Losing Weight To Heal My Inner Child Because She Was Fat, And I Think She Deserves A Glow Up.

Wanted to introduce myself;

You can call me Tess.

Used to roam the digital streets of edtblr and edtwt before it was even cool. Then I tried to recover… and even though I was never skinny, I am now bigger then I’ve ever been.

Overweight my whole life… to mia… to different font of mia… to bed… to being obese pipeline.

I really tried losing weight the healthy way… but bed is kicking my butt.

cw: let’s round up to 120kg

Looking for friends, mutuals, anyone who wants to cry together

In my mid-20s, so under 18s please don’t follow me.

I ate wayyyy too much yesterday…. Even with my nausea and food aversion. Ridiculous. Like wtf. Even when I am physically sick I still eat too much. I want to cry.

You are not hungry you just need water, drink

Ate too much… but no binge and counted everything.

Breakfast: yogurt (122) with a banana (121) and some müsli hearts (116)

Snack: Some pastries (106)

Lunch: lentil (116) with chicken thighs (486)

- They were way too oily, I felt sick after eating it.

Dinner/Controlled binge: toast (140) with ham (43) and cheese (56) and a whole bag of chips (803)

- I feel disgusted with myself after this.

Total: 2109kcal 👎

High res = low cal

Low res = High-er cal

Crash Course! High Res vs. Low Res

idk if it's just me but it annoys me sooooo bad when I see people misusing low/high res... I think I'm just weird tho.

ANYWAY... for u guys who keep misusing them,

HIGH RES(TRICTION) = RESTRICTING A LOT (I.E NOT EATING MUCH/RESTRICTING YOUR CALORIES A TON)

LOW RES(TRICTION) = RESTRICTING A LITTLE (I.E EATING A BIT MORE/NOT RESTRICTING AS MUCH)

High res does not mean you're eating like 1200kcal... Low res does not mean you're eating 200kcal...

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk

WIEIAD: 04.01.2025

I was constantly so sooo hungry & ate like a pig 🐽

Brunch with my friend: 2 mimosas (324), slice of sourdough bread (222) with butter (25) and turkey ham (45), 2 hard-boiled eggs (143), ~10 red radishes (180), and some salami (131)

- Total: 1070

Snacks while hanging out with my friend: popcorn (118), cappuccino (59), half a croissant (106) with apricot jam (48), a pastry filled with vanilla pudding (341), and a salty pastry with seeds (322)

- I feel so guilty about eating the last two pastries… I really didn’t need to do that

- Total: 995

Dinner with my mom: slice of sourdough bread (222), with blood sausage (300), leftover radish (18), and a mimosa (162)

Evening snack: vegetable soup I made (83)

Grand Total: 2850 😭👎

REBLOG IF YOU ARE AN ACTIVE ED-BLOG IN 2025!! LETS FIND MOOTS!!

Reminder for future me:

Binging will NOT make you happy and will NOT fix anything. Binging will bring so many tears and nausea and bloating and the food won't even taste good because you shove it down your throat too fast.

I feel like shit right now after yesterdays binge and you do NOT want to feel this way. You DON'T want to binge.

And remember that a binge won't ruin anything. You just have to push through afterward. Remember future me, remember how long I had to fast and how the lax cramps felt in addition to the guilt

YOU DO NOT WANT TO BINGE

I ended up stress eating because of how much my family yells at me