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So long, so gone

What have you been doing all this time? Did you learn anything new? Did you try anything new? Did you live or survived? 

Maybe we should all really try harder -not on the emotional meaning of course-- but on the physical and rational way, go for it, try it, risk it. 

So I’m in love with the Tropical Rouge Cure designs, especially Cure Summer.

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I wish I could draw. But I never really tried.  I wish I could write. But I never studied anything about it. I wish I could dance. But I never attend to any class.

I wish many things. But I am never feeling well enough to try anything. 

CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT THEY ALL HAVE IN COMMON? 😔

I decided it was about time for me to write online about eating disorders and what it takes to truly recover from it.

How to do it? I don't know - yet.

I found myself again undereating And overexercising and somehow I found it to be disturbing. It wasn't my first time doing it, it was definitely not the worst I got. However this time I was older, not a teenager anymore, not as emotional about it and for my luck, I had Instagram.

Might be a good question to ask, how Instagram helped me? Showed me - since I was for a long time searching about diets and exercises- some bloggers defending something called 'intuitive eating'. And what is this? It is basically some women that, tired of suffering during their entire life from undereating and fighting eating disorders caused by what they called the "diet culture", decided to study about nutrition, most of them are professionals of the area, and then decided to speak to other woman about how society has convinced them to be under their set-point weight all for the sake of the "perfect female's body".

Most of them suffered, as I do, of anorex1a nervosa and put their bodies under an extreme stress. All the idea behind what they defend is not that complicated but I can't say I truly absorb it. I am indeed still trying to recover, still trying to eat what I want, to not worry about how fit I look and all that :good: stuff everybody already knows about.

One thing however, I found to be the most important point I got from them: society does tell woman to undereat, it does convince us that if we are not skinny and fit we are not -truly- enough, it does makes us believe there is the ideal body, the ideal BMI - this last one has a dark history on my point of view - and it does for sure put in our minds some crazy productivity standards when it is up to working out. At least, now, I know it is not ok to eat less than 1000 kcal, workout twice a day for 2h straight and weight myself almost everyday.

And that is might point about what it takes to recover from a eating disorder: recognize it, study about it and work on how you see and deal with food and your own body, accept and start to listen to yourself, not to the calorie's app or the fitness blogger that has an intense workout routine while eating only protein shakes and bars. You know what you need, honor yourself and your body. It is all a process but I am happy that I started it and I have people by my side that care and are helping me with it.

✧・ﾟ:*Today’s magical girl of the morning is: Cinnamon from The Caster Chronicles!✧・ﾟ:*

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I like art, I like paintings, drawings, texts, or any type of creational exposure. It makes me feel good, it makes everything easier to me. And, even though most people during all my life said that it would never be enough for me to survive, today, I honestly advise anyone to go after it. Do you like writing? Are you happy making animations? Painting? Dancing? DO IT! Go after it, because working on a 9-5 job will either make you happy or give you money.  Not anymore, not on this world. So, if you are supposed to struggle with bills, might as well do it while being happy.

✧・ﾟ:*Today’s magical girl of the night is: Wyndham from Gothic Wa Mahou Otome!✧・ﾟ:*

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