Look At This Scar. This Is Proof That I Was Once A Mother. I Gave Up My Body And My Child For My Country.

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ONE THING THAT FUCKING KILLS ME ABOUT IVAN AND TILL SINGING MY CLEMANTIS THAT I'M NOT SEEING ANYONE POINT OUT??

IN THE ORIGINAL MY CLEMANTIS MIZI AND SUA SING THE FINAL “MY CLEMANTIS” TOGETHER BUT IN TILL AND IVAN’S VERSION IVAN SINGS IT ALONE???

You know. Because. Unrequited Feelings and All.

THE FACT THAT HE SINGS THAT LINE AFTER SINGING "Oh my Clemantis, please stay by my side"

TILL DOESN'T EVEN SEEM TO HUM THE LAST PART WITH IVAN, NOR DOES HE SING THE LAST LINE WITH HIM LIKE MIZI AND SUA DO TOGETHER. HE FUCKING DOESN'T STAY BY IVAN'S SIDE

ALSO. IVAN'S VOICE TREMORING AT THE VERY END OF HIM SAYING THE FINAL "CLEMANTIS"

I FUCKING HATE IT HERE

sincerest apologies to anyone following for funny art posts btw I just have Not had the time to make anything and my art has been in Horrible condition lately 🙏 🙏 🙏

(Mod Toto) Today is both Saizo and Kaze’s birthday! And since they’re twins I made one of this for both of them! 

Do you think Saizo likes cake or should I prepare myself to get stabbed?

Op I'm so sorry I rambled in your tags and reached the tag limit uhh yeah don't read all that--

i think my pea sized brain finally understood ugetsu and aki’s relationship. akihiko before meeting ugetsu was a person who was confident in his music ( classical ) but when he met ugetsu , the immense talent that he had , made him feel inferior and he began to doubt his own abilities but at the same time he fell for ugetsu , he thought if he could carry the burden ugetsu had been shouldered upon he could be with him , have him , for himself and that way not only would he be connected to music but also be with ugetsu . around this point of time they became emotionally attached to each other to the point where ugetsu became someone irreplaceable to aki ( remember akihiko’s parents divorced and he had no place to go and ugetsu’s offer to stay with him was like a manna thrown upon aki in a desert ; ugetsu became his ultimate refugee , his home ) .

the relationship also could have been simple but no . it was now ugetsu’s turn to realise that he was being way too dependent on aki , which he started to repel , because for him music was everything , as a deeply sensitive and insecure person who was unable to express himself music was his only way to let out his loneliness but he realised how much he and akihiko being together was suffocating , cause he felt he was pulling aki down and because he loved akihiko sm he wanted him to free of this bond , ( and something i realized after sm over analysis ugetsu clearly draws line between him and other people not because he’s a genius and had superiority complex but because some people just don’t like ppl crossing that inner boundary of theirs , invading them , the part they never want anyone to know or see and akihiko was slowly starting to invade him - his deepest parts ) where the two of them can be free , and hence came those bitter words “ let’s break up ” .

when you love someone sm that your entire world revolves around them and one day they suddenly tell you to break off it’s like your world suddenly stops spinning . it’s like banging on the door of an empty room ; like ripping off an old bandage that you never cared to open and digging on the scar . the relationship only gets more complicated from here on when they start fooling around with other people , ugetsu clearly wanting to cut off from akihiko starts having flings asking aki on purpose to not come because he has someone new and it’s a sign to go already ! which agitates akihiko a lot , someone whom you thought had accepted you and had wanted you for who you were doesn’t want you anymore , aki feels helplessly rejected and used by ugetsu , he starts to think that he was the only one who was emotionally invested in this relationship and that is why he refers to his first love as unrequited and one sided. having no place to stay and considering how aki didn’t stay in touch with his parents he starts doing odd jobs , doing unimaginable things ( flings with money ? ) and most of all the only way he thought he could ever even make ugetsu be disappointed was by switching the genre of his music , he starts playing drums making it seem like ’ if you’re moving on so will i ’ .

bUT the relationship gets more and more complicated oof it’s like playing snakes and ladder , you keep rolling the dice and you’re close to the finish and poof you get bitten and you’re back to square one , it becomes a loop from here on not letting go of each other and haruki comes into play somewhere here ( and because this is solely only about akigetsu , not gonna elaborate all that much on akiharu) . when aki realizes how much he loves being with haruki because not only does he begins to enjoy music he starts to think better of himself and wants better of himself too and after the horrendous mistake he inflicted upon haruki he wants to be a person who deserves him , worthy of his love and when he confronts to ugetsu about this, ugetsu gets irritated by how how akihiko wants to abandon their relationship but nevertheless at last mafuyu’s music serves as an ointment on a wound , it provides warmth to the frozen and cold telling it’s okay , okay to let go , okay to move on being hurt or having found someone . IT’S OKAY™ .

I suddenly got hit with Kano Brainworms and now I have this Completely Unorganized post and it's gonna be your guys' problems now !! Just saying there is no flow to this whatsoever I just slapped all my points on and called it a day

Just. god I will Never stop thinking about the Tateyama siblings relationship with their younger selves and changing and growing and learning to accept themselves and Kano's. Not doing that. Remaining stagnant.

Like it's Everywhere . (Unfortunately it's been Sooo long since I've read light novel 5 so I don't have any sources to pull from there but I'm sure there's a ton okay)

Yobanashi Decieve is spent tearing down Kano's layers throughout the entire song and what do you find at the end? When he finally admits that he hates all this? Hates himself? What do you find at the center of the Kano Onion? His crying child self. At his core he still believes he is that crying boy, even says it himself "Ah, you never change", he's sneering at his current and past self, because they're the same, they're all the same. He's never moved on from his past habits and weakness. He looks at him and all he has to say is "Ah, you never change" and "Whoops, I screwed up"

Oh but we're not Quite done peeling the Kano Onion yet !! There's still a liiitle more left...

Close-up shot time !! Now you can see in its fullness his weakest moments, he's mocking his own suffering. He smiles and mocks himself, closes his eyes to his own pain and just bows. Throws my laptop

There's also this official art !! I think about this a lot but have never voiced it out before so here we go~

Just. Everyone showing off the wounds that led to their deaths, either with a smile/some enthusiasm or indifference at worst, with a pretty character-telling pose as well. And then fucking Kano, not even focusing on the photoshoot but staring directly at the evidence of his weakest moment, holding it limply, detachedly. Maybe saying that he's starting at it with scorn is too strong a word, his face looks slightly bitter at best, but I'd bet everything that that's what he's feeling.

I don't know just. Everyone around him, whether it's his siblings or the whole god damn Dan, being shown with some form of acceptance of their pasts and traumas, meanwhile Kano's still staring it in the face. Damn, you really don't lie when you say you haven't changed huh?

God my favorite example though, the one that makes me Scream.

Thank you Sidu for this art! I am now on the ground crying.

I'm too lazy to grab them right now but Kido and Seto also have art of themselves with their past selves. Kido fondly pats the head of her younger, insecure self, having growing confident and comfortable in her own skin. Seto holds his past self's hand in something liks solidarity. He doesn't have to be scared anymore. He's becoming the stronger person that he wanted to be.

And Kano?

Ah. well~. He's clinging to his past self, sobbing into his lap while his past self attempts to comfort him. Hm. With growing up you should become someone that your younger self can be proud of, right? Like Kido and Seto. They overcame their shortcomings so they could become proud of who they are today, right? Kano's collapsed in front of his past self.

Guess he didn't really do that, huh?

If anything, he's putting himself even lower than his past self. Maybe he hasn't grown, maybe not even stagnated but rather became worse, just with the same flaws that he had in the past. He didn't change at all, he just sank lower.

Your younger self can attempt to comfort you but didn't you hate yourself back then, too? So what does that make you now? Your younger self looks hunched over and dejected. He's probably just as disappointed as you are.

Ah, and there's text too, right? What does that say?

Mm. (I might have written an incorrect character but this sounds about right I think?) I feel like this was said somewhere else in kagepro, also in regards to Kano, but to be completely honest I totally forgot where. Still though. Uh.. fun! Kano says to himself not words of comfort but assurance that the future will only be more miserable, that he will only hate himself more as time goes on. As if you couldn't already tell with the art itself.

In Yobanashi Decieve, present Kano sees his other self suffering and jeers scornfully. They never changed. Here, past Kano and present Kano suffer together, with present Kano openly suffering if only to himself, clinging to his past hurt for comfort. Together they think, they never will change, they'll only get worse. It'll only get more painful.

Ahem. Just. Ugh! This one piece says so god damn much, and even more when you put it next to Kido's and Seto's. It killed me when I first saw it and still kills me to this day !!! God !

Also I don't have any funny images for this one but. Thinks about. (And I might have some details wrong because again, it's been a while since I've read light novel 5) How he thought he was useless as a child, wondered why he wasn't discarded like a functionally useless object (pretty sure he thought this while his mom threw away a broken tv remote or something?). And then in manga route 2 how he gives his life away as a tool to preserve the others' lives. He has a "use" and he's expending his whole life on it. Like I mean they're gonna die anyway but do you Really have to be like that I Hate you I hate you I h

Like once he has an objective purpose like that he faces it with an easy smile on his face. Bittersweet, yeah. But he does it so god damn willingly. Maybe he's just pretending to take on the role so easily, but still, I can't help but think that he found some comfort in having a direct "use" like this. Even if it just meant his death, for a hopeless cause. If he could just fulfill this purpose, then....

Just the way he smiles at his own demise during that Whole Sequence, even when the remainder of the Dan is Right There.

Just man. Collapses.

Kagepro is all about change and growth and growing up and realizing change and the future really isn't too scary. Meanwhile Kano's stagnant, still sees him as unchanged from his younger self, is too scared to change his manners even if it may help him. No wonder he hates himself. I'm just. Guh, shoves the themes of the narrative in his face Kano Please I'm begging

Like mf he looks content like everyone else in Summertime Record but Are You Really. Are you Really happy yet. Have you really found it within yourself to accept change. Accept yourself. Accept Everything. Do you really think that you'll be able to finally make your younger self smile?

Buries my face in my hands God this man will never Not haunt me for the rest of my days. Get him therapy. I'm normal about him.

I was supposed to be working on assignments but here I am, with my stupid little Kano essay at 1 in the morning. I doubt anyone's gonna read this but if you did I hope you enjoy? This man is very silly in all the worst ways. I love him, I hate him, I want to shove him into a microwave. I want to put him under a microscope. I have multiple times. This man is like a fundamental character that will never Not be a part of my life even when I thought the kagepro hellhole was somewhat behind me for the meantime. He just. Man! He's a lot. And I hope you're in pain with me now too over it ! Okay that's all bye byee~

“you don't remember me? that makes me sad. last time, you swore that you would never forget me.”

more artstyle experimentation woooooooo

Every now and then I think about and come back to this comic, I love it so much eheh

met a big snake in a dream, had a strange conversation