The Fate Of Darkness
The fate of darkness
it’s always the same feeling
isolation despair sorrow helplessness
people make living out to be some thrill ride that one should never get off of
but i just want to un loosen the seatbelt and let myself fall
the ups and downs are overwhelming
why is it that everyone else gets better while i stay the same
why can’t i go one second without wanting to die
is it too much too ask? has the world given everyone but me an opportunity to truly be happy
no matter how much medicine how much therapy how much time i go through
i’m always stuck in the same 4 glass walls watching everybody else be free
no matter how much hardships others seem to be going through why do they get some reliefs of conflict while i continue on trying to act like i’m unfazed or not envious of other’s lives
is it a cruel fate to which i am to live?
would it even matter if i were anyone else since misery has taken a claim on me
changing who i am, wanting to think i’m better cannot hide the resentment and fury i feel within me
i really wish i could say fuck it and just pretend that trying to love myself is all i need to do
but no matter how much i try it seems loving myself is something that just wasn’t meant for me
the dark suspicious isolated awkward reluctant disgusting figure that seems to ruin everyone’s life
but how silly of me to think so highly of myself
im not even a thought in others minds
i cease to exist and no matter how much i think of others not a single penny of thought is given towards me
but hey at least im alive right? because being alive is what everyone wants me to be right?
yet where are those same people when i just want to say hi, have someone to actually talk to
no, no it’s only me
of course there is the more pretty social person they would rather converse with
if dying would rid me of my conscience i would do it in a heartbeat
if dying meant people would actually think about me for one, even for just a moment in time i’d close my eyes and let the darkness take me
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le corps - body
le cou - neck
la poitrine - chest
le ventre - belly
la hanche - hip
les organes génitaux - genitals
le tibia - shinbone
la tête - head
le sein - breast
le mamelon - nipple
la taille - waist
le nombril - navel, belly button
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l’aine - groin
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le genou - knee
la jambe - leg
le pied - foot
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J'ai tout laissé tel quel : I left without changing/touching anything
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J'ai changé d'avis : I changed my mind
J'ai besoin d'y réfléchir : I need to think about it
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