Sometimes I Just Wanna Run Away

The problem with being ADHD and having trouble reading long, rambling sentences and paragraphs that go on and on is that having ADHD makes you more likely to write in long, rambling sentences and paragraphs that go on and on do you see the problem I am encountering

Walter Benjamin *15. Juli 1892

Rauchen XII

My life basically 

Sometimes

Sometimes I have the feeling that no one could ever understand me. I don't even understand myself sometimes.

My head is filled with stuff but at the same time it's empty. I can't focus. Every time I try to write it down I get lost inside my mind. It's like a jungle. I can't really talk about my thoughts, my worries. Sometimes I don't feel like I could truly trust anyone.

As soon as I'm alone it feels like the darkness is eating me. I feel so lost. Sometimes I wish I could stop thinking, just for once

Sometimes all you need is a really good hug

i wanna make out with him while we watch shitty horror movies 🥺

mlm/nblm only post!

Being alive is weird.

I'm studying Philosophy and History? How did I manage to get here? I'm turning 21 on Tuesday? I never even thought I'd make it past 15?

We're here! We're Queer! We want to go back to bed!

I really hate being alone because sometimes I get stuck in my head. I get lost in my mind. 'cause up there it's like a wicked maze with moving walls built out of my screaming and racing thoughts.

And I don't know if it's too quiet or too loud, if I feel a lot of emotions or nothing at all. Am I in pain or is everything just numb?

So I'm just falling down this downward spiral. And I want to scream. Want to ask for help. But every time I try and open my mouth no sound comes out. All I can do is reach out my hand, hoping you see it and catch me before I arrive at the end.

Down at the bottom, broken, shattered in pieces, dying inside. 'cause honestly I don't know if I can build myself all up again.

I think it is brave and also very sexy of me to continue living