Things Worse Than Death

Things worse than death

Summary: Izuku takes Kacchan up on his advice and takes a swan dive off the roof.

Warnings: References to suicide, if that’s triggering I wouldn’t read :)

Izuku stood above his own grave with a strange sense of apathy. It wasn’t to say he didn’t care that he was dead…it was the opposite in all honesty. It was his own fault. He took Katsuki’s advice. All Might left him there. What else was he supposed to do when presented the opportunity? That was how he ended up wandering the graveyard he had been buried in.

He felt a strong sense of guilt now, but the relief of responsibilities and ageing was incomparable to anything in his life. But so was the lack of drive. He had nothing to fight for anymore. Most of all, he missed his mother.

He saw her having to confirm that the body someone had reported was his own, seeing his bloody and mangled form contorted into all sorts of angles that they weren’t supposed to be. He only wished to hold her one last time, to apologise for everything he had put her through but she could finally live in peace, without being harrassed by anyone everytime they walked out of the house together. The stares and whispers would stop now that she didn’t have a child with red targets masking as shoes tugging on her hand. Most of all she could be friends with the Bakugou's again. He wasn’t putting pressure on her to stay away for his own sake. He had seen Mitsuki visit her at the scene and afterwards, comforting his mothers gut wrenching sobs in a way that he now couldn’t.

He was startled out of his reminiscing by the crunch of gravel beneath someone's feet, causing him to glance up. It was Kacchan.

In his hand was a bouquet, an array of lotus flowers, lavender and roses. It was a strange amalgamation and was expecting his ex best friend to walk straight past his grave and continue further into the cemetery. But he didn’t. He sat directly in front of Izuku and started speaking.

“I’m sorry I didn’t go to your funeral…my mom was there I know, I just…I couldn’t bring myself to see what happened. What I caused. I know it’s too late now to fix anything, but for what it’s worth…I miss you Izuku.”

It felt as though he was talking to the void. Izuku wanted to hold him and forgive him and scream at him all at the same time.

“I fucked up so badly. I was so insecure I pushed it all onto you. You were the only one of those extras who actually cared. I should never have abandoned you. And now this is all my fault. I’m so sorry Izuku…”

As much as the ghost wanted tears to gather in his eyes, they wouldn’t. The familiar burning sensation behind his eyes came but the blurring of his eyes as a film of tears should cover them never did. He missed crying. He and his mother were connected through the famous ‘Midoriya tears’ as Auntie Mitsuki used to joke. But now that was dead and gone, along with him.

“Izuku. It feels strange to call you that now. I called you Deku for so long. God I’m so sorry Izu, if I had realised sooner…if I had done things differently maybe you’d still be here. You could get all the support items you could want…we could’ve been a team, pro heroes together…like we always dreamed when we were kids.”

It was gut wrenching to see the once arrogant and strong willed person that Katsuki once was pour his heart out. His emotions were normally concealed under indifference and agitation, it was unnerving to see him so vulnerable, so open. Izuku did the only thing he knew how to do. He attempted to wrap his arms around him in a cold embrace.

“It’s okay Kacchan. It was my own fault. Don’t blame yourself…I would never have been able to become a hero, go on with your life. Forget about the useless Deku who held you back. Be the best hero you can be for the both of us.”

Bakugou seemed to shiver slightly at the touch and glance up, straight through him, closing his eyes and letting the tears fall was strange. The old Katsuki would never allow such weakness to show.

“It’s getting cold so I should probably head off soon, my therapist said that sitting at your grave and talking to you might help me. It feels like you’re actually here, Zuku. I know it’s probably my mind playing tricks on me, but please, if you’re there…I’m so sorry. I don’t deserve to be a hero for what I did to you. I wish there was a way to take it all back, to make everything right again. You were always my Zuku, you were the only person in that shitty middle school who would’ve given a shit about me if my quirk wasn’t powerful, and I became one of them. I- I should’ve seen what was happening. I’m so sorry Izu.”

“Kacchan…I AM here, I need you to see me and hear me! I forgive you! It was my choice, a stupid one and I regret it! I want to be back with you! We could be heroes together. I’m so sorry I was the one who left…”

The burning sensation was mack and if he squeezed his eyes shut tightly enough he could imagine rivers of tears that would never come falling. He tearlessly sobbed for what could have been and what he lost and now what was found, even if it was too late.

“It feels like your arms are around me right now, god, I wish they actually were, you were always cold though, you and your scrawny ass was always cold…I remember when we were kids I’d always give you my scarf when it was cold. I miss you so much Zuku.”

“I am hugging you! I’m here! I miss you too! I’m so sorry.”

“I should get going…More training for UA…I’ve practically lived at the gym since…Ya know. I love you Izuku, I’ll be back to visit soon I promise.”

Izuku smiled softly, patting the spiky hair and giving him a kiss on the cheek. “I love you Kacchan. I’ll be here waiting for you.” The smile turned bitter as he watched his best friend walk away from him, the only thing he left was the flowers that sat atop his grave. “Be a good hero for me.”

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jasper-lily

5 years ago

Our two favourite Asgardians gender swapped https://www.instagram.com/p/B-2Sv1xhyau/?igshid=185lzhu21spma

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2 years ago

Sasuke Sarutobi NSFW headcanons

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Sasuke is a complete sweetheart overall. Big spoon vibes. Would shower any skin he can reach with small kisses and praise you for how well you did.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His favourite body part of himself is his abs honestly. It may seem a bit shallow but it shows the strength he’s gained in this era and how he can protect you. Plus you think they’re hot

His favourite body part on you would be your collar bones. Just seeing them littered with bite marks and hickies is a massive turn on, and if they’re not marked up they soon will be.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Prefers to cum on your back or tits. Just seeing you covered in it is so attractive to him. Especially if you put some on your fingers and lick it off-

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Really wants to gag you and tease you. Also thinks getting walked in on would be hot.

“What’s all that noise for now huh? I put this gag in so you’d be quiet, baby. You want everyone in Kasugayama to hear you huh?”

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Not too experienced but oh my god he figures it out quick. Every night he methodically goes through every pleasure point he knows of and teases you til your begging for him to ‘please touch me Sasuke, please, I need it’

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

He loves when you ride him, a bit basic, but him having to stop himself from cumming instantly when he sees your tits bouncing while you’re clenched around his dick.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

We all know he’s a nerd, would start off serious but will crack jokes if he finds a good opportunity. 100% will be some that’s what she said jokes

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He doesn’t really do much, the lack of experience means that he never really felt the need. Plus the equipment for shaving during the era was a little more risky than a disposable razor-

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

The first few times he’s definitely romantic as anything, he wants to make you feel as good as possible in any way he can but if you prefer it a bit on the spicier side he is more than willing

“You fucking slut, was my dick not good enough before? You’ve got to have my hand around your throat don’t you.”

I stand by the fact that he is a hard dom in the moment but soft Dom anywhere else.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Whenever he’s horny and you’re not around. Or he’d find you along with the nearest semi private place. He’s used to doing it himself so he will if he has to but you ruined masturbation for him since he knows he has you waiting for him later.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Degradation 100%. The sweetest and softest man out there would come up with the filthiest names for you. Cock drunk slut, filthy whore and my pretty needy slut just to name a few of his favourites

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Anywhere he can with a few exceptions. For all he is a private man, when he’s horny, he needs you right now. He, again, enjoys the thrill of being caught so anywhere kinda public is still fair game.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

It doesn’t take much to make him horny, but he does love it when you wear perfume since he’s so sensitive to smells. Also when you look innocent, he just sees you and instantly thinks how cute you’d look while getting railed or bouncing on his cock.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Not into anything like food play, just not his vibe. His scientist brain doesn’t allow him to ignore the hygiene issues.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Prefers giving but doesn’t mind receiving occasionally. When he’s giving he would 100% continue till you’re gripping his hair tightly and begging him to stop or keep going till you pass out. Receiving on the other hand would start gentle but always ends with him fucking your face.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Fast and rough for definite. He can be slow and sensual if the mood is right but when he’s horny he needs you.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He loves them, anytime, anywhere, if he needs you he’ll drag you to the nearest unused corridor or storage room and fucking rail you. Sometimes he just wants to taste you though, so you end up with him on his knees in front of you. If he’s feeling particularly mean he won’t let you cum, leaving you needy for him all day.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He’s always down to experiment, he studies science and he knows that for the best results, all variables must be tested. So he’s basically down for anything you suggest

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He normally aims for 3 rounds but if he's teased you all day you both go longer just to satisfy the neediness that had dragged throughout the day.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He tends to use toys on you rather than himself, especially in the future. He absolutely adores seeing the way your eyes glass over when he has his fingers in you and he runs a vibrator on your clit

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He’s definitely the biggest tease. The way you get desperate for him is adorable according to him but enjoys getting teased too but either leads to you both trying to outcompete each other till he drags you somewhere for a quickie

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He is relatively quiet compared to the other warlords but doesn’t mean he isn’t using his mouth. He generally tries to muffle his groans by biting and giving you hickeys.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Kinda wants to fuck you on Kenshins futon but knows the false god would probably find out and actually try to kill him.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

He has a dick, what else were you expecting?

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Very fucking high. His stress has to be dealt with in some way, I mean Kenshins constant assaults have gotta be taxing so he ends up railing you instead killing his boss

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He will normally stay awake until you fall asleep first because he wants to make sure you’re satisfied and comfortable until he himself can rest