How To Block Feelings Entirely And Just Become A Delicate Skinny Cold Angel? 🦄

It's the build up to my time of the month and honestly I didn't think of how much my body changes the scales haven't moved, I'm hungry constantly and am so bloated I wanna cry

I actually fucking hate being a woman sometimes fuck this

Not eating makes me happy

Losing weight makes me happy

Counting calories makes me happy

Burning off calories makes me happy

Being in control makes me happy

burgundy nails, cigarettes, unfinished books, messy hair, oversized clothes, bones sticking out, tired eyes, black coffee, and chapped lips.

I romanticize the ache.

The dizziness is like a dream. My collarbones are writing poetry, my waist is whispering secrets only the strong can hear. I don’t need to be okay. I just need to be thinner.

-30 lbs by summer

-30 lbs by summer

-30 lbs by summer

-30 lbs by summer

The worst thing is I haven't gone over my c@ls in 2 weeks not once and my body just doesn't look or feel any different. 😕