I go to sleep to the thought of you. One day we will meet, and I will love you forever. My one and only. My other half. My Muse. My love.
I cried again tonight. I thought I could get through the night but my tears kept on falling. I've lost count. I don't know why I'm like this. Why do you make me like this? Can't you just stay as a fond memory and let me live? Even so, I'll always be yours no matter how many times I try to block you out. I always come back here to write about you.
My la verità.
I’m not scared of loving you; I’m just scared of losing you.
I am going to eat 400-500 cals a day omad diet and keto diet .
then fast for 19-24 hrs .
then repeat everyday.
then I am going to walk 2-3 hours a day .
this should help me lose 2 lbs a day or more .
Thats what happened last time I did this diet .
Endless mornings and endless nights
I wake after they bite i wonder will I ever wake up before daylight
Endless commotion, I'm filled to the brim with emotion
I'm still asleep they have so much devotion
Ruptured vein I'm blood-stained
The truth is like blood under your fingernails
I'm awake.
Cries in degradation you were my separation I don’t know were to go from here.
A new year begins yet nothing has ended.
A new year begins and I’m still in love with you.
It’s beginning to feel like deja vu.
I’m still here were you left me waiting for you to come get me.
Untouched ready for you to devour me.
Undoubtedly I’ll surrender to your touch.
Words just aren’t enough I need to melt in your embrace and never leave your place.
I pierce my tongue through the night
Muffling my tears with my palm firm on my lips
Desperate to be kissed
My racing heart beating out of my chest
It’s starting all over again
I try to be quiet
Excuse myself to the bathroom
Not yet alone the walls echo
I’m tired
Staring blankly at the tiled walls
I slumber to the floor in defeat
I’m inpatient
But I believe one day you’ll come to me
And I’ll come to you
But for now I’ll pray for you
My Muse
At times, I'm allowed to be not okay, and my feelings are as significant as anyone else's. But why do I keep punishing myself for feeling this way?
…..is there an escape? Is there somewhere?
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I can't stop crying. I cry, cry, cry and cry untill my eyes are sore but you're never a bore. So I'll cry till dawn and pray to god on my knees to answer my call. For you, my love. Please, be mine.