It's Night. Dreams Are Calling Me , Sky Has Switched On Its Cooler, Stars Are Ready To Shine Till Dawn

I don't need your advice,

just a shoulder to cry on,

a silent soul to lean on,

a bucket to catch my tears,

a fluffy pillow to soak them in,

a heavy rain to wash away

my fears, my pain & worries.

I don't feel like I deserve love because I haven't done anything to earn it. I believe there must be a reason for someone to love you, and I don't see any reason for anyone to love me. Even if someone did, I would still feel like I don't deserve it. So, there's no point in being in love or in a relationship. I'm flawed, and I don't think anyone should be with someone as flawed as me. That's why I don't want to fall in love or be in a relationship right now.

There will always be an invisible bridge between us

A hope , a feeling of optimism or a wish for something to happen. But here I am in disbelief that the thing I was yearning for years won't come true..

Fear of being judged by my own thereby begetting intense and impending danger portraying the evil in me

I know it hurts but I believe that these gestural expressions gives me hope of things that won't come true.. which also puts me into vivid grief..

Feels like I am enclosed within the walls of hell

But I do realize that I have a spiritual bond with the almighty which makes me an angel trapped in inferno

IN A WORLD FULL OF CHAOS,

I am looking for PEACE 🕊

I don't think it's God's job to stop the bad .

He's there to give us the strength to get through it.

“Sometimes we need someone to simply be there, not to fix anything or do anything in particular. But just to let us feel we are supported and cared about.”

— Unknown

“you are still learning. you are still changing. you are still growing. breathe. you will find your way.”

— Unknown

I feel like there is some hidden secretive grudge towards me that's never gonna change.

Maybe thts y I'm attracted to emotionally unavailable men

abandonment issues make you crave the chase. you wanna feel fought for as if it proves someone’s care for you. and if they don’t chase, you tell yourself it wasn’t real, they left you anyway.. even if you’re the one who pushed or left. it’s a unhealthy cycle to break for sure.

Don't go with the flow, be the flow

- Elif Shafak

It means instead of just doing what everyone else is doing, you should be the one who decides what to do and how to do it. Be unique and make your own path instead of just following others.