Latest Posts by forthetomorrowwedeserve - Page 5
there is so much inside of me
and i can't get any of it out
in the ways that i want to.
the pretty ways that won't
make people worried about me again.
there are so many things
i want to tell you,
so many ways that i want to
scream and cry for help,
but i just stay silent,
letting the fear pile up in my throat
until it is gargling my words
away from my tongue
as i try to speak them.
i'm sorry we haven't
been talking as much lately,
it's just been hard to breathe.
hard to stomach the
self-inflicted homesickness,
the extra sting of knowing
that it is my fault that i miss you,
that i'm the one pushing you away.
hard to accept that it's because
i am terrified that if i let you in
you will drown with me.
-mars
I just LOVE being a switch.
When you're feeling dominant turn me into your crying mess with your fingers deep inside me.
When I'm feeling dominant let me have my hand around your neck with my strap pumping in and out of you.
When we're both feeling submissive let's rut against each other's thighs while we whimper into each other's mouths, desperately needy and aching.
When we're both feeling dominant let's tear each other's clothes off while we back each other up against every wall in the house, and probably break a few things on the way.
Ugh it's just so perfect.
As a sadist a huge part of my own aftercare is entangled with the aftercare of my sub. I need to know you’re ok and that I have tended to you in order to tend to myself. I need to know you don’t hate me. That you enjoyed yourself. I need reassurance. I need to bathe you and be bathed myself. To hold you close. To talk about what we did and how we feel. I love to snuggle clean dry warm and naked under a blanket. To watch a movie we’ve seen a hundred times before but that makes us smile, and it doesn’t matter if we randomly chat through it when a thought arises. To have snacks and drinks and all of the comfort items close by. If we can I would spend the night together, because some times drops can happen several hours later once the endorphins have stopped coursing. Let’s just take our time. This part is just as important as the scene <3
subs really do give so much by taking all they can. reminding them and ourselves that they deserve sincere praise for these acts of devotion which develop purely from a genuine connection of trust, reassurance, safety, and established communication is so important. they do it all for us, you know. i’m talking even past the aftercare, to lovingly dote on your sub otherwise is such a privilege. they should feel deeply cared for, empowered by the total control they have over their own treatment, overwhelmingly and undoubtedly loved. to give everything… well they’d deserve that much and more then, wouldn’t they <3
girls are so annoying bro why are you asking me if i like you when i’m literally in the middle of eating you out after telling you that i love you. ask me that again and i’m gonna make you tell me how much i love you. that’s right, you’re gonna tell ME “you love me” “you love me” over and over again while i’m in you to the hilt with my strap and i’ve got my teeth in your neck. shut up and get fucked like the princess you are, loser
Wake up and open your curtains. Your windows too.
Drink some tea or coffee, whatever pleases you. Notice every sip.
Have some fresh fruit and finish breakfast feeling full.
Stand outside and feel the air. Cool or warm, it will make you feel real.
Get some exercise. Yoga to soothe, running to breathe, lifting for strength.
Take care of your body. Have a nice shower and pamper as much as you want afterward.
If you’re going to work, remember you have the chance to make anyone’s day or to ruin it. Act accordingly.
Weed out the bad language. It’s only creating tension in your body and mind. Kind words are infinitely more appreciated.
Take some time each day to improve your mind. Keep reading that great book. Listen to an incredible piece of music. Practice an instrument or a skill. The progress is its own reward.
Pictures will help you remember how wonderful life is. But spend less time on your phone and more time seeing the world face to face.
Go to sleep knowing that you have done well. Tomorrow is there with room to become even better.
-Notes to myself on how to become a better person this summer.
🗡️ Sweet Nothings
cute prompts that are totally not based on my current situation teehee 🥰
“Stop being so pretty/handsome.” “You stop being so pretty/handsome!”
“Be gentle with me.” “Always.”
“My life is better with you in it.”
“I hope you know what you’re getting into.” “Oh do not worry, I knew exactly what I was getting into from the moment I met you.”
“How am I supposed to focus when you look at me like that?”
“Stay close to me darling.”
“What are you doing?” “Memorizing this so I can get it for you later.”
“Is there anything you want me to do my dear?”
“How did I get so lucky to find you?”
“You are incredibly comfortable.”
“Your eyes are the color I wanted on my old bedroom walls.”
“When I went over to learn how to bake something at their place… I asked them how to bake your favorite type of cake.”
“You’re adorable when you’re flustered.”
“And for my angel?”
“May I kiss you?”
https://www.instagram.com/frachella/
Mary Oliver, from Long Life: Essays And Other Writings originally published in 2004
it is late and i am alone,
sitting on the front porch,
and i wish, more than
anything else, that i had someone
that wanted to sit with me.
someone to look at the stars with
on the nights when the weather
is nice and the clouds
feel like sharing their secrets.
someone that will ask me
to stop by the store on my way home
and pick up a couple of bottles
of that champagne that we like.
someone to wake up with
the next morning,
instead of sleeping in,
because a walk in the park
and a sit by a fountain
cures everything, even hangovers.
someone that will share
those kinds of secrets with me.
someone to stop me from arguing
by reaching over and
plucking a few flowers for me.
someone to say, "here,
i know these will make you sneeze,
but i also know you would rather
have them and be sneezy
than not have them at all."
i want someone
for the little moments.
i want someone that gets
that the little moments
aren't little at all.
-mars
read literature. be present. make love. make tea. write a poem. cry. watch a sappy movie that makes you want to throw things at it. paint your nails. cook something. call your best friend. learn an instrument. wonder. take a bath. go for a walk. lie down on the grass. listen to the entirety of ur favorite album from 2016. take pics of sunsets. ponder. shamelessly dance in your room. curl up on your bed. make endless wishes to the stars twinkling in the midnight sky. think about nothing. think about everything. think about things so hard that you barely remember what happened moments ago and why you’re feeling the way you do
do you ever see a person and you are overcome with incredible fondness? and you just think "oh." but not in a romantic or sexual way you are just filled with warmth and it makes you happy, it just does. and you think "i'm so happy you exist. i'm happy you are somewhere out there in the world, doing your thing". it's love but also not entirely
like people are lovely and i feel it in my entire chest like a burning candle that smells like roses and a sunny day
"I would never-"
You would if you were tired enough. You would if you were hungry enough. You would if your mind and body had been worn down enough, through pain or disease or toil or violent struggle. You might if you were put on the wrong medicine, or you got the wrong kind of head injury, or you were forced to choose between someone else and yourself. You might if your livelihood was staked on it, or all your hopes and dreams. You might if you didn't know what else to do, if it's what you were taught or if nobody taught you anything else.
I have not been worn down in most of these ways. I have lived a remarkably privileged life. But I have been worn down in some ways. And they were enough to teach me that in the wrong circumstances, any of us can become someone we don't want to be. It's worth keeping that in mind.
list of things i love – flowers, the sound of rain, waking up with time still left to sleep, pasta, dancing to my favorite songs!!! sunrises, sunsets, fires in the fireplace, christmas time, being so busy i dont check my phone, local bookstores, jazz, clean sheets, long showers, the beach, the mountains, tea, art, reading, driving around aimlessly, the smell of new books, the smell of freshly brewed coffee, having a day dedicated to doing absolutely nothing, naps, laughing, new movies, rediscovering a song i forgot about, good hair days, imagining how my life will be in the future :)🍝🎄☕📚⭐
