Almost Wishing I Could Do Anything Other Than JUST Drawing Cats, But Alas. Warriors Has Me In Its Grip.

How was class? They applauded. It was inappropriate.

Hannibal 1.02 Amuse-Bouche

watching shows with your partner will change you …… tell me why i’ve never ever given a singular shit about sayid or ana lucia and somehow, in some way, my bf liking them makes me actually enjoy their characters. CRAZY

UMMMMMMMMM ???????? am literally going to freak out flip a table throw my foot through a wall who knows but I AM SO EXCITED. and alas no one will care so here i come to tumblr to word vomit my feelings.

ANYWAY. as no one knows but now you do, i'm going to see bjm on october 28th at psych fest / levitation. AS WELL AS THE DANDY WARHOLS. and i was like hmmmm, i wonder what bjm's setlist looks like for levitation, bc usually they only play their recent music. well let me tell you my jaw DROPPED when i looked it up on youtube. their austin setlist?? FUCKING STACKED. at least it was ten years ago. super-sonic, wisdom, you have been disconnected, vacuum boots, oh lord ( with the dandy warhols, and if anton and courtney play together again i will literally fucking die on the spot ), servo, GOT MY EYE ON YOU??? and yes yes i know matt hollywood won't be around for this but if they play something off of strung out in heaven i might actually start sobbing. like i've already accepted that i'm going to cry during this concert bc it'll be one of the best days of my entire life, but full on sobbing my eyes out ?? may just happen. my poor friend gyna is never going to see me the same bc i'm gonna be the only one ugly crying over a psychedelic rock band that no one gives a shit about. WELL I DO. clearly.

anyway the very idea that they may play some of these songs, or literally ANY OLD SONGS AT ALL, is hyping me up so much i can't even describe how fucking excited i am. like this is more excitement than joel gion's memoir. and if they play goddamn super-sonic, i'm not just going to cry, i'm going to scream.

now i've said it before and i'll say it again : i'm not gonna be the same person after october 28th. i will be fundamentally changed as a human being. THAT'S a promise.

Hey, hey! Friendly reminder to make sure your supposedly “fearless” character gets their darkest fear revealed in the worst way possible so they break down into a vulnerable shaking mess in front of all the people they care about 

i love bjm. i love bjm. i love bjm. i love bjm. i love them so much like in ways i cannot even explain or describe, my heart is so full of love for them and i’m afraid nothing will ever compare. in fact i just looked and the first time i ever listened to bjm was june 29 of 2021. NINE DAYS …. in nine days i will have had this hyperfixation for three years. goddamn.

i want to roleplay every character ever. i look at fox mulder and i'm like yeah, you'd be too fun ( i played him for a whole year wrote like 300k words but i want to revive him again... ) or i see someone like will graham with his cannibalism trauma and i just want to write the shit out of him ( he's so difficult for no reason ) and then there's me now trying my hand at coriolanus snow.... good luck to me

still thinking about marius and taylor …. the innate hopelessness of a relationship that was always doomed to fail… the way their dynamic could’ve been saved had marius just admitted what he did, but like the stubborn and distrustful asshole he is, he kept that info to himself! and look what happened! taylor honest to god tried to rectify things and was even willing to give marius a chance, was willing to forgive him, but marius continued to lie. i think it’s really interesting because it’s not something that marius would ever be used to…? like, this is a guy who lies to everyone and rarely reaps the consequences of doing so, even with his brother—who also lies straight to his face, multiple times throughout the show. marius doesn’t particularly care if people lie to him and isn’t accustomed to being around people who need him to admit he lied in order to forgive him. either the deed is forgiven/brushed off without another word (such as with marius and eddie), or the relationship is ruined because of the lie. i don’t think there’s ever been any in-between, wherein marius could save a relationship by admitting his wrongdoings. so when taylor offers that as an option, of course marius doesn’t take it! he isn’t used to that, and he’s a skeptic at heart. plus he kinda sorta despises taylor. why should he beg for forgiveness? but what i think he doesn’t realize is that you can’t escape from family, certainly not this one, and when those sorts of relationships are ruined, it ripples through everything and creates lots and LOTS of consequences. and unfortunately, having taylor as an enemy is not a good time!

the fact that it's been ten years since i started reading warriors is crazy to me. so some part of me wants to make an account dedicated to that but – also, i don't read the series anymore? so mainly i'd just talk about my ocs and random story ideas i have, and some echoclan would probably slip in there, clangen, also maybe fics i enjoy ... who knows! could happen but i'm still thinking about it lol. also, i think i do plan on possibly making a person of interest acc as well, but idk i am debating heavily. i've already made four new accs do i really need to add TWO MORE??? idk we shall see

BJM AND THE FUCKING DANDY WARHOLS ARE PLAYING TOGETHER IN AUSTIN IN OCTOBER!!! no one speak to me ever again this is the best goddamn thing to ever happen to me and tickets are being acquired as we speak

remember that time i listened to pol-pot’s pleasure penthouse and was momentarily taken to a higher place within the universe

i think i've just transcended to another level of consciousness. i have reached heights no other human has ever. in fact, i think i have acquired the ego death. it's like i'm on lsd without actually being on lsd. a truly unique experience. i may, perhaps, begin crying from the sheer beauty of this music i am listening to. i hope to die to this album or else there's no other reason for me to even continue living. send help because i may be a corpse by morningtime