Billy Hargrove X Reader Toxic Relationship!

Tears for the man I love

*mid afternoon I felt a sense of sadness for my love,he has been experiencing chest pain and pain In his arm. As I sit on the bed I look out the window and cry softly and I do not notice him standing there until he reaches out his hand, I welp out in fear and turn with tears in my eyes and the pain I see in his eyes breaks my heart my body just goes weak and I sob and grip his shirt and he slowly rubs my back and mumbles lightly * what is it my sweet girl? Why are you upset? I’m here shhh....* he hums lightly and kiss the top of my head. I sob and feel his arms wrap safely around me * talk to me * he says in a worried tone, I look up and breath heavy * you have been in pain and I’m scared * he realizes and tilts his head * you know I take medicine to help it baby don’t worry * I cry * b..b..but to see you laying there in pain just crushes me, I want to help you * he kiss me lightly * as long as you hold my hand it will help me through it all please understand that, don’t cry please * he moves his thumb to wipe my tears and kiss my forehead * I love you please just stay with me *i look up and rest my hand on his leg * I love you too, I’m not going anywhere I want you and only you please *he looks down and gives me the most caring smile ever my heart melts and all my worry is washed away in secs and I whisper * I love you techno” he lean forward and kisses me deeply, rubbing my back and holds my leg up. I giggle and he wipes my face gently “ come on darling, you know what I always say” he gets close to my ear and whisper in his deep velvet voice “technoblade never dies” i laugh lightly and groan hiding my face in his chest “ this is seriously beloved” he chuckles leaning his head back, his long pink hair moves over his shoulders and out of his face as he laughs “ I’m being serious beloved, have faith in the blood god “ I look up at him in awe at the very man who is suffering not only mental but physical how could be still be so confident and loving and brave. I love him more then anything and not even illness could kill a man like him. He notices my stare and puts his hand behind my neck and rests his forehead on mine, his beautiful hair tickles my cheeks as his electric red eyes stare into my soul “ we’ve been through hell y/n, we’ve fought wars and built a nation along with burn a nation, I’m not giving up so why should you my love” I close my eyes feeling ashamed for doubt my love “ I worry beloved, i fear loosing you” he cups my cheek bringing me closer “ we live in peace beloved our moments will be together and whatever destiny decides. We will be together “ he brings my hand up showing our rings and he kisses my ring “ till death do us part beloved” I feel tears fill my eyes and I wrap my arms around his neck and cry lightly “ till death do us part my love” he gently rubs my back pulling me closer and kisses my head as the sun stars to fall. That night the stars shine a bit brighter. Techno took me outside the cabin we sit on the stairs and I lean on his shoulders as he points and tells me about the Constellations and old Greek gods. I look over seeing a sparkle in his eyes, in his soul. He was beyond a man and I feared nothing. Faith is all we needed. I smile getting closer to him “ I love you techno “ he laughs lightly “ I love you most beloved”.

Techno x reader

(Warning:detailed birth)

You squat down as you feel your lower half burn, sweat and blood was all you could smell. You whimpered as techno holds you close, his chest bare and hair in a messy state. He holds one hand on your inner thigh as you rested your head on his chest and had your arms around his mind you, he’s 6,7 so your basically resting your head on his stomach. “ your doing so good” he kissed your head and back during the time you both waiting for the midwife . You cry lightly as you stay close to him and mumble “ if you ever get…” you groan “ if you ever get me pregnant again ima kill you” he chuckles lightly holding you closer and hums “ forgive me my love” your leg twitches slightly and you lean ur head back. When the midwife showed up she tried to get you to move but you glared and held onto Techno . He reads you like a book “ she’s fine like this please just supervise” the women nods and bows only moving to the side as techno speaks lightly and your child slowly moves. “It hurts “ you cry out, he rubs his fingers down your back checking down there “ I know, I know your almost there” as the hours passed techno becomes calm like calm. He was so gentle. He had pillows replace his spot as he placed a heated rags over your belly. He had a rag and water and gently cleaned your areas along with your legs. Many minutes later your father philza well known for helping with old ancient medicines and of course birth,he sends away the midwife. He walks in only making eye contact and bows. He comes closer “ how are you doing my dear” you could old muster a slight grin as your body racked with pain. He only called you that when he really cared. He looks to Techno who tells him everything. You watch him move through the room. Gently pressing on your womb or hips or places on your back which felt like heaven as he released the pressure on your body. Techno moves to your side and you finally get a break “ you would think I’m having twins with the way he’s acting” Techno chuckles “ don’t speak just rest” when the time was coming Philza sat between your legs. You look to your dad who tried to keep a brave face but you could tell it all broke him seeing his little girl in pain. He gently moves your legs and something in your mind clicks and you look to him and he smiles. He moves one finger stretching you a little more which hurt but you could feel the baby moving. You gasp gripping his arm “ t…t..their moving” both men smile at your words. Philz smiles “ now give them a push “ you breath deeply and then start to push as hard as you can ending with a scream as you breath heavy “ good girl y/n good girl” techno kisses your hand and smiles “ you got this” you breath and do as your father says again and again. Your father lets out a gasp just like Techno when the baby head comes through. You on the other hand scream feeling the pressure from their shoulders. Philz speaks softly glaring at Techno “ gently y/n gently. Their almost here” you push a little as Philz guides the baby out. You gasp falling into Techno arms as he and Philz laugh out in excitement “ THEIR HERE” you smile and see Philz holding the infant. You lay your head back and breath lightly as Philz moves the umbilical cord and clips it. He looks to Techno to cut the cord and he smiles moving to cut it. “ is it a boy or girl “ you meet Techno eyes and he smiles “ boy” Philz lays the infant on your chest and right on cue a wail is heard. Both Techno and Philz help dress you probably. Your father comes closer, they look at you in awe. You see your pastel pink hair thick on their head and floppy ears which made you laugh a little, their skin was so soft in a fur kinda way just like their father. You cried suddenly which made Techno. Philz smiled “ she’s overwhelmed with love, give her a moment “ you look to Techno who has an arm over you shoulder and smile at you. You pout “ this is our baby “ he kisses your head. That night they both stayed around you, you look over seeing the sky lighten up and smile “ it’s almost morning” everyone slept near you and you never felt more safe.

Forever home hidden in the cold

You go through the snow and shiver cupping you pregnant belly and huff, you look up seeing light feeling a sense of hope. You breath heavy feeling the cold air start to Suffocate you. You feet are next to frozen, you fingers are next to broken and bleeding from the cold. You get closer and closer crying out for help then feel your vision blur as you fall.

Techno POV

I sit by the fire completely infested in the book when I hear a low cry for help confused, I set my book down grabbing my sword moving to the door, I look out the door over the crystal white snow. My eyes fall on to a figure laying in the snow. I panic calling to Philz as he comes rushing out. I rush over turning seeing the woman. I lift her up seeing her swollen belly, I waste no time bring her in and close to the fire. Philza rushes in “ what’s wrong” he says in a panic. I only point going into my chests and grabbing blankets and food. He answers with a low “oh” moving to the woman, he puts his hand on neck “ her pulse is weak, we gotta hurry”. I rush over removing her now wet coat and gently get her cloths off just focusing on her health and the babies health. Philza helps moving her to the couch and lay covers over her body. I sigh sitting down “ how could she of gotten all the way down here” Philz gently puts her hair up and shrugs looking to me “ ig we’ll have to ask when she wakes up” I only nod moving to wrap her frost bitten fingers, we gently pour potions down her throat seeing her color return made us feel a bit more relax. It’s early morning philza has left and I hear a short sob, I get up walking out. I see her up with the blanket wrapped around her and stands up. “ hey it’s okay” she turns quickly as tears run down her eyes. She steps back and grips the blanket “ w..w..who are you” I lift my hands in surrender and step closer “ my name is techno, I found you in the snow please relax, your with child and I know stress isn’t good” she looks around and cups her belly and cries lightly coming closer “ thank you,thank you” I lean down putting my hand on her bare shoulder “ would you like to eat “ she only nods as I move towards the kitchen. “ where are my clothes” I look over “ they were wet I’m sorry, I just didn’t want you to lay down wet and cold. Their on the chest over their” I glance back seeing her move towards them, I look away when the blank drops. “ can I turn around now “ a soft yes leaves her lips, I turn seeing her sit on the couch, her brows are downwards. She shifts in her seat “ are you uncomfortable “ she looks up “ yes, he keeps moving “ I smile “ it’s a boy “ she nods shyly, I hand her the food moving more pillows she sighs in relief looking up. “ my name is y/n “ I smile at her name and sit down “ how did you end up in the snow” she looks away “ I was in trouble and so I ran into the wrong portal and they broke the portal, I walked until I saw your cabin” I rub her knee “ don’t worry your safe now” she gives me a gentle smile. For the next couple days we nurse her back to health, she helps the best she can. I would prefer her to just sit down, she worries me with the child but she insists on helping.

Nobody POV

By the third week techno came up with every excuse in the book to keep you their first it was your feet aren’t healed then it was bc of the weather then last but not least, he insisted you stay until the baby is born which could be any minute. Techno wasn’t good at confession but he loved you. Everything he knew or learned he adored about you, he wanted to be the father of the unborn child way before you ever confessed that the baby father was not in the picture. He knew he would get attached but didn’t care. He go to the moon and back just for you. But nothing compares to the night he confessed to you. You followed him outside, he held your hand helping you sit by him, you smile leaning closer to him “ you said you needed to tell me something” he rubs his hands together nervously clearing his throat. You till your head looking up at the shy piglet hybrid. “ I’m not really good at this but I really like you” you go speechless and he panics “ I mean if you don’t feel the same that’s fine” he starts to ramble and you laugh pulling him down kissing his cheek gently “ I like you too” he’s eyes glow as he gently hugs you and cups your cheek kissing your forehead. Which you thought that be the only time you see them glow until you went into labor, it was late and techno refused to let you out of his sight. You were cuddled up on his chest when a sharp pain hit your lower abdomen, you groan pulling away a little, techno lifts his head “ what’s wrong beloved” you place pressure on your hips and sit up lightly, he wraps his arm around your waist “ talk to me love” you groan and lean on his chest “ I’m getting a sharp pain in my hips” he gently moves his hands over the spots then you gasp gripping his arm, as your water breaks. You panic and he kisses the side of your head rubbing your back “ stay calm remember stay calm” he does the breathing with you gently rubbing your thighs as you lay back. Sweat starts to form on your body as you feel your body telling you to push “ I need to push techno” he knew it was serious when you used his name “ only push when you get a contraction” you nod crying out pushing when you feel it, he smiles rubbing your knee. “ you got this, look at you doing so well “ you lean your head back screaming out when the baby crowns “ right their love, right their and you can meet your son” you push one last time, a low whimper is heard before a cry. Your son wiggles in technos hands crying out. Techno just looks at the infant with so much love. You laugh lightly breathing heavy and lean your head back “ he’s here beloved he’s here” techno looks up just letting tears run down his face as you start to cry too, he gently wipes the infant handing him to you. You look up seeing technos eyes glow as he watches your son move his arms and legs on your chest. “ he’s amazing “ techno comes closer and you smile “ he’s ours “ techno looks up shocked “ your serious “ you only nod and he kisses you deeply after that day you were never ever leaving.

Sapnap x son reader

Sapnap (teen father) x son reader

Sapnap was in class when he got the news of his son at first he thought it was a sick joke until, the girl brought you in. He was so angry, He knew zip about babies but the way you were being held and treated pissed him off, the mother’s parents didn’t want nothing to do with you and the way you looked broke him. he didn’t even think before taking you away from them. his parents were livid and he got kicked out but dreams family was extremely supportive and helpful to him. The first time he held you, he just was so amazed by you, you were so tiny but definitely him, your hair was like his and the little noises you made always made him and dream “awe” at you but it broke his heart seeing your conditions, he had to save tons of money and ask dreams parents to help get you to doctors appointments and medicines, you were extremely skinny and your color was sickly, he feared going to bed at night in fear of you not being alive the next day but after a month you got your color back and we’re chubby like all babies should be, he fell in love with you all over again but around that time He still went to school but dropped other activities hoping to be able to take care of you so he started working even tho dreams parents insisted he should just focus on school and he worked hard for you. At night he would have you in his arms, after a long day of work and just kiss your little cheek and rub your little belly as you smiled at him and cooed at your dad, rolling over which made him laugh as you pull at the strings on his hoodie, he smiles pulling them away “ aww come on bud, you can’t eat that” you pout as he gently lifts you up, moving to the door. He opens it moving to the kitchen to find you a bottle, he gently laid you on his chest as he moves grabbing a bottle, you giggled seeing dreams. Sapnap laughs at your giggle “ what did I do bud, why you laughing” you focus back on your dad and pull at his ear and lip “ come on buddy, I need those” he shakes the bottle as dream walks in, you smile big at the blond. Dream was like your second father, he loved you so much and cared for you like you were his own, him a sapnap have been friends for years so adding you to the equation wasn’t a big impacted, dream even started working. They wanted you to have a good life no matter what. He turns your body lifting the bottle to your lips “ come on” you grab ahold of the bottle as dream smiles “ he keeping you up “ sapnap lightly rocks you and hums “ a little but he slept the whole day your mom told me” sapnap glares at dream, dream holds up his hands “ he looked so relaxed this afternoon can you blame me” sapnap hums “ your such a sucker for him “ dream laughs “ coming from his dad, I beg to differ” you look between the two and grip sapnap shirt, getting his attention “ don’t listen to him y/n, he’s bluffing” dream laughs moving forward holding your little hand, moving his thumb over your little knuckles “ goodnight y/n” he smiles walking off. Sapnap cleans the bottle and leads you to the room, he gently grabs your orange blanket putting it to the side, he lays you down gently “ let’s take a bath bud, maybe you’ll sleep better with one” he goes to the bathroom filling the tub, his back ached and his feet hurt but he knew he was working towards something good for you and him. He comes back finding you sitting up holing you little blanket close, sapnap smiles lifting you up places blueberries on your cheek and tummy, you scream out and laugh causing him to loose it,moving you to the tub with him, you lay on his bear chest as he leans his head back, gently rubbing your back and hums “ I love you y/n” he brings you up more kissing your chubby cheek and kisses your tummy and laughs when your little legs wiggle. He gently pours the water over your back messaging body wash into your soft skin and you let out a little noise relaxing on his chest “ it that good y/n” he smiles to himself, he could believe it your only one and he just graduated high school, but out of everything you were the best gift life could of given him. He adored you and only you.

(I hope you like it)

Mini crown

Your around three and a complete busy body but nobody nobody loved you more then daddy techno. You crawl over holding your little toy in your mouth and sit down Looking way up at the 6,7 piglet and let out a happy giggle pulling technos attention to you “ hi little one, aren’t you busy today” he bends down picking you up with no problems and you laugh loudly when he blows blueberries into your neck and tickles your little stomach a laugh rumbles through his chest as you grip his hair and lean your head back “ no baba” you scream. He laughs kissing your little cheek as you drop your toy and place your small hand on his face and nose complete infested in your dads face. Then a loud bang and yelling comes from outside “ TECHNOBLADE SURRENDER NOW OR DIE” techno rushes upstairs giving you a bottle and hides you “ shh shh my love I’ll be back I promise “ he kisses your head as you whimper reaching for him “ baba” your eyes water as you try to crawl out the basket then you hear the door close and know he left, you sit down holding your toy and cry out “ BABA”. A couple minutes pass and you whimper and then hear the door open and meet your distress grandfather philza picks you up gently rocking you “ it’s okay I’m sorry “ he holds you close and you grip his shirt and whimpering “ baba, baba “ you cry out and he rubs your back gently “ he’s coming it’s okay he’s coming”. Philza stays with you, he puts you down and you crawl towards the door and whimper “ baba” philza heart breaks seeing you so upset. Hours passed and you lay down on the couch as philza reads to you the door opens and techno looks around frantically then looks at you he sighs in relief, blood rests on his cloths and face. He picks you up crying lightly placing kisses all over your face, you scream wrapping your arms around his neck “BABA” he smiles and looks to philza “ thank you” philza smiles patting his back “ anytime mate “ philza leaves and techno holds you close taking you upstairs and you whimper holding onto him tightly as he kisses your cheek and head “ I’m here, I’m here “ you look up with watery eyes and he’s heart just melts seeing his little girl miss him, he fills the tub and you rests on his chest as he gets into the tub rubbing your back lightly putting soap on you and placing small kisses in your face and one on your nose “ I know love I’m sorry” you whimper not letting go at all. After the bath, he gets you in your little night gown and brushes you hair and smile looking at the mirror up at your father “baba” he looks to the mirror smiling big seeing your face light up “ you ready for bed, you giggle lightly as he picks you up and walks towards the bed, he lifts the covers having you crawl to the side, he lays down and you crawl over resting on his chest “ good night my sweet girl”.

🍄My sweet mushrooms boy🍄

You giggle watching him sit down, his fingers twirl lightly as little red mushrooms grow up and twirl with his powers, you reach out and once you touch one it shrinks right back down into a little mushroom which makes you laugh more, he closes his hand as all the mushrooms go back to normal, he smiles standing up “ come on darling” you take his hand and he leads you to a large part of the woods with taller trees the sun peeks through the leafs like it’s interested in what he plans to do next, I smile looking at him seeing his glasses rest on top of his head his baby blue sweater has stains on the sleeves and elbows from dirt, his jeans ripped and dirty shoes but even then he was the cutest thing you ever seen, birds flew over head along with squirrels spazzing out when we walk to close we laugh at them. We reach the edge of the woods pass the trees is a field full of flowers with a pond towards the other side, there were so many colors and you look to George “ beloved it’s beautiful” he smiles “ watch this” he bends down and you sit by him, he moves his hands you can see the green magic move out of his hands as he picks a couple flowers and twirls them together, even tho he’s done many things with his powers it always surprised you ever time. He rest it in his hands and there say a flower crown with blue flowers, he rests it on your head kissing your cheek and laughs “ you like it “ you giggle jumping at him kissing him deeply and cup his cheeks, he smiles softly and pulls you toward the field, you guys lay in the middle, he reaches his hand up bc you do too you feel the wind rush through your fingers then you look over finding his nose slightly pink with a blush as the wind nips his pale cheeks, he light brown eyes hold more colors then the rainbow itself, he was beautiful true art. He was nature. You smile rolling over kissing his nose and lips softly as he wraps his arms around you, you cup his cheeks then look to the pond, you giggle getting up. George looks confused as you pull your dress off and panties, his jaw drops as you go running into the pond splashing, you laugh loudly as he gets up doing the same jumping in with you. You both emerge from the water laughing and splashing, you laugh moving closer wrapping your arms around his neck, his arm rest around your waist then a hand on your butt. You both kiss slowly moving your fingers through his hair and hum lightly in the kiss. It was chilly but you both remained in the water completely as the sun beat down on you both, you both got out and laid in the sun, you close your eyes feeling the heat move over your body and then feel a hand opening a eye, George smiles placing soft kisses down your neck and collar bone, his kisses weren’t lustful or desperate but loving you could feel his soft pink lips gently kiss between your breast and move above your bellybutton, you put your arm over you head turning your head to the side feeling relaxed under his touch, he moves placing a kiss on your hips then thighs moving to kiss your knees along with ankles, he kisses the top of your foot moving back up to your belly and smiles resting his chin on your stomach looking up at you “ we should lay like this more often darling” you feel yourself blush and giggle “ should we love “ he only nods as he moves up kissing you more, then rests on your forearm gently kissing the side of your breast and smile as the sky goes from orange to pink then dark blue the star’s twinkle and shine as you both lay in peace, you see something flickering in the corner of your eye, you smile “ George “ he looks up seeing you point to the woods “fireflies beloved “ you smile big as George rest his hand on your hip moving his thumb lightly over your skin and hums, closing his eyes and kisses your breast again “ I’m tired beloved” you smile moving so his face rests between your breast “ get some rest beloved” he smiles moving his fingers as the flowers cover us like a blanket, he brings his hands to rest in your back and gently rests his cheek on your breast moving to kiss above you breast “ goodnight”.

(Artist: wiasdes @wiasdes)

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Stages of grief ft billy Hargrove x reader

You and billy have been on edge for weeks, rumors spread that you slept with Harrington and he’s been fooling around with some girls. Both rumors were false but both of you had a nagging feeling. You both didn’t want to be betrayed or taken advantage of so it ate both you up. The time you both spent together was short do you the pain of either thinking one laid with an enemy, the interaction at school were short. When either didn’t visit in the night you both had thoughts of the other being with that other person. Because of the tension for months both of you snapped at first starting it off as a couple who needed to fix their problems to a full on screaming match and both saying things they didn’t mean and putting either under the bus, you went on the fact he was a player before the dating phase to him saying you slept with Harrington since day one because you both hung out more before the dating. “ ooo so that’s what you think y/n “ you glare back “ it’s what I know billy” he groans/screams “ you really playing this card y/n ever fight, I can’t catch a break” you slam ur hand down “ I can’t catch a break either because you can’t get over your pride about Harrington” the fact you said his name sent billy even further over the edge, he got in your face through his clenched teeth. Nothing but venom dripped from his mouth only for you to poison it more. He called you every name in the book going as far as to comment on your looks only for you to spew back a rush of hateful comments both you brought family even personal secrets into the argument. By the time the last word left your mouth it all was a blur, broken items and car doors slamming, the news of the break up spread like wildfire. You both didn’t even dare look at the other feelings nothing for the first month. You only knew of a new girl on his arm from a class mate and the fact you cut off everyone seeing as they brought the rumors and lies. By the second it didn’t hit either till you looked in the mirror and finally broke, billy didn’t break till he laid next to a girl. He looked over not understanding why he really expected you to be right their. The night you both fought flooded both your minds. The feeling of a void entered both your chests, you broke sliding down your wall as tears fell in floods as your heart started to hurt. You screamed out and held your chest feeling it all hit, the man you wanted to spend your life with had left and laid with another, the thoughts of what he said broke you more, the pain was unbearable. Only miles away billy sat in his car near the lake you both would go, bottle in hand and tears flooding his eyes. He’s head lean on the seat and his fists clenched the bottle, he had been seven drinks in and the more the liquor filled him the more it unlocked the night and his his passenger seat was empty, his back seat had no shoes, his dash didn’t hold the picture of you, the necklace you gifted didn’t dangle from the mirror. The stages of grief set in. Denial was the period of not really believing it till, one entered their room to find the one thing from the other gone or when one wanted to tell the other something only to remember the situation, the empty sheets,the pillow that lost the other scent only for Anger to set in the thought of the others betrayal and lack of trust, the fact you both spent a year together just to not trust the other filled each with rage. Bargaining the guilt for what was said, the shame, the anxiety all set in at once, most nights crying was over what was said both feelings evil and dirty for saying something they didn’t mean only to have depression set in hard both turning to a drink or cigarette to calm the nerves or hide the sadness neither would dare step in each other’s paths, everyone knew because the once bright school was sitting on the edge of their seats. By the fifth month acceptance wasn’t a find yourself or a recreation it was the sadness finally setting in, the acceptance that the other wouldn’t return or dare too because it’s Been half a year. Billy finally broke after seeing you at school,

he never looked at you but when he finally got the courage he stared at you seeing your eyes lifeless, you looked frail and tired, as you sat with friends you looked disconnected. Broken. It made him want to move across the room and hold you and fill you with life again only to see you stand and leave the room. He wanted to chase you. He got up moving to the hall seeing it empty as you walked down it, he moved faster only wrapping his arms around you from behind head on top of yours confused you froze only to sink into him once the familiar smell came to you, you spoke softly as if to speak a little louder would make him disappear “ billy”. He pulled you into a empty/ abandoned classroom. You dropped your bag turning hiding in his chest as his grip tightened, neither spoke knowing each pain, you cried lightly on his chest as he kept you close, only hearing each other’s heart beat rapidly and breathing fill the room. You look up into his eyes find them clear ice blue clear just everything you missed and loved about him on full display, the slight stumbles of hair his freckles in their funny order on his lightly pink cheeks, you didn’t know what came over you but up moved up quickly kissing him deeply, you’ve shared kisses with him but this one was full of the grief, the void, the lost time to lost months. Only to have him lean on a desk with his hand behind your head lips just as connected. It was like you both spilled your broken hearts out onto the floor, the muscles that were tenses now relax the tears that were held in now falling freely. Both pulled away gasping “please “ was all you could muster before both held each other in a hug “ forgive me “ even through it all you both stood speechless. Seeing sides of the other you’ve never seen. You hold his hand as he pulls you closer kissing your nose gently and humming “ why did we do this” you only smile “ young and dumb “ he cups your cheek, you feel his rings on your jaw and smell the cigarette as he kisses you deeply “ young, dumb but never apart” you hum cupping his hand on your face “ till death” he smiles “ do us part”.

The will

(Angst, fluff. Really really sad)

I turn my back to him sobbing lightly, that stupid book rests on the table. His will. I just wanted to help him recover and get through it all. I have hope I have so much hope for him to get better. I feel as if I was slapped. He gets up wrapping his arms around me but I move forward pushing him away “ no, you don’t get to do that” I glare at him with tears in my eyes, my chest rises and falls rapidly and I shake slightly“ you can’t write a will then talk about technoblade never dies” I cry more backing up resting my hand on my chest “ you said have faith techno, that thing just seals the fact you have accepted death” his head drops, his face is painted with guilt he hated making you cry“ I’m just trying to be prepared “ i feel a rush of anger as I start to yell “ FOR WHAT TECHNO! FOR WHAT” I get closer and grip his shirt and cry “ you just told me that you don’t care anymore, everything in that book your going to do on your own” he hugs me tightly, I try to pull away but give up after awhile and sob “ forgive me beloved, I didn’t mean for you to take it that way, I just want you taken care of, I just want things to be okay if I don’t…” I look him in the eyes crying more “ I don’t care about what’s left, please don’t say it please don’t. I can barely handle you writing that but to hear you say it hurts so bad techno” I wrap my arms around his neck crying more and start to shake not caring how I looked “ please don’t give up beloved please “ he lifts me up as I cry lightly in his arms, he gently rubs my back and kisses my head moving far far away from that cursed book. I look up at him “ I love you so much please just please, I don’t want a will or anything I just want you please just don’t give up until there is nothing else we can do to help then I’ll take that cursed book and….” I don’t finish and he kisses me softly running my fingers through his hair and grip his shirt tightly as he kisses me more, he runs his fingers through my hair desperately wanting more. He pulls away resting his forehead on mine “ I haven’t given up beloved, I don’t want nothing to happen. I don’t want to know I could leave you beloved but I need to know to know Im leaving you in good hands and in a good spot, it makes me scared at the thought of leaving you alone “ his voice cracks looking up at you “ it helps me rest easier and keep going, I would give the world to know your safe “ my eyes water again “ ooo beloved I love you “ he kisses me softly and smile lightly “ I love you more”. That night I stay up watching his chest rise and fall, he rested his hand on your lap, I gently move my fingers over his cheek and he grunts moving his cheek into my palm and I smile. the medicine make it hard for him to sleep so to see him laid out with his messy pink hair everywhere gave me a peace. I kiss his hand and say a little prayer as I look up I smile sadly and mumble “ it’s not over yet my love”

( I’m sorry it’s sad but I saw his will to philza and bro this broke me, I respect techno and everything just makes me sad honestly sorry🥺)

Random thoughts

I giggle lightly as ghost wraps his arms around my waist as I stand close to him, I wrap my arms around his head and giggle more, his nose above my belly button and forehead in my chest as he just huffs pulling me closer, I gently run my fingers through his short hair and smile as I feel another pair of arms from behind me wrap around my shoulders and a their chin on my head “ ooo bonnie” I smile looking up kissing him as he hums, ghost hums moving me away from the scot. Only to have soap smile. Looking down I catch ghosts this and hum, moving my lips slowly to a peck then a full kiss my lip under his upper one as his teeth nip at my lip lightly before kissing me again roughly , he hums Turing it into a make out session as soap kisses the back of my neck. Ghost hums moving to stand up not breaking the kiss both men had ya between them as each held a part of you, ghost cupped your face as soap interwoven your fingers all eyes closed as each consumed each other. Ghost pulls back breathing lightly as he looked at ya you leaned your head back on soaps shoulder and he just admired how you looked at peace between them.

Midnight tales

It’s the middle of the night and you go to roll over closer to your husband just to find the bed empty and light whimpers coming from the other room, you yawn getting up, you hear your husbands voice is low and gently, you peek into the room seeing him leaned over his son, he kisses his little cheeks and moves his thumb gently over his head as he whispers to him “ when I meet your mother” he told his son about how you both meet and how he fought wars and promised his son protection and love. He gently lifts the his son holding his head and bottom gently as the little piglet moves his arms letting small cries escape his mouth” ooo no no” he rocks his son lightly as you stand in the door way smiling at him, his long pink hair is out over his shoulders as the moon runs through the room over the walls and floor. The snow falls calmly as if it is watching your husband interact with his son. Tech ears perked up having him glare toward the door then he relaxes seeing you, he smiles as you walk closer kissing him softly then rubbing your sons head and giggle “ you heard what the doctor said he’s only a couple months we can’t spoil him by holding him” techno lowly groans and hums “ he won’t always be this little beloved, I understand the task but he was upset tonight” you kiss your sons head lightly “ just admit your wrapped around his little fingers” techno chuckles and looks down “ it is so wrong tho, he is our first born beloved” you laugh leaning your head in his shoulder and hum “ fine just tonight” you kiss him and your son goodnight but can’t help but stay up and listen to techno tell his son of ancient warriors. It’s funny to believe the same man months before cried to me about how he feared the baby would hate him for who he was, he was scared the baby would hate his pink hair and piglet features now techno wiggles his ears at the infant teaching him how to move them and he speaks pigmen to him only to have the piglet respond in his own babbling mess of words. Techno now adored everything about his son. For a man that used to be cold and blunt and ruthless it was odd to see such a small being lay in his once bloodied hands and just sleep their. The next morning you wake up to an empty bed again, groaning you go to get up but stop looking over finding techno in the rocking chair he made in your shared room, his head was leaned back his hair messy along with his son on his bare chest, making little noises fast asleep, you giggle lightly coming closer “ beloved” techno looks over and groans at the pain in his neck, you laugh going to take your son only to have techno pull back “ no no, he’s asleep” you laugh “ would you like to lay in bed while I make breakfast “ he only nods tiredly moving to the bed. You laugh coming back an hour later finding your son wide awake as techno lays on his side, your son rests on his arm and your son looks over giggling lightly and touches technos face, making you question if he senses are at their peek. You set the trey down and smile “ beloved your son is calling” techno groans pulling his son closer kissing his cheek lightly and groans “ I hear him love”, after that their was no hope in getting your son or getting your husband up.