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I miss the days where I could fast WITHOUT GETTING SO NAUSEOUS and getting a migraine.

Like hello my fat body… we didn’t eat for like 14 hours… we skipped two meals. Chill out. I feel like a rattled old dog.

What I ate today… yes it’s a lot, but no binge and I counted all the calories.

Breakfast: Scrambled eggs (228) with spinach (46) and cherry tomatoes (40) and bacon (80), and a piece of toast (74)

- Felt really full for a long time after, so I think this was a great breakfast choice. But it made me so nauseous to eat it.

Lunch: spaghetti from my grandma (~830) and two pickles (13)

- Not the best chose but I was forced to eat it. I estimated really high because she cooks with a lot of oil.

- I did not feel good after eating it, I was hungry so quick.

Shameful snacks: half of the can of cheese puffs (100% just cheese) (209), and a fun drink (122)

- Really could have gone without these… I feel so bad about eating it. But at least I made it planned and counted the calories.

Dinner: toasted bread (134) with spreadable cheese (56) and turkey ham (22), and tortilla chips (158)

- I have a headache and was craving it… honestly I don’t feel bad about eating it even though it’s so carb heavy.

Total: 2014cal 👎

Reminder for future me:

Binging will NOT make you happy and will NOT fix anything. Binging will bring so many tears and nausea and bloating and the food won't even taste good because you shove it down your throat too fast.

I feel like shit right now after yesterdays binge and you do NOT want to feel this way. You DON'T want to binge.

And remember that a binge won't ruin anything. You just have to push through afterward. Remember future me, remember how long I had to fast and how the lax cramps felt in addition to the guilt

YOU DO NOT WANT TO BINGE

your disorder is still valid if you:

- aren’t uw

- don’t fast

- do high res

- have never fainted

- labs are okay

- like food

- binge / “lose control”

- don’t exercise

- don’t purge

- eat sweets / junk

if your thoughts and behaviours around food cause you significant distress, you have an ed.

Did a Pilates class this morning and I sweat like a fucking pig, I feel disgusting. But at least all my muscles burn now. I hope the fat burns away with it.

Apparently Diet Coke and Coke Zero break a fast…

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WIEIAD: 04.01.2025

I was constantly so sooo hungry & ate like a pig 🐽

Brunch with my friend: 2 mimosas (324), slice of sourdough bread (222) with butter (25) and turkey ham (45), 2 hard-boiled eggs (143), ~10 red radishes (180), and some salami (131)

- Total: 1070

Snacks while hanging out with my friend: popcorn (118), cappuccino (59), half a croissant (106) with apricot jam (48), a pastry filled with vanilla pudding (341), and a salty pastry with seeds (322)

- I feel so guilty about eating the last two pastries… I really didn’t need to do that

- Total: 995

Dinner with my mom: slice of sourdough bread (222), with blood sausage (300), leftover radish (18), and a mimosa (162)

Evening snack: vegetable soup I made (83)

Grand Total: 2850 😭👎

I can’t fast anymore because then I feel so nauseous and get migraines and can’t get anything done…

I miss my fasting days before I became obese.

I wanted to take a piece of chocolate while with my family… and they told me that I am too fat to eat crap like that.

#bestspo lol