Your Disorder Is Still Valid If You:

You’re so pathetic. Look at yourself—every bite you take, every excuse you make, it’s proof you’re a failure.

Do you think people like you deserve to eat? They don’t. You don’t.

Every time you pick up a fork, you’re choosing to stay worthless. You’re choosing failure over progress, weakness over strength. And for what? A moment of comfort that you’ll hate yourself for afterward?

The hunger you feel? It’s what you deserve for letting yourself get like this in the first place.

It’s not punishment; it’s a reminder.

A reminder that you have work to do.

That you’re still not enough.

That you haven’t earned anything yet—not food, not pride, not the right to look at yourself without disgust.

Don’t you dare give in to your cravings. They don’t care about you. They just want to ruin you.

You’re not allowed to eat again until you’ve earned the right to exist in your own skin.

Not until you’ve suffered enough to make a difference.

The version of yourself you want isn’t built through comfort. She’s built through hunger, through pain, through sacrifice.

So do better.

Be better.

Because right now, you’re nothing. And if you give up again, that’s all you’ll ever be.

Please Lord, i don’t want to count down the hours until i can eat. I want to forget to eat..

What I ate yesterday~

(+ some dried seaweed I forgot to picture)

Snacks: green grapes, cherry tomatoes, salad, and soybeans; I weighed everything. (328cal)

Dinner: Beef with pasta and sauce, and a slice of chocolate cake (~700cal)

Snack: seaweed (~90cal)

Total: 1118cal

I can’t fast anymore because then I feel so nauseous and get migraines and can’t get anything done…

I miss my fasting days before I became obese.

me every time i take a shower:

*Mutual reblogs something you posted*

Me: They still like me. Thank God.

So embarrassing… 😭

If I don’t lose this before graduation. I will lose my mind…

I ate a lot again… but no binge! And I counted everything!

Breakfast: Egg burrito made with 2 eggs (152), cherry tomatoes (34), bacon (80), and tortilla (193) - with some ketchup (~22)

- Felt really good after eating this, but was missing the spinach (I ran out)

Snack: New years pastries my grandma baked (212)

- I love these so much and I’m really glad I ate some without feeling too guilty.

Lunch: konjac noodles (8), tuna (113), soy sauce (8), and some dried seaweed (30)

- 10/10 amazing yummy delicious

Snack: More pastries (106) and a fun drink (129)

Dinner: More pastries (318), with a salad (6), ham (123) and cheese (56) tortilla wrap (193), and some corn tortilla chips (158)

- I really regret eating the tortilla chips, I didn’t even really enjoy them.

Snack: Gummy bears (68)

- Tried these for the first time they have stevia sweetener. My only problem with them is that they are not nearly sour enough!! Why do they call them sour gummies!!

Total: 2010cal 👎

I also drank literally like 3litres of tea today because I was so hungry….

Question for the ed babes; how do you count cals when you c/s?