There's An Inherent Cruelty To Being A Mastermind.

You know, the more I think about it, the more it makes sense

I think one of the reasons why Kaito said that he didn't fully believe Kokichi's dying words and still hated him might be because... He didn't want to believe. He denied it because admitting it would mean admitting that he had killed an ally. And even though Kokichi asked for it himself, it still feels... bad. Awful. Kaito already 100% blames himself for this death, even if he didn’t want to really show it. Because if he didn't care, he wouldn't put SO much effort into his acting (and he gave his 200%). Plus, he's a very good-hearted person on his own.

So, if he would admit that he killed a (mostly) good person, then what kind of person does this make him? Does that mean that he is not so good of a person himself? And that bothers him not just because of his obsession with being a hero. He has a very strong moral principles. He always wants to help everyone.

Too little time had passed since the murder, and that time was mostly taken up by the Class Trial, where he had no time to process anything. Kaito simply didn't have an opportunity for that. I'm pretty sure he's still at the stage of denial. He simply refused to think about it, because deep down, of course, he understands everything. But he was not ready to admit this yet, especially out loud, and ESPECIALLY in front of his friends. Admitting this out loud would make this real. Admitting it out loud would mean admitting defeat.

My favourite idea in modern fantasy is potion candy.

For example in Bayonetta, alchemical recipes are turned into lollipops. They’re tastier, easier to carry around than bottles, and modern crafting techniques means they’re more potent than traditional potions.

"Hancock has no regrets about becoming a ghoul"??

It baffles me when some people think Hancock has zero regrets about becoming a ghoul. Absolutely none at all apparently. Like yeah, he plays it up when you first meet him before he's a companion, but let's be real he plays up pretty much everything in regards to the whole "sexy king of the zombies" image he projects.

It takes travelling with you away from Goodneighbor to give him some time to be introspective for him to finally realize that him becoming a ghoul was just another escape route from himself again. He's got several lines of dialogue that literally reiterate this. It's a key point of his character:

Hell, running from myself is what made me into… into a damn Ghoul.

Well, I mean, I didn't always look this good. The drug that did this to me, that made me a Ghoul, I knew what it was going to do.

I just couldn't stand looking at the bastard I saw in the mirror anymore.

The coward who'd let all those Ghouls from Diamond City die. Who was too scared to protect his fellow drifters from Vic and his boys.

If I took it, I'd never have to look at him again. I could put that all behind me. I'd be free. Didn't seem like a choice at all. Turns out it was just me running from somethin' else in my life.

I mean, after reaching max affinity with you, he realizes that maybe it wasn't such a bad thing after all (because he's finally got an honest friend he can be open with now). He now feels comfortable where he is - but to imply that he doesn't have at least the tiniest amount of regret? Heck, if you go onto romance him (or attempt to), he stops referring to himself as handsome and literally starts calling himself ugly, which naturally goes entirely against the image he projects:

Why don't we just agree to keep it friendly for now or till they find a cure for ugly? Heh.

You don't want to wake up to this mug every morning. Never wish that on anyone I cared for.

You sure you want to be stuck with this ugly mug?

(You could even say he implies it beforehand with another line of dialogue elsewhere in-game when he says "I'd be mad too if I was that ugly." But that's a stretch I guess.)

Combine that with the fact that 99% of ghouls don’t choose to become ghouls. Hancock did. But he didn't do it for a fun experience. He was already in a bad place when he became a ghoul. He didn't turn to be cool and edgy like he pretended he did when first getting to know him.

He lost his appearance, any connections to his old identity and old friends/people he might’ve been associated with (for better or worse), and in return gained hostility from bigots towards him for merely existing, from an overwhelming majority of the Commonwealth population that hates ghouls. There's the Institute and Brotherhood who want to kill anyone like him on top of that. Plenty of people out there who think he and other ghouls are monsters for just being alive.

Not only that, but something which adds onto this is the fact that he's a client of the Memory Den, and they're very selective with their customers. And what's the whole point of the Memory Den? Reliving past memories. Irma's terminal entry about Hancock, as well as the other two ghoul clients Kent and Daisy, all imply the memories they go back to relive are primarily from their human days. (The one on Hancock straight up says "if you thought he was handsome and dangerous now, you should've seen him before he turned ghoul.")

I genuinely refuse to believe that Hancock has never had any regret whatsoever about becoming a ghoul. The man who's spent a decent chunk of his life running from his own problems instead of confronting them, has NO regrets about taking a drug that alters his entire being and functionality on a biological level and will force him to outlive everyone he knows? This man is FULL of regrets!

Mushrooms Tent

*pointing aggressively* RENT. FREE.

it really does bother me how no one can seem to answer the question “what even is romantic attraction, really.” like some people are like “it’s who you wanna kiss and cuddle <3” and I’m like ok well kisses and cuddles can be either sexual or platonic depending on context. “It’s who you feel passion/desire/arousal for” well that just sounds like sexual attraction which you can have without even knowing somebody so I fail to see how that’s romantic. “It’s who you want to go on dates with” I go on dates with friends all the time plus “date” is a social construct anyway there’s really no innate difference between a date and hanging out. “it’s who you have deep feelings for” great news for you that can be literally any type of relationship. my friend told me she defined it as “who you wanna give roses to” and I’m like do u hear urself??? like the more I talk to people the more I’m convinced romance and romantic attraction is an elaborate socially fabricated illusion that has no real defining characteristics. and like there’s nothing Wrong with it being a constuct but why people are so attached to defending the supremacy of it is something I cannot for the life of me figure out

Big fan of the headcanon that both The Captain and Head Engineer remember everything that happened, but neither are quite sure if the other does.

Mark treads carefully around The Captain. Do they know that he hurt them? He works harder than ever. Do they know what he's trying to make up for? He makes sure to remind them that they're doing a good job, that they're making the right decisions. Do they remember the awful things he blamed them for?

The Captain makes sure that Mark knows his work is appreciated. Does he know everything they forced him through? They remind him to take breaks and look after himself. Does he remember all the work he put in trying in vain to help? They make sure that he always has access to plenty of food and water and even while everyone is sleeping the ship never feels abandoned. Does he remember all the life times he died starving and alone?

Two lost souls, trying silently to comfort and making things up to each other, not knowing if the other even knows what they're atoning for.

Title : The end

Characters : Aizawa shouta/ fem reader

Genre : angst/ imagines

Note : The events occur after the Jaku hospital raid.

Part 2

Masterlist

AO3

Okay but imagine..

Shōta is sitting on the edge of his hospital bed, a vacant look on his face. He has just lost an eye and a leg in the last battle, and probably the ability to use his quirk any longer.

He hears a commotion outside of his room before you storm in and stand a few feet away from him:

_ "Shōta, you're finally awake. I thought I lost you. You were unconscious for days."

You sob, still not believing that your man is finally back.

He says nothing, the vacant look still present on his face. You walk up to him and hug him lightly, careful not to disturb his fresh wounds. But he doesn't hug you back like he always does..

You pull away and look at his face, he says nothing..

You understand that what happened to him can be too much to bare, so you don't question him and simply smile reassuringly.

You lean in for a kiss, but before you could reach his lips, he speaks: "Leave."

You stop dead in your tracks, eyes wide and a lump growing in your throat: "Shōta.."

He finally looks at you before continuing in the same monotone voice:

_ "It's over for us."

...What?

_ "I'm breaking up with you if that's not already clear."

...No it can't be. Is this a joke?

_ "To tell you the truth, I've never really loved you to begin with."

...That's not true, he's lying right?

_ "It took me a near death experience to finally realize that I don't want to waste what's left of my life with someone I have no feelings for."

You're trying to speak, to say anything, but your mouth is dry and your thoughts are foggy. You search his expressions for any signs of wavering but you find none.

He presses the nurse call button and asks the lady to escort you out.

You say nothing, you're unable to anyway. The only thing you can do is cry as the woman drags you outside.

Little did you know, his words tortured him more than they did you. He loves you too much that it made more sense to let you go than to burden your heart. Because in his own disturbed mind, he's not even half the man he used to be...

He breaks down right after you leave his room.

I may or may not have broken my own heart a little bit with this one.

I don't know why this AU is so funny to me.

AU: Kokichi is an AI that was made for the 53rd killing game but he went rogue.

Saiouma Week 2023 - Mastermind/Bandages

Mastermind Shuichi and how it'd reflect off Kokichi always fascinated me, so this prompt was PERFECT for me. So much angst material, so many what-ifs, so many thoughts

Originally this was like 4 pages instead of 2, with some inner dialogue from Kokichi and some taunting from Shuichi but I didn't really have enough dialogue ideas or visuals to justify that and honestly just these two pages killed me (especially the second one AGHH), this was actually the first thing I started on for Saiouma week and took me ages so I had to get drawing the others

A struggle was also drawing Kokichi, he doesn't typically let things on through his facial expressions and acts nonchalant but comics are a visual medium, so. I didn't want to have him OOC but I kinda had to and just own it