics of all time, poly philtatos (the most beloved by far) by my good friend - @swordsmans!

I knew I wanted to do a double page spread the second I finished this fic and I drafted abt a dozen ideas before landing on what would ultimately become this. There were so many snippets and moments I wanted to illustrate but I ended up doing more of an abstracted version of the fic as opposed to 1:1 drawings of scenes 

funnily enough while the fic itself is told in zoros pov this spread is framed mostly through luffy’s eyes - his tears literally frame comp for their reunion, the moment he loses zoro, and the centerpiece of the first page which is this weird abstraction of him on the beach seeing zoros corpse-not-a-corpse in the waves just beyond his reach. 

gyro put the crane wives’ never love an anchor on the playlist for this fic which i heavily used as inspiration in picking ornamental things for the spread (the anchor, the fleet of ships by luffy, and the nautical rope splitting the second page). also just like. overall really heartbreaking lyrics guys 

there are smaller elements throughout the spread that are 1:1 references though (all i will say for these is if you know, you know hehe) i wish i had more time to do a lengthier piece for fanart for this fic bc it's one of the few luzo fics that have been rattling around in my brain forever now - once again please please please read poly philtatos if you haven't. gyro is a masterful writer and they deserve all the love! ok byeee

Zolu sketch but it's them as that gay ass art piece The Fall, by Alan Stephen Foster

The Pitt + text posts (2/?)

When talking abt Rin’s and Saes meeting after four years, I don’t see a lot of people talk about what Sae said to Rin about Spain

Sae changed his dream to being the best midfielder, him being the first to use the comment that he was “half-baked” and that Rin didn’t understand what it was like beyond Japan.

Sae is made out to be bitter and cold to Rin, and I agree that what he said to Rin was harsh, it’s clear from the flashbacks that Sae is very protective of Rin, so it wouldn’t make sense for him to switch on a dime.

Sae doesn’t want Rin to have the same dream as him, even saying in response that he should quit if his passion for soccer was reliant on Sae and him being the best.

The impression I got from Sae is that he doesn’t want Rin to follow his path, to live in his shadow because something happened in Spain that changed Sae and he doesn’t want that for Rin. Sae is saying not to follow him, to make his own path, that the one he’s on isn’t one he wants for his brother.

(Think of Itachi to Sasuke it feels like the exact same doomed sibling dynamic)

Sae is pushing Rin away, pushing away his soccer dream bc he doesn’t want him to do it for Sae, to do it in his shadow, because the path he followed isn’t one he should see.

And when we think about why Sae teamed up with Shidou and not Rin, the simplest way I can put it is it’s bc Shidou matched Saes freak. Shidou, for reasons we don’t know yet, is just as fucked as Sae (TRUST, they r the same freak different font)

Anyways….Sae isn’t a complete asshole, I mean yeah, he’s said some rough things to Rin but I think ppl r focusing on the wrong things in the reunion of the two brothers

Either way tho doomed siblings r gonna ruin me