I've Been Out Of Commission So To The Stomach Flu. But I'm Back Now. I Apologize For My Absence.

I'm proud of myself. I was quite productive today.

Homemade sauce and meatballs with store bought noodles. Lemon water and candied lemon peels.

what I've been eating the last couple days.

Tomato soup with egg noodle. Coconut water with pulp and sparkling water. What I didn't photograph was the two pieces of homemade cake. The three chocolate chip cookies. The random pieces of bread and the four marshmallows I eat straight out of the bag. And the concerning amount of pasta I've eaten all week. I need to go shopping so I've just been scrounging. I did eat a bit more sugar then I probably should have but I refuse to feel bad about it. I'm enjoying getting my appetite back after being sick.

February 18th.

I had cereal. Half a hot pocket and spinach salad. Some soup I made and peaches for dessert. Then for snack. I had a grain bar and raspberry lemonade.

It's okay to eat 'more than you need.' Maybe you are extra hungry! Maybe there is a fun event and you are sharing in social joy! Maybe you just wanted something because it made your day better. You are allowed to enjoy food and not think of it in terms of numbers.

I just wanted to show you what I made today. I know it's not aesthetic but I want to create a little reminder that we can't find joy in the small things in this up coming year of stress while also motivating myself to actually eat. I'm recovering from a eating disorder and I want to be able to look back at my progress and be proud of how far I've come.

It's salt and pepper chicken with black berry sauce and honey yeast rolls. Paired with orange tea.

White tailed deer. All photos are mine and were taken at a respectful distance. Remember that predators will leave if you're too much work but prey animals will end you for looking at them wrong.

A white tailed doe with her fawn and yearling.

I absolutely loved watching them grow over the years. Unfortunately the young buck in this photo was struck by truck and passed.

Heads up to anyone with arachnophobia.

I just realized that I'm super late to the intro post.

I suck at doing these.

You can call me Felix or real what ever comes to mind. I personally don't have a preference.

I use (He/they) pronouns. In in my mid twenties and broke as a joke.

I've had a eating disorder for most of my life and I started my recovery journey because it was actually killing me.

I love photograph and reading and I welcome any and all D.Ms and message no matter what kind as long as they're respectful.

Mississippi kite.

I take all my pictures myself.

A relapse doesn’t erase the progress you made by staying clean.

If you’ve been clean for a day, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for a week, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for a month, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for longer, I’m proud of you.

If you relapsed after being clean for a while, I’m proud of you for staying clean however long you did. A relapse isn’t the end of the world. I’m still proud of you for everything you did to try to stay clean.

If you have tried to stay clean and failed, I’m proud of you for trying. It’s hard, I know. Don’t give up. I’m proud of you.

No matter what, I’m proud of you. I’m proud of you for everything. I’m proud of you for being alive right now. Don’t say you don’t deserve this, because you do. You very much do.

Thank you for existing.