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hey guys, sorry for being flaky, i really have no excuse or reason, but last night I had the thought that I missed the little community I created on here. This blog doesn't have to be an obligation or anything at all, but what I want. I enjoyed documenting my progress works and accomplishments and enjoyed helping others do the same, so I guess I'm back

always go back to this qoute when i feel like my writing is bad

“Be willing and unafraid to write badly, because often the bad stuff clears the way for good.” — Jennifer Egan

Tips for Writing with ADHD

I don't typically do things like this but here we are, these are just some things I've picked up along the way that may or may not help

Split up your chapter or document

The most I'm able to handle is about 1-2k wc per page before I start getting overwhelmed/unable to process half of what I'm reading & writing so this one's the most helpful IMO. I separate subjects into individual documents so I can somewhat stay on track and that way I'm not trying to filter through the beginning/middle/end all at once.

Words & sentence structures

If you can't remember a specific word/structure the sentence the way you're intending; first of all moniter your time but if you can't get it right just underline and move on with your doc. You can always come back later vs getting sucked into a time void without progress.

Where to start

If writing from beginning to end isn't working, start at the most interesting point of your doc and work from there. My chapters end up like connect the dots but it keeps me engaged overall.

References

(This one may do more harm than good for some people so bare that in mind.)

If your thoughts start to wander too much/your having issues getting words down/your under stimulated, pick up a book for a few minutes. This generally helps me get back on track with focus & refreshes my memory on sentence structures/formatting/ect. If your having problems paying attention to that as well then it's best to take a break for a bit.

Timers

This one's important, especially when editing. Set timers, more so if you feel like you're getting stuck. It's easy to lose track of actual hours so i set them for around every 15-20 minutes while editing so if I'm not making progress with one area I know to move on and save it for later.

Get it down immediately

Google docs, notes app, even texting it to yourself just get the idea out before it's gone, even if it's just a few words.

Text to speech

If you can't follow along with your own writing/ reading it aloud isn't helping or if you're just looking for errors, copy and paste you doc into a text to speech site.

BGM

Background music can be helpful especially if it's noisy where you're writing. I aim for music without words so it doesn't end up overly engaging so, classical, music boxes, instrumentals and the like.

Minimize distractions

Set aside a specific time period you plan to write and turn off all notifications on your phone / minimize all possible distractions.

Okie-dokie lastly make sure you're taking breaks if you feel like you're getting too overwhelmed, it'll do more harm than anything if you don't. I hope some part of this was helpful & good luck! ♡

me writing the worst paragraph of my life knowing that a sexier, more hydrated version of me will fix it later

While I’m on the subject, I want you guys to learn this…

Did you know that how you talk to yourself alters your DNA?

The way you speak to yourself, your thoughts, emotions and inner dialogue—impacts your DNA through epigenetics. Negative self talk raises cortisol, triggering genes linked to inflammation, aging and diseases. Conversely, positive self talk activates genes for healing, resilience and longevity. Chronic stress and emotional trauma can alter DNA expression and even be passed down to future generations.

This also applies to what you hear. Negative words, insults and toxic conversations increase cortisol, rewiring neural pathways to make stress a default state. Constant exposure to negativity, whether through people or media, can impact gene expression.

Just how stress harms DNA, gratitude, affirmations and meditation can rewire it positively. These practices lower stress, trigger DNA repair, and activate genes for immunity and anti aging. Consciously shifting self talk can change your biology. "It is not that easy!" Yes, it is.

Research suggests binaural beats and solfeggio frequencies influence brainwaves, promoting focus and emotional balance. Mantras, prayers, affirmations can impact cellular structures, proving sound vibrations affect genes.

How long does this take, you ask?

Immediate (Minutes to Days): A single thought can raise or lower cortisol almost instantly.

Short Term (Weeks to Months): 6–8 weeks of daily gratitude, mindfulness, or affirmations can shift gene expression.

Long Term (Months to Years): Consistent mental reprogramming strengthens immunity, reduces disease risk, and slows aging.

Your thoughts shape your body at a genetic level so choose them wisely.

"And I had to explain a lot of stuff to him." It amazed me how Johnny could get more meaning out of the stuff in there than I could— I was supposed to be the deep one."

The Outsiders, SE Hinton

i have no assigments and no tests to study for. wtf? im free? 100% free? i will wake up tomorrow and think "what do i have schedule to do today?" and there will be absolute nothing? insane

the sunshine court notes

first things first riko needed to be brutally beaten to death, a shot was too quick

renee talked like a fortune cookie and it was pissing me off

i wish we got more of Wymack and Jean, it was very nice of him to get on the plane with Jean

jean immediately getting annoyed with basic life is really funny

jean is also really sassy and hilarious

also something weird happened in jeremeys house

my personally theory is that he had a sibling who died and his family thinks its his fault

like maybe an accident or maybe the sibling overheard something that they weren't supposed to and his sibling had to die as a result

whatever happened the butler knows about it and is trying to protect him

and whatever happened had to be bad because the act of dying his hair had his family ban him from the dinner table

neil believing his relationship with andrew as a strength his really good for his character, considering his mom was so keen on him not forming any connections

the fact that jean actually considered reaching out to his sister, only for him to learn that she was dead breaks me every time

and neil using her to force him into a belief that he doesn't deserve to belong to anyone but himself was a necessary cruelty.

i also like that Jeremey was the one who telling him about Rikos death was good

jean has no agency in the entire 1st act of the book, he is taken from the nest and basically held captive, then he is forced to go to the sunshine court, which he doesn't like but has to

the foxes all hide info from jean for his own good

and jeremey being the one to tell him is nice because jeremey is his first taste of freedom

jean talking about his abuse in such a casual manner is horrifying bc he thinks its so normal and its horrifying

" i didn't ask" broke me in so many ways because Jean doesn't particularly trust jeremey at the time, nor did it slip out while he was angry, he just said it so casually like it was normal

At first i felt bad for Lucas, but not so much anymore.

he was a sympathetic character who was trying to straddle a thin line of having faith in his captain and who he belives is a violent stranger and his brother who is not the same boy he know

but bringing Greyson to jean was soo fucking stupid it pisses me off

and the fact that jean wasn't even really fighting back, just trying to protect himself is upsetting

also the imagery of him punching the keypad over and over again just trying to get out is gutting

jean isn't a dog who bites, he's a dog who puts his foot to the fire because he believes that he is supposed to do

the water scene was sad as well because he was trying so hard to behave but physically could not

also Jeremey and really most people on the team meet his violence with unflinching kindness is really sweet

i also appreciate how jeremey doesn't force jean to talk about his trauma or even takes the notes from him, jean has had little to no control in his life since he was 15 and forcing him to talk about it when he wasn't ready would have made it worse

and jean asking jeremey to pretend was sweet and what was even sweeter when he did

jean learning to cook is nice as well because he needs life skills

theory for book 2: jeremey buys jean his freedom and jean becomes an exy coach ( more of a pipe dream i guess)

i also think Greyson will kill lucas

jeremeys saving grace being the thought of his sister deserving better is horrifying

i wish we got more of his relationship with Zane

neil is a real one because Jean compared Greyson to drake once, and Neil took care of it for him

jean being afraid of sleeping alone is so sad because he's basically been trained to sleep next to someone

and the fact that he has nighmares, but they are hardly mentioned, and jeremey is the one to bring it up is so sad

also kevin should have tried harder to reach out to jean

jean pushed away the foxes because he knew they would eventually leave him too

jean being steadfast in the idea that if he plays a good game he will have momentary peace is heartbreaking

jean holding onto his talent despite people thinking he slept his way to the top is also upsetting

i hope we get a zane and jean reunion bc i think they truly cared for each other

maybe kevin sends jean a postcard and a magnet and they can reconnect

also him realizing his very limited possesions have been destroyed made me almost cry

and the magnet scene with jeremey is very sad, but him realizing the magnets are broken make him realize that he is

kevin and jean still both being afraid of riko is telling bc riko is dead

let me know what yall thought... always willing to talk about all for the game.

when i say "romanticise the ordinary" i don't mean "hide all aspects of your life that do not fit under some kind of aesthetic" but rather "strive to find beauty in all the little things because i promise you, happiness can be found everywhere"