Abandonment Issues

Yandere Spider Demon Family (platonic)

All Rui wanted was to fill that void of not having a family, he wanted that bond that he believed he hadn't gotten with his first family and that's just what he had created for himself. With the assistance of Master Muzan's blood, he was more then capable of bringing forth his vision of a family, his family. Albeit, his family wasn't necessarily "real" but that didn't hinder Rui from going along with his own delusions. After all, if he wanted a family then that's just what he was going to get, no matter how many disappointing, failing 'family members' he had to go through to achieve his image.

He is going to get his perfect family at any and all costs.

Rui

Rui would be the one to bring you into the family, of course he would, this is his family after all. He's the one who will decide whether you're fit for your role in being part of the family, critiquing anything and everything you do, no matter how small or minimal it maybe. He'll watch you closely, having the other family members watch you as well.

Maybe you're a demon who had run off to the mountain to flee from the Demon Slayer Corps or maybe you're a demon slayer who had been sent to take out whatever demon had been inhabiting the mountain, not knowing what you would be in for. Maybe you had gotten in the way of one of your comrades to protect them and that snapped something in Rui. Or you could be just some poor soul who wandered into their territory, how foolish of you (Imagine the Spider family with a human new addition, someone so much weaker and vulnerable compared to the rest of them.). It doesn't really matter how you came to be on the mountain, in their territory, watching you're every move Rui sees just how well you'd be as part of his family, deciding your fate then and there.

You'll be forced to be the closest to Rui, he'll keep you by his side if he has to to ensure that you two will be bonded. He will expect you to fulfill your role as whatever he gives you, holding high expectations not only for you but everyone who becomes part of the family. You won't be exempt from consequences and or punishments if you're deserving of them, but the least Rui will make an exception for is that he'll never kill you.

You'll surely, without a doubt, give into the family fantasy. At first, you'll just be playing house to save yourself from punishment or overall death, but you'll gradually fall into your role as part of the family, probably lying to yourself to the point of believing that they really are your family.

Rui, along with the rest of the family would probably prefer someone who is naive and kind, someone who can be easily manipulated and controlled by them. Having someone full of warmth and kindness would be a complete change compared to the cold and loneliness they all are subjected to, even within the family.

Rui can be rather possessive and territorial of you, even with the other family members, but they've learned their places by now. Or at least some of them have. The others will just have to be taught a lesson until it's carved into their memory that your time is mostly Rui's. He sees the other family members as disposable compared to you, you're the one that really means something to him, especially given his image of family.

He sees you as family and feels a real bond with you, unlike the 'fillers' that are your guys' other family members. Rui has no problem getting rid of them and just having it be the two of you but that would hurt you, wouldn't it? After all, you have grown to see them as family, how could you just let Rui take them away like that?

You'll be the only one who can manage to keep Rui at bay with his outbursts and bashing out at the others. You're able to save them from their inevitable dates, even just for a time, but you can't be their savior all the time. You do have a role to fulfill as as part of the family now, and Rui will remind you of that time after time.

Rui will have his soft moments, only with you though. The longer you prove your worth, filling your role and forming a real bond with him, he'll be more likely to allow himself to feel vulnerable with you. Something he didn't know he was capable of anymore. You'll be able to bring out the real Rui as long as you're willing to try.

Something that would really win Rui over is if you ever tried to protect him, he is the most powerful out of the family, so their isn't really any need for the others to protect him, but you going out of your way to do so would make Rui obsess over you all the more. He'll get emotional, especially if you got hurt as a result of protecting him.

Speaking of which, if you ever got hurt, whether from protecting him or by being attacked in general, Rui would lose his shit. He'll slaughter, shred, and do whatever he can to kill the person who did anything to you, even if it was another family member. He's not going to allow for anyone to hurt his family, especially you.

The other family members don't really have any of their own opinions about you, all that matters is that you fill your role, falling into place with the family. It won't take them until much later on, after playing house for awhile, that they'll really start to grow their own attachments to you.

Spider Father

Father is just as delusional as Rui, he fills his role as father just as he should and he expects everyone to do the same with their own roles. He is extremely protective of his family, willing to do just about anything for them. Whether that's due to his genuine care for his 'family' or just for his survival, it doesn't matter, as long as he fills his role at the end of the day.

Despite his investment towards his family, his children, you'll surely become his favorite. He'll gradually grow attached to you, being one of the first ones to not only fall along into the obsession of you, but to also be solely bonded to you, excluding Rui.

Father would have a such soft spot for you, you're presence alone is enough to calm him down. He doesn't want you seeing him lash out, especially towards Mother, he doesn't want you to be scared of him. He wants you to see him as a good father, someone you can count on for protection and providing. He never wants you to fear him, unlike anyone else.

He'll often check on you when he's doing his rounds, patrolling the mountain. He likes to check in and see if you're safe and well. You're probably a lot weaker compared to everyone else and he feels the need to protect you even more because of it, they all do.

Father can have his softer moments, not only with you but everyone else too, it only took you being brought into the family for there to be changes like that. He'll often give you and the children piggyback rides, or spiderback rides?, all around the mountain. You may even be able to get Rui to indulge in them too.

He also likes to play with your hair, something he only started doing when you came around, playing with with everyone's hair. He'll also give headpats or hair ruffles, you'll get loads of them.

You'll be able to get him to be much more gentle with Mother, too. Especially if you voice how much it hurts to see Mother crying and hurting, he'll do anything for you.

If anything ever happened to you, along with the rest of the family but mostly you, Father would go berserk. There's nothing that would stop his from destroying the people or demons who hurt you in any way. None of the family stand by and allow that to happen, ever.

Spider Mother

Mother would be apprehensive and weary of being too close with you given Rui and Father's own growing, festering attachments towards you. She's already been punished enough, she doesn't want to upset either of them any more then she already has, especially concerning you.

Showing any kind of kindness and gentleness to her would really draw her in. Everyone in the family can be so cruel and cold, but you're showing her something she hasn't had in a long time if at all. She'll bask in whatever warmth and affection you'll gift her with. It won't take her long to fall alongside Rui and Father in their obsession of you.

She'll learn to fill her role as mother by watching you and taking on some of your behavior and tendencies, which will earn her better resignation among the family, especially with Rui.

Mother would love to show you her dolls, performing little shows for you and the rest of the family. She also loves having you sit with her, sharing her rock and looking at the moon and the stars.

She's the softest out of the family, picking up on your warmth and affection, she'll gladly return it all tenfold. Mother really loves to hold you close, basking in your very existence, it really makes here feel so warm and...dare she say, "happy". You make her so happy and free, feelings she hasn't felt for a long time.

Mother loves to do your hair, no matter how long or short it may be, she loves messing with it in any and all ways.

You're her baby, her precious baby, and she will uphold her role as Mother just for you. She doesn't want you having another mother, no one could possibly take her place just like no one could possible replace you. She'll do her damndest to keep this family together, for you.

If anything ever happened to you, Mother would become enraged, she'll be heartbroken but she's going to lash out first. Once everything is said and done she'll be by your side once more, like any mother.

If you ever died, Mother would be the first to join you. She'll gladly walk out into the warm sunlight just to be with her baby again, the two of you being free together at least.

All the family members would eventually do the same, hoping to maybe be a family again in the afterlife, even if it is in Hell. Maybe you'll all even be returned into the same family, being together once again.

Spider Brother

(Whenever I see this dude, i just fucking lose it laughing. I don't know why.)

Brother is an odd one, he without a doubt likes the violence and chaos that was the original family before you came along and that's how it still is. He doesn't much care for you or your role in the family, honestly he most likely wishes you'd never came along to begin with but there's no going against Rui when he sets his mind on something.

He's definitely a little teasing shit, he'll do whatever to get a rise out of you, one way or another. If you're scared of his spider minions then he'll use that against you, you'll be seeing them everywhere from now on. If you hate that he just pops out of nowhere then he'll be doing it more often. He's that shitty brother who just never let's up about anything.

Rui, Father, and Mother will all have talks with him but it won't do much, at least Mother and Father won't really get any result from him. Rui, on the other hand, sure will. Brother will, at the very least, tone his teasing/cruel pranks down a smidge, but that's about all he'll do.

You may even thing that Brother hates you, but that couldn't be further from the truth. At first, he couldn't have cared less about you but the longer you're around and more fun he has with messing with you, the more he grows fond of you. Coming to realize that, in some twisted way, this is what a family is like, this is how siblings are with each other, at least to an extent.

He'll secretly adore his new little sibling but you're not getting a peep out of him about it, no one will ever get anything from him about it but they all know.

As vicious and cruel as Brother can be, he's much more terrifying and merciless when your safety is concerned or if he believessomeone is trying to take his place with you.

He won't tolerate anyone messing with his sibling unless he's the one doing so. Anyone who tries to so much as do anything to you will be poisoned immediately, turning into a spider and becoming yet another little minion of his. No one messes with his family, unless it's him, especially not some little humans from the Demon Slayer Corps.

Brother can have his much nicer moments, particularly after some of the meaner things he does to you, he'll send some of his little minions with gifts for you. Sometimes it's a flower he found, or something that one of the demon slayers or humans had on them that he thought you'd like. He'll never admit it but he does like to see you smile, at least from time to time.

Spider Sister

Sister became part of the family solely to save herself from the Demon Slayer Crops, otherwise she wouldn't have been part of such a thing. She felt the need to pay her debt by filling her role as a sister and so that's what she did.

She felt rather threatened when Rui had brought you home, she didn't want you to replace her, even if the family wasn't good to beging with. She was necessarily mean to you but she would try to get something on you to get you in trouble with any of the other family members, maybe then she'd be a good sister/daughter if you were out of the picture. But no one ever budged when it came to you, hell, you didn't even budge whenever she asked you about running away or something of the sort. It was hopeless in the end.

It wasn't until you had come to her baring a gift, that she really started to look at you in a new light. You were really trying to fill your role but along the way you came to see these other beings, these people, as family. She was weary at first, not trusting you, but that changed soon enough.

She'd seen what happened to those who didn't fill their roles or were just disappointing in general and she didn't want any of that for you. She wanted you to thrive, she wanted to thrive with you. She knew that the others' loved you dearly but she still felt that she had to watch out for you, which was odd since she really only watched out for herself.

If you weren't spending most of your time with Rui then sister would have you to herself, at least until Mother or Father came to get you. Brother only coming when he wanted to see you squeal or shriek from whatever mean thing he had planned for you.

Sister would really start to take her role seriously once you're part of the family. She wants to be the best older sister, not only for Rui, but also for you. She wants to be something, someone, that you're proud of, that you're proud to call your sister. She wants to make you prouder than anything or anyone else.

You and Sister will often chase each other around the mountain, maybe even getting the rest of the family involved too, playing a fun game of tag. She would also accompany you and Father on your usual piggyback rides around the mountain too, each of you on either of his shoulders or holding onto each other while on his back.

Sister will eventually love you along with the rest of the family, falling into their shared obsession with their new family member. She'll be just as willing to do anything for you, like they all are willing to do.

The family would really come to feel like a true, genuine family once you've been brought in, filling your role as the strings that keep them all tied together as they should be, as a real family should be. Not letting them fall apart, not again.

Bless whatever poor soul may try to come between this family and their new addition, they'll surely be destroyed without so much as a blink.

𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚, 𝙙𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙊𝙤𝙤…

i hope i drew them w/ justice >< 

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I don't know who I am...

Camilo Madrigal x reader

Warnings⚠️ some angst, sad Camilo, but don't worry it's fluff at the end 🧡

Camilo stared at himself, his hazel eyes darting across his face. His nose, his mouth, his hair, and yet he still couldn't see it. He couldn't see Camilo.

That scared him, it scared him that he changed so often, pretending to be others in his everyday life that he didn't even know who he was anymore... Who Camilo was.

The more he looked at himself the more he hated what he saw, but he couldn't figure out why. Did he not like his nose? Eyes? His height? He didn't have a small cute button nose like his sister, he didn't have big curious eyes like his brother, he wasn't strong and tall like Luisa, wasn't elegant and graceful like Isabella, he wasn't good at expressing like Maribel.... So what does he have?

Tears started to fill his eyes, his nose slightly scrunched, eyebrows tweaked up, and his bottom lip taken between his teeth to stop it from quivering.

He was always someone else, every day for everything... He shifted to be taller when helping around the house and doing chores, he shifted into his sister for seconds when eating, he even shifted when babysitting the children in the village, he was always someone else.

He was a copycat... A doppelganger... What's the use of getting a gift as special as you when you weren't special at all, just a copy of someone else.

Tears started to fall down his cheeks, falling faster and faster. He desperately tried to keep his breathing steady, vision going blurry as he tried not to blink, as he knew that would only make the tears fall faster and he was still hoping they would just go away. The more he stared into the mirror the more he had to fight the urge to smash it.

Copycat

Doppelganger

Copy

Shadow

Shifter

His shoulders began to shake, putting his head down, fingers tapping feverishly on his dresser telling himself not to cry, but it was fruitless and his whimpers and soft cries left him.

He fell to his knees head in his hands as he asked himself 'who is Camilo' over and over and

Over

And

Over

And

Over

Over

Over

Over

"Camilo?" Camilo's head shot up from his hands, oh no it was you his amor, he couldn't let you see him like this. He hastily turned away from you frantically wiping the tears from his face and eyes, but the more he wiped them away more came falling. His breath hurrying in frustration, only to stop when he felt your hand placed gently on his shoulder, he flinched hands shaking as he looked anywhere and everywhere but to you and your eyes, he couldn't look at you, he couldn't see your face of pity as you gazed down at him.

He could feel you kneel next to him and try to pull his shoulders to slowly turn him to face you, he took a deep shaky breath before turning to you giving you a broken smile, but as soon as the corners of his lips lifted he couldn't hold it and it dropped back into a quivering frown.

"ay, mi pobre amor" you whispered as you pulled him into you, you rubbed his shoulders as you helps him stand walking him towards his bed, getting him to lay down with you. You pulled him in and he snuggled into your neck, as you began to run your fingers through his thick curls. He let out a shaky hum of appreciation, closing his eyes. You kissed his forehead, pausing your hand running through his hair to brush some almost dried tears off his freckled cheeks giving him a small boop on his nose causing him to giggle.

"You are you, Camilo amor you are mi corazón, my one and only, my prankster with a heart and soul of gold. I see you, and I love you." You mumble the last part kissing his forehead, he smiled, a real smile. One that lit up your life every time you saw it without fail. You helped him turn over as you brought him impossibly closer to you, Camilo smiled he loved being the little spoon more they he let on.

And now he knows that even if he sometimes doesn't know who he is, he has you to remind him.

A Gift Worth Keeping

This is the second part of my “when he knew he loved you” series.

Lucifer | Mammon | Levi | Satan | Asmo | Beel | Belphie

Warnings: Cursing

Pairing: Mammon x GN!MC

Words: 983

Sept. 10th 5PM

It’s been almost a month since you arrived. A month of babysitting a human, Mammon rolls his eyes. If only he could find the human. Usually you follow him around, clinging to his side. Well, in reality, he follows you around, but today he lost track of you after RAD.

He’s actually not sure what Lucifer would do to him if he let you get hurt. He doesn’t want to know.

He’s been looking for you for ten minutes. So far he’s checked your room, the kitchen, dining room, and living room. And you’re nowhere to be found. He’s starting to worry. (About Lucifer, not your well-being.)

Finally, as he approaches the library, he hears your voice.

“So… do you think he’ll like it?” you ask, showing off something to his brothers.

“Pfft, MC, he won’t even look at it before trying to sell it,” says Levi, not bothering to look up from his game.

“What?” Mammon’s heart clenches at the hurt in your voice.

“Yeah, if he can squeeze a Grimm out of it, he will. I mean, the thought is nice, but…”

“But I made it myself,” you start.

“Oh, even better. ‘Handmade by a human!’ It’s doubled in price now,” Satan laughs, looking up from his book. Mammon’s face drops.

“Really?” you ask, enthusiasm gone.

“MC, darling, you put a lot of time into it. Do you really want to give it to someone who won’t appreciate it?” Asmo asks. With that, Mammon huffs.

“He… he’ll appreciate it!” you say, holding whatever it is close to your chest.

“Look… to tell the truth, he’d probably try to sell you if Lucifer wouldn’t kill him. He’ll flip that faster than Beel eats a cheeseburger.” Satan turns the page.

“He’s a scumbag,” says Levi, “he takes my things all the time to make an easy buck. And he’s my brother. Why do you think he’d appreciate something from you, a human he barely knows?”

“No, he’s not. He’s a good person,” you say, anger dripping from your tongue. Mammon’s eyes widen. “And he’s my friend! You guys are wrong.”

“Sweetie…” Asmo begins.

“I mean, yeah, he likes money. But that’s his… thing. You know, I wouldn’t expect Beel to stop eating. Or… Asmo to stop staring into that mirror,” you say.

The fifth-born looks away from the mirror for a moment, “I’m fixing my makeup.”

You ignore him. “None of you can help your sin. Why are you guys always being mean to Mammon for his? It’s not fair. Fuck, now I sound like Mr. Envy,” you chuckle and Satan smirks behind his book. “Anyway, I’m gonna go give this to him now. But, you guys really suck a lot, you know?”

“Let us know how much he gets for it,” says Mr. Envy himself as you stand. You stick your tongue out at him, which Asmo laughs at.

Mammon’s heart races and he turns to quickly climb the stairs, two at a time, to his room, where you’re headed, with a gift, that you apparently handmade, for him. He shuts the door behind him and leans against it.

They think I’m good. He smiles softly to himself, then it drops when he realizes you just stood up to his brothers, who could’ve actually killed you.

He’s got to have a talk with you about that.

A knock at his door startles him. “Uh… Mammon, are you in there?”

He blinks and wipes his hand through his hair, waiting a second before he opens the door.

“Hey human,” he says, nonchalantly. As if he hadn’t been looking for you and he’d heard none of your conversation and wasn’t internally combusting from your words.

“Can I come in?” you ask. He can tell you’re hiding something behind your back.

“Yeah, I guess.” He steps back from the door to let you inside, then closes it behind you, and takes a seat on his couch. You follow him over and stand in front of him.

“So… I kind of made you something.”

“Oh?” Really? He had no idea. Not at all.

“Yeah. So… here,” you say, thrusting a large gift bag into his lap. He raises a brow.

“Open it.”

He smiles and reaches into the bag to pull out a round yellow cushion. “Hey, this looks like Grimm!” he points out when he sees the skull on the front.

He notices how your eyes light up. “Yeah! Yes! I tried. I’ve not really been crocheting long, so it’s not perfect-”

“Yeah it is.” He turns the pillow in his hands. On the back is a small tag which reads ‘MADE WITH LOVE, BY MC.’

“It’s really good,” he says, eyes wet. He refuses to cry in front of a human, no matter how nice they are to him.

“You like it?” you ask.

“Yeah, ‘course I do. It’s money,” he grins and puts the pillow under his head, leaning back on it with a sigh. “It’s great, MC, thanks.”

You drop onto the couch beside him, before throwing your arms around his shoulders, “happy birthday Mammon! I’m so glad you like it.”

He freezes, breath caught in his throat, then puts one hand on your back. “Uh, yeah.”

You pull away, and pretend not to notice the blush blooming on his cheeks. “I’m gonna go downstairs to help with dinner. See you in a bit!”

“Yeah,” he mumbles, watching you exit his room. He pulls the cushion back from behind his head to examine the tag once again. ‘MADE WITH LOVE, BY MC.’

“With love,” he whispers, tracing the words. Is that how you feel about him? How he feels about you? And he groans, pressing his face against it.

(Just wait till he finds the card inside the bag and reads the sweet message you wrote. He won’t be able to look you in the eyes for a week.)

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