THIS IS TAKING ME OUUUUTTTT

cried about Jude St. Francis today will probably cry about him tomorrow

"The only person who sees Jude for exactly who he is, is Malcolm..." "..and Jude hates him for it, Jude resents him for it.." "..the interventions Malcolm makes in his home."

- Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life Play interview

"Willem's flaw is pretending....." "when you're having sex with someone, you can usually tell when they're not enjoying it.."

(indirect, Hanya's words, yet not in the interview ; "Harold's greatest flaw is not trying hard enough. He has compassion and love for those in his life, but he should have gone further."

"Andy, simply, is a bad doctor.")

"I was raised Catholic," he began. "But you're not now?" the judge asked, frowning. "No," he said. He had worked for years to keep the apology out of his voice when he said this.

Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

“do you think he was happy with me?”

the happy years, pg. 493

lispenard street, pg. 713

lispenard street, pg. 719

yeah “a little life” by hanya yanagihara is controversial or whatever but did you know that “and so i try to be kind to everything i see, and in everything i see, i see him.”

quote that blasted me across the room first time I read it

your card declines at therapy and they bring jude and willem during the happy years in (you can’t save them)

Your card declines at therapy and they bring out Harold’s “in everything I see, I see him” monologue from Lispenard Street II

i just went to see a little life recorded for the cinema and i’m actually so heartbroken!

Jude with cigarette

my roman empire is wondering whether jude st francis would have liked me as a person