Currently Bashing My Head Into The Wall

ok i’m locked in and riddled with shame. lowkey need to stfu

Who up feeling ugly as hell

i love my friends so much!!!

i see the universe in their eyes, the warmth in their smiles, the love in their hearts. i am so glad i have people that allow me to love them.

anyway, just wanted to post something more lighthearted.

oh deer

Only two ADHD tasks

1) this task will take me five minutes but I couldn’t possibly do it because I have an appointment in six hours

2) this task will take five hours but I’ll just do it first thing in the morning before I leave

Love isn’t missed calls and sore wrists

Love isn’t encouraging me to deprive myself of life

Love isn’t making empty promises

Love isn’t making me feel disposable

Love is my boyfriend listening and making me feel heard even when he doesn’t know what to say

Love is my boyfriend being open to communication no matter how difficult the conversation is

Love is my boyfriend rushing to hold me when I cried about missing my mom

Love is napping in the warm Colorado sun together

And love is staying up late to play Halo and eat Pop-Tarts

Love is making me feel loved without having to ask for it

Love is so gentle when you come across the right person

i hold resentment deep in my chest and it eats me from the inside out

i wish i wasn’t jealous of people for having things they deserve

Often times we when we are enamored, we are blinded by our rose tinted lenses, but you must remember: You cannot fabricate someone else’s love for you. When you cut someone open looking for something you won’t find, all you get is blood.