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jinx: rebel or people pleaser?

jinx is dependent on feeling useful to others, so she should be easy to control, but that cant be more further than the truth. jinx is a rebel, but she bases her worth in others' validation and willing to mold and change herself to whatever idealized personality the person she likes prefer.

its like, is the show indecisive on these parts of her character? bcs how could both these traits exist together in one person?

the way i figure, jinx is a people pleaser, and whats unique with her having this trait is that jinx would make great sacrifices and go above and beyond to be useful or to make you happy, but only in ways she understands or finds acceptable

jinx has the need to try to please those around her (specifically the ppl she fixates on) even to the point of willing to shape herself into an idealized mold of their liking, bcs she believes thats a sure way to become closer to them anď not be abandoned. however, she learned that not everything she's asked to do would grant her closeness. following some requests would lead to her becoming more abandoned or less important (vi asking her to stay behind. silco commanding her to 'focus on her gadgetry')

and thats what jinx really wants to be, to be important enough for you. its not really enough for her to feel useful. she wants to matter in your life. furthermore, she wants to be the one who matters in your life the most. if someone else takes that place, she'll do whatever it takes to convince you that she's second to no one. being second might as well mean the same as being abandoned to her.

take for an example, in a setting where jinx joins the firelights and fixates on ekko's validation. you'd think that if ekko asked jinx to do things like make toys for the firelight children, do errands, etc, she would do all of those things to please him. and maybe she would, if it meant becoming important to him.

but no, role-wise the one who is the most important to ekko is scar. would babysitting and tinkering make her more important than scar? if not then at some point jinx wont be happy doing those things and switch to whatever tasks she believes would make her more important than scar even if it means going behind ekko's back. and usually it involves grandiose, over the top methods that no one other than jinx would have the stomach to do, making sure what she does is something only she is capable of contributing

if jinx trusts the things you ask of her will promise her the position as your most relied and important person, she wont find a need to act out on her own and be your little puppet

the thing with jinx though is that her mind always finds a reason to detect mistrust, even when there really isn't any. so an obedient jinx is the same as impossible ajdkdk

thats why jinx's 'people-pleaser' behavior and craving to feel useful is more self-fulfilling than it is self-sacrificng. its why even though she has this trait, it wouldnt magically turn her into a doormat or obedient dog for you and why she's easy to influence but near impossible to control.

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