“You Say It As Though It’s The Most Awful Thing You Can Imagine. It Isn’t As Though I’ve Done

No entiendo a mi padre cuando me llama desde México.

He talks about the weather and asks if I have heard about the sun. I tell him the sun has visited me in times of great need, but my father is already postulating about his garden. The pineapples have been growing in the heat for one and a half years and will be ready to harvest soon.

His plants are tended with patience and love, watched in development from seed to maturity. So careful is he with these living creatures and plot of land he calls his own. I remind him it’s only his for eighty-seven more years. Perhaps he should consider future generations of the living. But his voice is distant across the lines. I don’t have time to think about anything but now.

I think about these things after we hang up. I wonder if the pineapples fulfill him. Or if the sun warms his old bones.

LKT © 2016

They should invent an essay where you just do research forever and then you never write anything

I’m planning on doing NaNoWriMo in November, so expect snippets of my writing to start to appear daily 

SJM is never gonna care about a character she doesn't want to be or want to fuck.

Wow this is so accurate 

HI GUYS I FINALLY DID IT!!! i made my own printables for you wonderful human beings (incase anyone is interested) here we have a calendar, weekly planner and a to do list, designed by yours truly (myself) and it comes in 3 different colours C: 

it would be awesome if you guys do end up using it, and if you do end up using it dont forget to tag me or mention me in your posts ^~^ 

enjoy~

// P I N K // • calendar • weekly planner • to-do list

// B L U E // • calendar • weekly planner • to-do list

// Y E L L O W // • calendar • weekly planner • to-do list

p.s the to-do list is A5 and the weekly planner + calendar are A4  p.p.s if you have any questions, my ask box is always open c: p.p.p.s i only have my name on the cover of the calendar but please do credit me please and thank you!!!!!!

MY HAPPINESS

theory: poe dameron is absolutely jacked and none of the other pilots can work out why because he is never in the gym and all he does is lounge around and fly and eat stupendous quantities of food, but then finn catches him lifting bb-8 up for a cuddle and works it out, because bb-8 isn’t light. 

tl;dr: poe dameron’s work out consists solely of snuggling his droid

Greek Mythology Series - Nike, Goddess of Victory

“The first and greatest victory is to conquer oneself”

Promo for the @camphalfbloodnetwork

das Bibliothek, Olivier Martel Savoie

Actually had a productive day at the library going through my materials and writing notes on Mary Shelley

Thoughts on Fenhawke please!

I haven’t been called the Queen of FenHawke for nothing, strap the hell in for this small essay. 

Hawke’s hero journey is one of loss. It begins with their father already gone, and their home burning soon after. Lothering and Ferelden out of reach, and they also have to bury one of their siblings along the way. They arrive at Kirkwall and instead of having an estate, a home ready for them - they have an uncle distinctly unhappy to see them, and they have to scrape together coin from nothing. They buy their way into the expedition hoping to turn things around, but instead they lose another sibling either to the Wardens, Circle/Templars or via the Taint. Their mother follows soon after. They fight the Arishok, can be grievously wounded, and their reward is to have more responsibility put on them. They can do nothing to ease tensions between the Mages and Templars, and one of their friends uses them to his own end - and that end is the destruction of the Chantry, a good chunk of Kirkwall, and the beginning of the Mage/Templar war. 

If Hawke is not around, then there’s still going to be another investor into the expedition. If Hawke earns the Arishok’s respect, it could be said that their presence even delays the Invasion - Isabela had already stolen the Tome of Koslun before meeting Hawke and it’s unlikely she’d have given it back. Meredith already had a stranglehold grip on the Mages and Templars alike, and Orsino had been working with Quentin and researching blood magic. How helpless Hawke must feel to realize this. That despite all their actions, all their efforts, effectively nothing touched the overall outcome. They had placed themselves in a position of responsibility, had that responsibility validated, and despite anything they do, they can’t stop the final act from happening and Kirkwall burning not once, but twice in a few short years. 

Fenris’s journey, on the other hand, is one of gain. He begins having spent years on the run, without a moment of peace and safety. All he has is his time spent as a slave, and everything that comes with it. He’s pushed past the mentality of such a thing to escape, and has spent his time alone ever since. The only time he stops running is when he hires Hawke in Kirkwall. He tells Hawke he will give them everything he has in reward for helping him, but the only reward from the quest is what you find in the mansion itself. He has nothing. He stays in the mansion because he has nowhere else to go. 

Over the years spent in Kirkwall, he establishes himself with a respect no slave was allowed. Both Sebastian and Aveline mention how others look up to him, but in what he’s accomplished and his skill in battle. He gains friends, people he trusts enough to let into his home for Diamondback games, and for the first time in a very long time, he’s no longer alone. Fenris is a person who longs for love, and for acceptance. In almost every dialogue with other companions, you can tell how hard he’s trying. He craves family, and all that comes with it. By the third act, he has people he can rely on. When Varania is at the Hanged Man, he very politely and quietly asks Hawke to come with him because “it would mean a lot” to him. He’s learned to let people in, and not hide behind the persona of one rushing into a mansion yelling at the top of his lungs to prove that he’s not afraid.

Together, both Hawke and Fenris pull each other up and support each other. From the first moment of Hawke agreeing to go with him to the mansion, and Fenris putting aside all other things to very gratefully thank them. Even though he offered his aid to Hawke, I doubt he expected Hawke to actually take it - let alone Hawke to continually show up, talk to him, listen to him. After the scene in Act Two, when he leaves, Hawke waits for three years without asking for anything in return. We know from the discussion in Act Three that he feels incredibly guilty and ashamed of leaving but when Hawke’s mother is killed, he still shows up to be by Hawke’s side. No matter how hard it might have been to face Hawke in a place where he had walked away before. He also walked away because he knew he wasn’t ready and he knew that it wouldn’t be fair to Hawke to have them deal with that. He doesn’t spend those three years apart idle. He spends those three years growing, trying to be better - for himself, and for Hawke.

“I am yours.” It has so much meaning, coming from Fenris. He’s telling Hawke that he loves them, but also that he trusts them. He’s telling them that he’ll be at their side, no matter what, because he is theirs but also because he knows that Hawke will not abuse what Fenris is giving them - a willing length of chain. He’s given himself permission to love, to stop running, to find a home in another person. At the end of the game, when Hawke has truly lost almost everything, Fenris is at their side and will not leave it. Fenris and Hawke both gain not just friends, but a found family, and a lover who will support and care for them until the end.