Every Word Written Is A Victory. No Matter How Shitty. No Matter How Painful To Write. No Matter If You

This is your daily reminder to not be ashamed of making your life easy for yourself.

Cut your food into small pieces, make the font size 30 on your e book, use straws to drink, get a pen that’s comfortable to hold, take more naps, walk slowly, eat another cookie, buy velcro shoes, re-watch the part you couldn’t understand the first time, write things on your hands so you don’t forget it… whatever you want and/or need

Don’t let anyone tell you how you should be doing things. We don’t need to prove each other anything

𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐲𝐛𝐥𝐫. 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨

hi.... I don't know where to start here so I just thought I could give you a little information about me.

I started this blog because I find it hard to motivate myself to study. It's the end of my second semester in college, and it didn't go the way I planned. I read somewhere that romanticizing life doesn't mean push away the ugly parts, but find the beauty in the ugly parts.

I started this blog because I thought it would be a good way to develop aqantiences who are focused on education and hold myself accountable. Besides I thought it would be fun.

𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐞:

i have adhd

name: call me cowboy

pronouns: she/her (work in progress)

college: freshman studying animal science with a minor in equine science

sports; IHSA Equestrian

hobbies: reading, writing, horseback riding, art

fun facts

i have a dog named Roseter

i went to a fine arts school

i listened to 2000 minutes of Hoizer in the month of January

i am a certified cinephile ( Ik how obnixous that sounds)

𝐠𝐨𝐚𝐥𝐬

read more

go to the gym ( get physically stronger)

eat better & drink water

keep a journal

Latin

write daily

study daily

dress better

write personal essays

current events/projects

fall reading list 2024

summer reading list

discipline is self care

self care isn't just face masks and bubble baths, it's also doing your assignment in advance so you won't pull an all nighter before the deadline, cooking at home instead of ordering out; discipline is an act of self love and care

Your writing is good enough. Stop doubting yourself. Stop criticizing yourself. You are a good writer. Yes, you can always improve your craft, but that doesn't mean that your writing sucks.

Ways to Experience More

(Hi, I am still alive! Working on some longer posts but for now have this mini one..)

Go to a meeting of a club in your community/school/neighbourhood

Actually attend one of those events your campus throws, even if you have to go alone

Attend a festival

Do that thing you’ve always wanted to do that your parents never let you do

Don’t be afraid to go to places alone if you have no one else to go with

If you are able to—travel, apply for your uni’s study abroad program, apply for field school

Volunteer!

If you don’t have a job, try out a job you think might be interesting or that will give you a skill you want

Change food brands from what you usually buy for one week

Look up the events going on where you live. Commit to going to two.

Go out hiking, to the beach, to the lake. Explore nature.

Take a class or attend a lecture on a topic you’re interested in

5/31/24

sorry guys for the breif break, but school got out and I decided to allow myself a bit of a break. for the past two weeks I have had the luxury of being a slug, but i start my job in two days and decided to begin to acclimate myself to being a functional human. throughout my break i was proud of myself because i wrote every day, weather that was journaling or working on something publishable, and i read daily.

being home was an unwelcome change, me and my mom don't get along, and thankfully she had been working in office the past 2 weeks, but now that shes working from home I've decided to spend as little time as possible at home. my mom is generally unsupportive of anything that she doesn't seem as valuable, and sees my hobbies as a waste of time unless she can brag to her friends about it.

in other good news, i've found a new eq barn and am trying it out tomorrow, I've been drinking water consistently and i found my bracelet and necklace that i thought i loss. they belonged to my dad before i 'stole' them, and have become very important to me, despite my hatred of working retail, i am excited to have some structure in my life, i find that when i have appointments or schedules it makes me more productive so working again should be good for me, anyway here's to what i did today

whay i did today:

wahsed hair

oiled scalp

read only the brave washed and put away clothes

washed dishes

cooked

journaled

went through storage bins

drunk a crap ton of water

some writing tips that i need to remember and thought some might be helpful

okay so just write, it doesn't matter if you hate the words or not just get them on paper, you're going to change it in the editing process anyway

if you want to write in a specific style write in whatever style you can at the time, it is easier to change words that exist if you're unfamiliar with the style than create them from scratch

if you hate your writing at the time you can always go back and rewrite

rewriting is your best friend, don't be afraid of highlighting a text you hate, I promise you if you reread it the next day or even like an hour later you won't hate it as much

[05.14]

Its been a weird few days, I finished my first semester, with a bang, got myself off of academic probation and rose my gpa to a 2.55, i was initally proud of myself I kept thinking about how I could have done better. today i found out i have to reapply for my job because of my leave and I am suddenly overwhelmed with the sheer amount of clutter that lives in my life. I've been trying to live more intentionally, live with less, but I chronically horde out of fear that my things, my uniquely acquired and curated things will be taken away by my mother who seems to take a sick pride in making me sad.

I woke up at 7 and took a shower, and lied in my bed with just a towel because I had the house to myself. I didn't dry off completely and tuned the fan on to the highest setting because I wanted to feel cold.

I fear I have been making my to-do list too long and overwhelming, so tomorrow I have planned for less, making the list more smaller and manageable makes me more likely to try.

sorry for being weirdly introspective, it's been a confusing few days

what i did today: ate 2 meals wrote 600 words finished everything i never told (lmk if yall want opinions) started reading that was then, this was now wash dishes unpacked 5 boxes organized sewing area organize bookshelf made jello washed hair organized desk talked to a friend

please feel free to reach out, always looking for mutuals

I will succeed. Not immediately. But definitely.