kawaiipienerdfreak
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— what was I supposed to do? Throw a fit because of your suspicions? Or perhaps get down on my knees and plead for trust?
anon: you look insanely like a vampire, do you bite your partners during intimacy?
I happened to discover that Asaba Harumasa's name has Turkic roots, and it made me curious to draw him with some ethnic elements.
genshin impact rp are amazing. i honestly can't imagine where else i'd see a romantic trio of kaveh, alhaitham, and lisa
just hear me out-
Alhaitham, but as a reserved yet loving dad to a Wunderkind girl.
He’s the type who’s always buried in his books or lost in thought, but the moment his daughter walks in with a new invention or a question about the universe, he’s all ears. He doesn’t say much, but his quiet pride shines through when he watches her tinker with gadgets or solve problems way beyond her age.
He’s not one for big displays of affection, but he shows his love in small, meaningful ways—like leaving her little notes in her lunchbox with riddles to solve or staying up late to help her debug a complex project, even if he’d never admit it.
To the outside world, he’s the stoic, enigmatic scholar, but at home, he’s just “Dad”—the guy who secretly smiles when his daughter outsmarts him and who’ll always have her back, even if he expresses it in his own understated way.
Dr. Ratio
it’s important to clarify that this is his younger version—around twenty years old. and older one, somewhere between thirty and forty.
(i guess i’ll never settle on a consistent style sigh)
Headcanon on Dr. Ratio’s Past
I’ve been thinking about eventually writing out Dr. Ratio’s full story in a literary way, but here’s a sketch of what’s on my mind right now.
Between earning one doctorate and the next, Ratio was the antithesis of a role model—or rather, an example of what not to do. He had casual sex relationships, but always protected himself. He drank, but never to the point of losing control. He didn’t smoke or do drugs, but he wouldn’t hesitate to inject himself with some newly developed serum.
He’d read the works of great philosophers for his PhD in philosophy, and when he got tired,he rolled up on a chair to the table to dissect a rat for his future doctoral dissertation in medicine. If he grew weary of that, he’d step away to a chalkboard covered in equations, crunching numbers for his PhD in physics—or, if that didn’t work, he’d switch to solving problems for his doctorate in mathematics.
This was a man caught between absolute self-improvement and absolute self-destruction.
What drove him to this? I’ll tell you, but maybe… a little later.
commissions open
hey guys, if my work means something to you: i’m opening up commissions.
this isn’t an easy decision for me, but i’m doing it to raise funds for my treatment. i’ve been diagnosed with a condition that requires ongoing specialized care.
here’s my price list. payments are via boosty.
i’d truly appreciate any support or feedback.
Pirate AU! pt. 3
tw image of death
I’m seriously wondering if it makes sense to create more content for this concept. There are a couple of nuances I’d like to highlight(what awaited him on the ocean floor, how he became the kraken, and how Aventurine reacted upon witnessing the execution of Dr Ratio), but I’m more curious—what questions would you like to see answered about my storyline?
pt.1 pt.2
Pirate AU! pt. 2
Ratio – the terror of pirates made flesh. Something drives him to sink overloaded ships.
Aventurine – henceforth a legendary pirate. A ghost pirate, killed by a terrible catastrophe, slain by the kraken. Slain by Ratio.
However, this was his plan all along: to gain enough power beyond the threshold of death to capture this kraken.
pt.1
Pirate AU!
Still undecided on what role to give Ratio—an esteemed doctor taken hostage, the captain, or a kraken/octopus-mermaid? Each of these would lead to a different storyline and dynamic, but I can’t decide which one to invest my time and energy in.
just remembered that i've never shared these works here. even though they’ve been around for a long time, i still really like them.
I thought I couldn’t be convinced, but I listened to the arguments.
Well, I’m not taking back a single word of mine; sometimes fans are really out of their minds. But one person helped me see Sunday from a different perspective, and that gave me something to think about. Through Zuko. The HoYoverse just really poorly executed what the Avatar writers managed to do, or maybe I just can’t stand the hype.
I'll never believe your tears, Sunday.
edit: i was given a great analogy to zuko from avatar, and now i'm not so critical. thanks everyone for your attention
I want to say this upfront: as a character, Sunday works perfectly fine for me. But I absolutely can’t stand how the fandom obediently swallowed such a stupid retcon of his character. And I can’t stand fandom stripped him of all blame. Time and time again, I see posts like: “Oh, my precious little sunshine! Don’t cry... Oh no, he’s crying in his ultimate! He didn’t deserve this, poor thing!”
And I’m left wondering: what the hell?
What the hell was HoYoverse thinking when they gave us a dictator with a god complex (borderline chūnibyō syndrome) as an antagonist? A character who defended someone who sold children into slavery. Someone who mocked a slave for their origins. Someone who placed himself above the local police and even above the very creator of Penacony. All while chaos reigned under his (and Family’s) rule in Penacony. Within Penacony, everything’s a mess: banditry, alcoholism, shady financial dealings. Criminals hide from the hounds in the Dreamscape, and Sunday defends them, driving the hounds away. Many people work for pennies, losing any chance at a better future. And some have even been dragged back after death, turned into lifeless husks just to serve as local attractions.
Sunday knows how to act righteously, but he chooses to do things his own way instead. That’s his whole arc. He became a god (boss version) for the Dreamscape and felt zero guilt over the fact that Penacony under his rule remained a pit of sin and filth, far from any kind of paradise.
And then, we defeat him. He regrets... but only regrets losing. His remorse isn’t about what he did—it’s about being beaten. He’s ready to do it all over again, just with a different strategy.
So again, what the hell?
Why does HoYoverse give us a character like this (admittedly fascinating because he’s ridiculously stubborn, manipulative, selfish, and unhinged), only to suddenly turn him into a martyr, a lamb, and a tragic victim we’re supposed to feel sorry for? Poor Sunday, who only wanted the best but ended up dooming everyone to suffer. They’re so insistent about making us pity him that it’s disorienting. What’s the point? No one’s going to believe it. He locked his own sister in a cage, justified slavery, carried out vigilante justice, and controlled the fates of millions. No one’s going to believe he’s a victim...
Except they d i d. And that’s what pisses me off the most. People have forgotten that just a year ago, he was the thorn in everyone’s side, deliberately hurting those around him with glee. Now they call him “sunshine,” “poor thing,” “precious baby.” They wipe his tears during his ultimate move, saying he doesn’t deserve to be imprisoned, doesn’t deserve to face the consequences of his actions. Are you all out of your minds?
Why didn’t Kokolia get a chance? Why didn’t Tisok 2 get a chance? (Tisok 2 is from a side quest about a ruler whose memories were erased. In it, we’re shown that she was a tyrant before losing her memory. The NPCs ask us, “Does she deserve redemption?” And no matter what, the NPCs will yell, “No, absolutely not!” Funny. She doesn’t deserve it, but Sunday does?)
The idea that he isn’t to blame is also questionable. He and Robin grew up under the same person’s wing. Robin was constantly told her perspective was wrong, yet did she grow up as a submissive follower? No, she grew into a truly strong person capable of thinking for herself. But Sunday? He basked in the praise for his bad decisions. He’s just an overgrown brat who decided the world is his playground.
So no, I will never believe in his redemption. I will never believe he’s changed. HoYoverse can’t convince me that he’s repented or truly regrets his sins, because as long as he’s free and has done nothing for society, it’s all meaningless.
He will never have a place on my Express. The Express will never be his home. He will never stand among the people who’ve become my family.
I'll never believe your tears, Sunday.
edit: i was given a great analogy to zuko from avatar, and now i'm not so critical. thanks everyone for your attention
I want to say this upfront: as a character, Sunday works perfectly fine for me. But I absolutely can’t stand how the fandom obediently swallowed such a stupid retcon of his character. And I can’t stand fandom stripped him of all blame. Time and time again, I see posts like: “Oh, my precious little sunshine! Don’t cry... Oh no, he’s crying in his ultimate! He didn’t deserve this, poor thing!”
And I’m left wondering: what the hell?
What the hell was HoYoverse thinking when they gave us a dictator with a god complex (borderline chūnibyō syndrome) as an antagonist? A character who defended someone who sold children into slavery. Someone who mocked a slave for their origins. Someone who placed himself above the local police and even above the very creator of Penacony. All while chaos reigned under his (and Family’s) rule in Penacony. Within Penacony, everything’s a mess: banditry, alcoholism, shady financial dealings. Criminals hide from the hounds in the Dreamscape, and Sunday defends them, driving the hounds away. Many people work for pennies, losing any chance at a better future. And some have even been dragged back after death, turned into lifeless husks just to serve as local attractions.
Sunday knows how to act righteously, but he chooses to do things his own way instead. That’s his whole arc. He became a god (boss version) for the Dreamscape and felt zero guilt over the fact that Penacony under his rule remained a pit of sin and filth, far from any kind of paradise.
And then, we defeat him. He regrets... but only regrets losing. His remorse isn’t about what he did—it’s about being beaten. He’s ready to do it all over again, just with a different strategy.
So again, what the hell?
Why does HoYoverse give us a character like this (admittedly fascinating because he’s ridiculously stubborn, manipulative, selfish, and unhinged), only to suddenly turn him into a martyr, a lamb, and a tragic victim we’re supposed to feel sorry for? Poor Sunday, who only wanted the best but ended up dooming everyone to suffer. They’re so insistent about making us pity him that it’s disorienting. What’s the point? No one’s going to believe it. He locked his own sister in a cage, justified slavery, carried out vigilante justice, and controlled the fates of millions. No one’s going to believe he’s a victim...
Except they d i d. And that’s what pisses me off the most. People have forgotten that just a year ago, he was the thorn in everyone’s side, deliberately hurting those around him with glee. Now they call him “sunshine,” “poor thing,” “precious baby.” They wipe his tears during his ultimate move, saying he doesn’t deserve to be imprisoned, doesn’t deserve to face the consequences of his actions. Are you all out of your minds?
Why didn’t Kokolia get a chance? Why didn’t Tisok 2 get a chance? (Tisok 2 is from a side quest about a ruler whose memories were erased. In it, we’re shown that she was a tyrant before losing her memory. The NPCs ask us, “Does she deserve redemption?” And no matter what, the NPCs will yell, “No, absolutely not!” Funny. She doesn’t deserve it, but Sunday does?)
The idea that he isn’t to blame is also questionable. He and Robin grew up under the same person’s wing. Robin was constantly told her perspective was wrong, yet did she grow up as a submissive follower? No, she grew into a truly strong person capable of thinking for herself. But Sunday? He basked in the praise for his bad decisions. He’s just an overgrown brat who decided the world is his playground.
So no, I will never believe in his redemption. I will never believe he’s changed. HoYoverse can’t convince me that he’s repented or truly regrets his sins, because as long as he’s free and has done nothing for society, it’s all meaningless.
He will never have a place on my Express. The Express will never be his home. He will never stand among the people who’ve become my family.
Reverse AU Dr. Ratio and Aventurine p.5
He’s whispering to the girl sitting on his lap, purring in her ear, and she laughs.
In front of them, on their knees, are the subordinates who have failed. He asks her:
— How should those who disobeyed the order be punished?
Feeling the power in her hands from a man like him, she replies playfully:
— Kill them!
He smirks, the men sweat and tremble. Amethyst purrs in her ear, asking if she will obey his orders. She smiles with glossy lips and nods. She touches his cheek with lipstick to reach ear, caressing the taut fabric across his crotch with her sharp-nailed fingers and whispers:
— Every single one.
Taking her firmly under the thigh, he kisses her neck, under her jaw. He slips his hand behind back and pulls out a gun. A vintage revolver. He thrusts it straight into her adorable doll hands.
Amethyst breathes into her cheek, speaking and kissing her skin with his words:
— Then kill them.
He hugs her tightly by the thigh, causing her to bend under his fingers like one of the famous statues. He looks at her as if a prayer is written on her cheek.
— That’s an order.
Reverse AU Dr. Ratio and Aventurine p.4
Boss Form of Ratio
Kakawasha understandably considers him a peacock, just like many of you probably do. But in truth, he’s much closer to owls, as he is in the canon.
His stone transforms his body far more dramatically than Aventurine’s did. Amethyst stretches into a humanoid bird form (slightly smaller than the Sunday!boss), like something from ancient mythical epics. He wears lavish feathered sleeves, a cloak of golden wings, and shoulder armor reminiscent of an owl’s plumage. Around his neck, feathers form a majestic collar, framing his head-marble-bust. His body is gray-blue, like marble, or like skin in the rigor mortis stage. Then there is the clothing meant to cover that which couldn’t be shown in the game...
Clawed hands. Elongated legs with twisted feet.
my pride
His abilities during the boss fight:
Talons of Fate – Sweeping, eager strikes with his clawed hands. Deals blood loss damage.
Vertigo of Knowledge – Causes dizziness for the team, making them forget how to use their basic attack, enhanced abilities, or ultimates. Alternatively, they may simply skip a turn.
The Tower of Aether – A group attack where he collapses a towering structure onto his enemies.
Skyward Stalemate – He can "place" a tower on a single character, as though putting them in checkmate on a chessboard.
His special attack:
He unnaturally curves his body. Just as owls flare their feathers when threatened, he spreads all his bird-like elements into a threatening pose. The countdown begins until his head twists 180 degrees downward.
He then declares:
"Ignorance......it is darkness."
And the battlefield is plunged into impenetrable darkness. There’s a 30% chance that an attack will hit Amethyst with +20% attack power; all other attacks miss (either hitting an ally or striking nothing).
Amethyst then surges from the darkness with his burning, fiery eyes and an unnerving smile, swinging his claws wildly.
Reverse AU Dr. Ratio and Aventurine p.3
first meeting
Thud. Crack. Clack-clack-clack.
The ball rolls off the cue's strike so smoothly it might as well be pulled by a string. It crashes into the neatly arranged formation of other balls, scattering them in every direction. Amethyst enjoys setting up challenges for himself in the game — driving balls into nearly impossible positions, forcing himself to strategize and strain for the next shot.
But this time, the balls don’t stop rolling. One by one, all fifteen scatter perfectly into the pockets, leaving the cue ball, the first ball — untouched in the center of the table.
At that very moment, a knock sounds at the door. Faceless men in plaster bust masks step aside to admit two figures: a similarly faceless servant and another man.
Reverse AU Dr. Ratio and Aventurine p.2
Honkai: Star Rail
In this au, Dr. Ratio is now known by the stone pseudonym Amethyst. He joined the Interastral Peace Corporation relatively recently, driven there by the most harrowing disappointment—in himself and in the world he once swore to protect. But spare yourself any drama: Ratio has transformed into a truly calculating, selfish monster with no intention of reform or redemption.
Once a scholar with eight doctoral degrees, he came to a grim realization: his actions brought no light to the world. Humanity remained ignorant and base, as if the old society had simply been given new settings to play in. Rejected by both people and the Aeons, he abandoned his life's work. It was during this downward spiral that Diamond found him.
From that moment on, no one dared to call him Dr. Veritas Ratio again. His name became Amethyst, and may the Aeons help anyone who dares to make that mistake. For his goals, he will do anything—and then some.
"Can I do the right thing For the wrong reason?" – Hellfire by The Fever 333 (the entire song fits him perfectly in this AU).
Like every Interastral Peace Corporation member, he helps those who come to them after successful deals and punishes those who fail to fulfill their end of the bargain. His "monstrosity" in this universe lies in his ruthless sense of justice—one that people despise because, naturally, people hate paying their debts.
And yet, there are families who deeply value and respect him—not as Dr. Ratio, but as Amethyst. He often calls them to check in, like some kind-of-wealthy-uncle keeping tabs on his extended family.
still thinking about the final look of it.
Reverse AU Dr. Ratio and Aventurine p.1
Honkai: Star Rail
Kakawasha is a Synogian slave who became a scholar in the Guild of Erudites after a successful deal with Yashma. You could say his past remained largely unchanged, except for one key difference: he chose to study his own luck "under a microscope" and proposed the idea that luck is not merely a series of fortunate coincidences but something far more substantial.
Dr. Kakawasha hasn't achieved the same level of success as Ratio in the canon, but he is still respected within certain niche circles. His focus lies in abstract sciences, which, due to their specific nature, are in little demand. Nevertheless, Yashma believes that this "child" of hers will one day bring her personal good fortune. As such, she is fiercely protective of him, just as she is with all her "children."
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