(does One Thing) Hm I Think I Deserve A Little Reward :) (walks Around In Circles Listening To Music

As someone with really terrible memory I totally relate!! It’s okay that you don’t remember when you awakened, you’re not alone <3

I can't remember my awakening :(

The problem with having dissociative amnesia and be in the non human community is that I see all of these other beings saying, like, "I awakened in 20xx"

and I'm like I- I don't remember. I cannot remember . And then I don't feel valid, and I know it's stupid, but.

*explodes :(*

Like, idk if anyone can relate, but I don't even remember when I discovered what being non human/therian meant!!

Sometimes I feel like I just spawned here and it sucks!! I can't remember anything about me or my past.

...Anyway *eats little snack

(idk, I hope at least one of y'all can feel a bit less alone bc I wrote this)

Here is a drawing that took me like 2 minutes to commemorate neil and his tunes

being physically nonhuman explains why I don’t really experience mental shifts. I am always mentally me. My brain is not human, and so I never shift from a more human brain to a more nonhuman brain. I just am.

ND things i’m really hoping other people can relate to

“you touched my arm and now i have to cut it off”

“i blinked wrong. i have to do it again. again. again. again. again. okay that’s better.”

“sorry i didn’t quite catch that. sorry could you just- yeah. what? huh? no i didn’t get that- could you just write it down?”

directions just go in one ear and out the other

and god forbid i have to talk to anyone with an accent

“i didn’t listen to that song right. i have to do it again. again. again. again. again. okay, better.”

the r a g e when your plan/routine gets disrupted

“oh that leaf brushed my left hand? okay cool now i gotta brush it against my right hand in exactly the same way or else i’ll Die”

“this has to be symmetrical or i will gouge my eyes out because it feels BAD”

the exhaustion that sometimes follows talking about a special interest

getting overwhelmed talking about/interacting with your special interest

“what emotion is this?”

“this is the only song i can listen to and it brings me a genuine feeling of relief/release to hear it. i must loop it over and over until i suddenly hate it. i don’t know why.”

randomly finding yourself thinking/talking like a robot and having to consciously switch on emotions/empathy

or the other way around, if you get overwhelmed

“loud noises are fucking terrifying and i will cry if i get caught off guard by one”

“someone i don’t like/trust/know touched this thing and now i can’t until it’s been washed”

p a i n

where is the pain coming from? idk.

what’s itching??? where is that???

“wow that hurt! okay, i gotta do it again”

feel free to add on!!

its so weird being angelkin and wolfkin bc on one hand im like "release me from this flesh prison, you foolish mortals aren't worthy of my Holiness" and on the other hand im like "grrr awoooo!!! woof grr :3"

The struggle to act right in public when you really want to act like the creature you are

ps1 rat

+jagged edges

People with ADHD be like:

I LOVE WOLFQUEST!!!

definitely feeling like a ball python lately. I just want to curl up in a ball and hide away from the world.